When mine is at tangga ke-6. I don't think so you all should called me Itam. Because i more whiter than Snow White duh. So, saper yang pepandai buat nih? Nak kena nih. As we argue about this. I have my own kedudukan and panggilan. 1. Balong 2. Kangah 3. Ya Uda 4. Landak 5. Lalang 6. Sweat and cute 7. Panjang 8. Busuk How? Ready to applied this to my family... Syuhhh... I think this is why we called each other by name not panggilan stupid like this. Bye! |
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Saturday, November 12, 2016
Kedudukan dan panggilan
Thursday, November 10, 2016
In dilemma
Bit feeling like brain tak center when i'm typing this post.
Someone may shoot me somewhere somehow.
Wrong target la woi.
Or it's just me the one who actually yang in a wrong target.
Astagfirullah al-azim.
Serabut duh!
I need to luahkan all of this. What my otak think before it's exploded.
Even in every doa selepas solat i cried when i talked to Allah about this clingy things.
I felt useless.
I felt ashamed.
I shouldn't have through this.
It's so haramm and lari from my Islamic life goals even it's felt so right.
Oh no.
As i knew this is my personal blog.
So i think i can trust this page and you, who hardly stalk my blog.
Kept this secret between us.
Let's get terus terang, it's about a men.
Who make my world up and down, thick and thin and spinning sampai pening.
Not so handsome duh.
Either not even my taste actually.
Jauh sekali nak kata ada 'hot killer body'.
Or even a billionaire line.
Pelik kan.
He just only a plain guy with annoying attitude, package perfectly.
Annoy me sampai boleh bawak gaduh la.
So, the problems are... i don't like this feeling.
The unpronounce feeling that i start to feel for him.
Oh please, I'm not admire him either.
As for your information.
Just I hate it when i caught he stares at me.
The way he looks at me.
And i'm the one who the first look away. Always.
Because i can't do it.
To reveal the truth behind those eyes.
... I don't like everything about him. Full-stop.
I tried to play cool.
Kept telling myself that he just my friends.
Kawan susah senang.
My male friends. And maybe trying to be close one. In still remain, friends zone.
Yeah, better like this.
Bulan ke bulan... makin lama we're makin lain.
And it's more than normal.
It's scare me to the bottom. Ini bukan sepatutnya yang di rancang!
One day, after year passes.
I thought why not just give him a chance.
Anyone deserve it. Sampai bila tak nak mingle around, kan.
Treat me like may be we were meant for each other... or we weren't.
And this is just how it had to be.
Pening ar!
Or it's all just my imagination.
And he even don't have a feeling to me?
But all my friends said he likes me.
So, why not I let the time tell.
Sometimes it's feel awkward, and go on awkward.
In every case, I successfully pandai avoid to go out alone with him... because i'm not fully trust him.
Even we're friends.
Good decision.
But, lately... he became my good driver.
My tempat untuk luahkan everything. He always be there for me.
And he love it when i shared those with him.
Or even sometimes we also argue when have to deal with his annoying manners like everyday.
And most drama yang i'm not really like is pretending-to-be-games.
That i think we're memang tak betul in this part.
Seriously, if you questioning me what the real happening is...
Aku sendirik memang tak faham.
Really tak faham.
I donno if he is bipolar type or dulu masa lahir adalah premature baby or what because,
One time he act like he is the guddey gentleman i knew.
He cares about me. Treat me better.
That make me so special. Like Queen gituh.
He gave me something even i'm not asked for it.
Because i'm not give him anything. Bersalah sebenarnya bila fikir balik.
Anyhow i tetapkan pendirian yang dia bukan my real husband that in my responsibilities to care.
Right.
Even he always tried to act like one.
How he one day want me to choose in between clothes he want to buy.
Done pairing same clothes also. Huh.
Share something personal or when needing support about our family things too.
Most i liked, cover my hungriness habit with his food suppliers.
And tolong habiskan my balance makanan.
Paling top, Soh tolong kejut sahur.
Am i sub as his maid or what?
Uit, gih kahwin la bro!
And one time, he turned 360 degree. Act like i'm not existed.
In this universe.
Memang pelik gila.
Or he copied my act?
I'm not giving him a cold shoulder actually.
Sorry duh if he felt so.
I just tried to act normal. Act friendly. Act how the real me to you.
Like we supposed to be.
Same way i treat my male friends and sikit special for you, maybe.
But when i tried, i just can't.
As banyak mata memandang. I felt they are insecure me.
I hate attention, and ini semua so not me.
It's so new for me.
Me and nonsense lovely dovey story line fantasy. So mushy.
So yurks!
Hahhahhaa...
Period.
By the way...i still remembered the first time we met.
In a noisy crowded elevator.
And me in so traditional yellow big size baju kurung.
Perasan cantik la tuh.
So selekeh for real actually.
Then you caught my attention in your also selekeh shirt after work.
For a second i said Astagfirullah.
Ada jugak orang lagi selekeh daripada me. Joking.
And the door open, i go out. One floor separated us.
What if i told you that i missed our night conversation, would it's mean anything for you?
Bruhhhh...
Again,
Why should i have this feeling anyway.
This is not so me, ya Allah.
Like seriously... me?
My friends said, if I fall for him?
I said i don't know.
Because i don't know what fall really feel like.
I'm emotionless girl. My emotion only goes to family things.
You want me to feel what?
I'm new to something romantika de amour fantasy, so please.
Tell me what fall feel like oh my friends.
Really I can't analyse my own feeling.
I hate like crazy when something related about him pop up in my mind.
Make me feel stupid. Started make me to think that he is my future.
He i will called the right one?
The real question is... is he is the right one?
Or my Creator have a another plans.
Istiharakh... like Allah said. But i'm afraid to do it.
How if he is.
What should i do...
And how if he is not.
Honestly, marriage is a huge deal trader.
And i'm the one risking myself...
Because i'm the one who will surviving to bring the good in me, in him, in between family.
Communities. And our future.
What should i do now?
Warghhh, i don't want to talk about this anymore.
I need my emak.
I need her big hug.
Allah, help me too,
Oh please...
Wednesday, November 09, 2016
Peah: Father and daughter time
My sister sent me a new updated about Peah in our family Whats app.
And i like it very much.
Alhamdulillah.
Just make my day.
She looks so awesome!
And act like a guddey daughter ever.
She start to talk some words and actively want to explore new things.
And most i geram adalah bila tahu that she have her own make up bag.
The most make me more surprised is when i heard that dia bersiap lagi lama daripada mine.
Bruhh...
Really kak, did you teach that also?
Oh mai.
Anyway, this what i called family goals.
#familygoals
Teach and attract your kids towards Islam since they are growing up.
Easier for her and for you.
Bak kata orang,
Biarlah melentur buluh daripada rebungnya,,,kan.
I really want give you big hug Peah.
Good job!
= )
Tuesday, November 08, 2016
Lipas
Aku repeat, an alive lipas.
And it's moving.
And flying!!!!
Like 'f' i want to speed miles away from it.
Hate it very much!
One day, i met my friends at corridor.
And he with some cleaner guy tengah cam carik something di balik pintu.
So aku sajer kacau.
Mungkin diorang jumpa pintu keluar yang best untuk escape daripada department ke kan...
And he tetiba senyum kat aku and pegang lipas alive by his hand.
And fast and furious i ran away masa dia tried throw that thing to me.
Urgh.
As my senses are strong enough, aku sempat hide in one room area situ.
I quickly tangkap balik that lipas.
Caya tak cayalah... but i did.
And kejar dia balik.
We ran along that corridor until he hidden in a room area situ.
Cheit.
Penakut jugak budak tuh.
Stupid lipas.
Aku terus lepaskan benda tu and ran away...
Lantak la dia nak gih maner pon.
Tetiba my friends yang sama bukak pintu and act like he hold something.
I thought it's that a lipas again.
So i ran like Mr. Bolt in runaway Olympic games.
And maked three full round in that room.
I sempat jerit, if dia throw that thing to me. I will kill him.
I will kill him like seriously.
And aku campak mayat dia bagi jerung makan.
Dia tetiba tengok my pocket.
The hell dia nak lentak benda tu in my pocket.
Gilo.
Tapi rupanya dia checking ingat i kept that thing in my pocket.
Lagilah gilo.
Terus aku bagi kick, kena tipu rupanya... penat tau aku lari...
I hate lipas as much i hate marshmallow.
Huahauahuaaa...
But you're my nightmare.
Sunday, November 06, 2016
Makes everyone worried
Assalamualaikum.
Yesterday, i makes everyone worried about me.
Aku rasa bersalah bila fikir balik.
Something that yang aku anggap ianya normal but it's became a big issue to others.
It's my fault. Sorry guys.
As i cancelled my oncall to next week.
So I planned to go to my volunteered class as usual.
Then, my friend said diorang ada program lain.
And dia wanna makes appointment with me untuk hang out kat luar.
And discuss sekali penambah baikan programme kelas yang tengah kami usahakan.
Tanpa fikir panjang aku accept je la.
I think i can trust dia.
Pastu, dia cakap hang out kat tempat dia.
Uit... outside maybe better kot.
So we capai kata sepakat.
Best public place...
KL Central. Depan McDonalds at 10 am.
Deal.
Then, as our first met kat luar... tetiba that morning dia cakap nak bawak kawan dia sekali.
Dia ni Germans people, tapi cakap slang indonesia.
Then... aku rasa insecure.
70 % kawan dia maybe same country.
You know what I mean.
And here, I'm alone... And alone.
So aku decided just inform my families.
Then aku whatsapp some details to my sister.
And she memang gila worried.
And aku whatsapp same details to my friends here around KL.
And she also shared same feeling.
And my friends dekat Ipoh pon dah membebel taip panjang-panjang kat whatsapp...
Oh no.
Aku sampai terpaksa screenshot a chat as a proven to my sister that someone here standby for me if anything happens.
Barulah dia ok.
As result, they make me to hold my phone every second.
Update with them every hour.
And stay in one place.
No drink or food, unless before their approval.
And stay alert.
Hailo.
So, i make sure i patuh all the list.
And until i finished everything and on the way home pon my friends still taip ayat panjang-panjang kat whatsapp...
She really worried about me.
Really rasa bersalah.
I swear to her that next time aku akan heret someone with me.
Even though i think I'm big enough.
And I think orang yang aku jumpa not teruk maner.
Not all Germans people are bad duh.
They all not Hitler either.
So, don't judge a book by its cover.
We have good time by the way.
And, to my sister... sorry.
I make you scare.
Sorry again.
And to my friends... sorry for all of you.
Thanks to be by my side.
I still love you all.
Sorry all, thank you all.
= )
Sunday, October 30, 2016
No update
No time for updating my blog like everyday... sorry guys.
Can't help it.
And i have no time for dating also.
Sorry mate.
LOL.
Weekdays cam biasa full of duty job,
And akhirat collector programs.
Ini termasuklah jugak with my everyday Sunday morning charity class.
With new dua orang Belanda akan mai lagi... practice there for next three month. Hope everything with going well.
Can't join you all.
Really cannot duh.
Sorry.
Maybe next time.
Really feel bad for him.
Because same date i boarding to my other friends house duh.
Kami plan nih dari awal lagi.
Can't decide now.
So, i no need to worries about the kiddos.
Alhamdulillah.
Let her pulak yang demam jaga budak-budak nih.
Cayokk!
Bye.
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Islamic practice: Summaiyya and Khalil
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Sentap
Sentap?
If korang nak tahu,
Ayat sentap nih aku belajar daripada tempat kerja aku sekarang ni lah.
Sentap merujuk more kepada orang yang senang merajuk and suka simpan dalam.
Cliche sangat.
Pelik tak pelik la kan.
Lelaki sekarang hilang dah macho diorang.
And, so far aku actually good pada tempias tu semua.
Maybe sebab aku lebih suka buat hal sendirik.
But i did.
And a small war happens.
Dude, kau period ke apa oi.
You're super wrong.
I already said, what's gonna happen to that box.
And everyone will aspect the same thing.
And just because of it nak sentap.
No,no,no...
You're dealing with wrong person.
You not listening pada apa aku cakap.
And you blaming me.
I still can tahan. I will not sentap back...
And, don't worry...
I will give you my silent treatment.
Rasakan.
And, whatever you want said to me.
I can said back...
'Aku tak nak cakap dengan kau, kita gaduh'
Then jangan nak gedik-gedik baru datang kat aku.
Sayonara lahhh....
Aku tak akan pujuk.
Remember this.
If i know that my mistake, i will say sorry.
But if the small things celah gigi nak sentap.
Easy dude, where are your kemachoan?
Sorok bawah ketiak ker.
Control your sentap menyentap.
Not everyone is perfect. You also included.
Decreased your ego.
Smile more and less the drama.
Barulah tak ada orang kutuk belakang.
Ops.
You can do it!
= )
Monday, October 24, 2016
Jubah
Alhamdulillah.
And online marketing about jubah pon not bad.
Banyak pilihan dah.
And i like this kind of style.
Simple, longgar,
So islamic and reasonable to any event.
Nak gi kenduri ker formal ker tak formal, nak gi jenjalan pon okeh...
Mane tau time tu la crush or admire lalu.
Or mak mertua tetiba soh bertandang ke rumah,
Kan...
Wink,wink.
I wore this jubah thing like everyday.
But now, i have to ride my motorbike... and seems impossible to continue this good habit.
Sedih gak la.
Tak pernah try lagi so far...jubah and motorbike?
Kang ado kain lekat kat rantai kang.
Dah melukut aku tepi jalan nanti.
Huhuhuuuu...
One fine day maybe.
Lara dress, ash color and from benang hijau brand.
I admire how the simple and cute it is.
Rare nude color of course.
Dan because it's jubah la kan... nak komen apa lagi.
Raya la, kena pakai baju baru.
Okeih.
Even kena kerja sebenarnya, tak la dapat teman adik aku balik india...
Mesti dia jiwa kacau if baca statement aku nih.
Hohohooo...
Nothing bad with it.
If you can tegakkan apa agama kamu ajar, fight for it.
Macam aku, dah biasa pakai jubah.
Bila pakai jeans sometimes nih rasa tak selesa sebab dah biasa pakai baju longgar-longgar.
Good ar kan.
So... selamat berjubah la yer.
Bye.
Sunday, October 23, 2016
Recipe : Jeruk Epal Hijau
Friday, October 21, 2016
Cerita rantai aku
Assalamualaikum.
Hah, nampak tak tuh?
That's my rantai.
The only rantai i have.
Benda ni memang sentimental value to me.
Aku tak boleh nak share, nak cerita nih bit personal sebenarnya.
Hanya few yang tahu the true story behind it.
Even some of my sibling pon tak tahu.
Aku baru siap repair rantai nih minggu lepas,
Yang patah kat connection dia.
Repair kat Wah Chan Ampang Point.
After deducted new one dengan old one punya connector.
Kena charge semua dalam Rm 67.00...
Campur upah semua la.
Quiet ok, sebab the one yang dia ganti bit tebal.
And good service.
Ok lah.
Lagi pon emas memang mahal kan...
Benda tu patah sebab tertarik kat baju sekali.
Nasib tak hilang.
Kalau hilang boleh gila kot.
Dah la aku dah masuk nih... dua kali hilangkan loket dia.
Sampai sekarang aku tak letak loket.
Sebab nak carik loket yang sama... tak jumpa.
Dia old school punya loket.
Pray, one day aku akan jumpa.
And, mekasihlah bebanyak kat driver yang tolong teman tuh.
Patut Sabtu after wedding kami dah betulkan.
Tapi aku pon percayalah dia cakap tak bukak. Gi esok.
Rupa-rupanya diorang kedai emas bukak sampai kol 10 malam, kawan aku cakap.
Memang rasa time tuh nak ketuk-ketuk jer empunya badan.
Rejam sekali. Baru puas.
Sebabnya hari Ahad aku malas nak keluar.
Pikirkan rasa responsibilities yang tinggi kat rantai tuh.
Aku gagahkan lah diri ni gak.
And settle.
Lega hati.
Alhamdulillah.
I will take care of this things the best i can do.
I will kept it close to my beating heart.
That's like magical thing that make me strong inside out.
Because it from the favorite person in my life!
= )
And i love it so much.
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Kenduri kahwin
My cousin.
Kami sebaya.
So, biasa bab-bab attend any event... my brother yang akan selesaikan on behalf our family.
Disebabkan dia sudah out of KL.
So, it's me.
The only one yang kena take over.
Huhuhu...
Reasonable kan?
Mak ayah pon paham.
Pastu on sabtu tu plak... kes cancel lah, postponed lah.
And aku memang boleh balik on time.
Rasa bersalah plak tak pergi.
Cam menipu, kan.
Pikir punya pikir, aku pon decided lah pergi.
Ada yang tak boleh ikut lah.
Ada hal lah.
Ada tuh, ada yang confirmed. Aku siap gosok baju untuk dia.
Carikkan teman gih.
Pastu cancel last minute.
Tak marah pon, geram jer.
Aku bukan tak nak ajak dia.
Daripada first tadi aku ok jer ajak dia.
Tapi tahulah, ni bit family things.
I'm single. Dia pon single, available aku tak tahulah.
Nanti dia cakap apa plak kan.
Mesti dia rasa tak selesa.
And bila dia cakap. Dia ok. Aku ok jer balik.
Pas solat Zohor kami gerak.
Dia punya nervous aku rasa boleh buat bahan nak gelak guling-guling atas lantai.
Hahhaha...
Nak gak tukar yang formal.
Pastu. Tanya aku nak tunggu dalam kereta ke apa time sampai tuh.
Gila apa,
If nak soh aku makan sorang-sorang. Bek aku tak yah ajak dia.
Dari tadi aku dah gih sendirik.
Pastu siap pakai minyak rambut la.
Pakai kasut lah.
Haish, pakai selipar jepun pon aku tak kisah lah.
Pastu nak gi toilet before masuk dewan lah.
Hailo.
Ni aku bawak orang ker alien?
Tengah berbual-bual dengan mak cik aku kat entrance, baru dia munculkan diri.
Then, aku tak perkenalkan kan pon.
Even mak cik aku dah kenyit-kenyit mata dia. Bagi signal.
Whatever, aku lapar!
Time amek makanan...
Rajin plak dia amik pinggan and air tambah untuk aku.
Ni kalau dapat award actor of the year. Aku bagi lapan, sembilan sepulah kat dia.
Kemain.
Time aku dengan dia, buli aku ada lah.
Borak-borak.
Aku tengah-tengah best borak panjang. Terhenti jap.
Sebab paparazzi sibok, time tu la nak tangkap pic bagai.
Rimas kot.
Then, mak cik aku tanya soalan yang cepumas yang korang pon tahu.
Bila turn aku plak?
Aku cakap besok.
Hahhahha...
Dia cakap, dengan kawan aku tu la.
Aku cepat-cepat bagi hadiah and amek doorgift and say sayonara.
Huish.
Sepupu aku yang lain.
Nih, mak ayah aku akan pergi.
Time nih, nanti mesti mak cik aku akan report kat diorang.
Aku nak jawap apa.
Lalallala...
Makan lagi kan.
Aku tak kisah.
So, time nih aku biar kan jer dia.
Sebab nak bagi space.
So time tengah makan. Kawan dia, si groom datang.
And ada ker patut dia perkenalkan, cakap aku nih maid dia!
Ehh mamat nih, aku bunuh and campak kat laut kang.
Aku cakap, aku rembat bangla tepi jalan. Soh teman.
Fare and square.
Hahhaha...
Anyway. Aku tak de gambar nak share.
Sebab you know me, aku tak minat bergambar.
Tapi orang yang aku bawak tu ada lah.
Aku malas nak mintak.
Nanti if aku rajin mintak, aku update. And letak pic nyer. Hokeh.
Ni story lagi satu.
Nih, aku sambung post ke next entry.
Korang click sendirik la.
Bye!
Sunday, October 16, 2016
Bekal oi masak oi
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Viral mem-viral.
Nowadays,
It's hard untuk kita boleh lari daripada di-haunt oleh technology.
Mereka ada dimana-mana.
Double confirm.
Dimana-mana...
Related sekarang tentang pengguna teknologi dan internet adalah aktiviti viral.
Viral mem-viral.
Like a virus.
Included bad and good things.
Sometimes lawak gak sebab kadang-kadang ada benda yang tak logik pon boleh jadi viral.
Stupid people.
Cari likes la tuh.
My advice,
Purify your intentions before start post something.
There can be a viral in a seconds.
And if it's only kait rapat tentang you alone.
Quite safe.
But if benda itu melibatkan someone, even seorang sahaja.
You're in dangerous side.
Why?
We're not an angle.
Always in perfect ways.
Mungkin benda di post akan mengguris, mengganggu ketidak senangan pada mana-mana pihak.
Dah become a problem.
jadi use wisely about this thing.
Jangan sampai benda nih jadi a collector of sin for us.
Ups!
Pada yang tukang share.
You all pon sama gak.
Not good oh key.
Sin tu sangat senang dapat.
Even sekecil kuman.
Sin always a sin.
Careful dengan jalan yang kita pilih, dear.
BTW, viral pon ada about good things gak.
Sajer nak bagitau.
If benda tu membawa kebaikan.
Pahala dapat.
Manfaat kepada semua.
Vise versa.
Choose sebaiknya.
Semua dah beso kan.
Takkan nak ajar lagi.
= )
Bye!
Some goes to me, what i'm wrote here in my blog can be a viral also. Is it bad or good in other eyes. Like every post is my battle with Creator to test my deen. But, I know... i did this only for Allah and my Islamic communities. Because i love each of them. |
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
He's going to know, my version
One day, he’s going to know. He’ll know your real name and your parents’ names, your birthday; your star sign and where you were born and some of your funny childhood stories that are not so fun to share actually. He’ll know your bored brown eyes color, your scars, and your freckles, and that how you naturally every time comfortable without make up on, the way you look after spending hours getting ready, how not in good figure you had that make you far less than perfect and how you honestly don’t really care. He’ll know your bad habit when you’re tired, your mannerisms to certain people, your stroppy pout if you’re hungry, and your laugh lines when you’re happy. He will watch all your facial expressions endlessly. The way you chew big amount of cookies, sip not in lady like, walk playfully, and sleep easily like there is no tomorrow. And why you don’t like take a picture and giving that silly face at the end. He’s going to know your secret bucket list dreams, the hyper you can be, your worries texting if they related to family things, your simple analogically wedding dream, and your fears at alive cockroaches. And mostly why goose became your favorite pets. He’ll know your strengths, weakness, laziness, energy, and your moody mixed emotions. He’ll know your favorite romance books, cartoon movie, unpredictable song list, sweet chocolate candy, and nude weird combination color. He’ll know your meals order; that Lychee is the top. He’s going to know your love for mayonnaise not yogurt, how much you hated onion, tomatoes, pickles olive and those colorful bell peppers and that you need your sandwiches prep into triangles. He’s going to know how you feel without you telling him, that you need a space from a look in your face, and that you’re crying without shedding tears. He’s going to know all of it. Everything. You, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what? He’s still fall in love with you for your imperfections. Even somehow you afraid the way he makes you feel because you don't want to feel anything. Trust the Creator, maybe it don't take you a big life event to realize you were with 'the one' because, we created you in pairs (Surah An Naba, verse:8). And everything will make sense.
= )
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#he'sgoingtoknoworhe'snotgoingtoknow
#hemustgoingtoknow
#everythinghe'sneedtoknowaboutme
#hewillreadthissomeday
#hedoesn'tknow
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#iwillmakehimreadthis
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#everythingwillmakesense
Monday, October 10, 2016
Selfie things
Assalamualaikum.
I have lots of friends who likes took their selfie.
Yeah,
Anywhere.
I can said...
Boring things ever.
And it's not fun.
Duh.
That's why when they want me together take a picture... my silly face i given.
Until they give up.
Hahahha...
This people really messing around with my life.
And they knew i hate it.
Wohooo.
Don't called me super nerdy person...
We can took many pictures, with many poses as you wish.
I can bare with these things.
I swear!
But please,
Not all things are picture time.
Just please enjoy the moments.
I need those space.
Oh key.
Actually,
Really don't understand, what so interesting about posting yourself.
To show new wrinkles...
Maybe.
Or show off something, that you're the only happy go lucky person in this life.
Or what.
= )
Just my twenty cent comment.
Even i'm not purposely post any selfie in my Facebook or Instagram...
But here,
All pictures,
I posted in my personal blog.
My perfect social media ever!
Anything you want to know about me, here are the answer.
I know it's called personal... sorry because i don't like be a public figure.
Not my intentions.
Not also giving anyone to know what i'm doing in any seconds.
Not my types.
And others reason because why i'm not like selfie things...
I don't like to see my own face.
And that silly face i make.
I know i'm gorges enough.
So, why needs same picture?
Quite enough i can see that every morning in my rectangle mirror.
Hohohooo..
See you all in next post.
Saturday, October 08, 2016
Maafkan aku
Minta maaf bukannya time Raya.
Or only time after kita buat salah.
But sifat maaf memaafkan sepatutnya ada anytime.
Anywhere.
Spread the love of forgiveness.
Itu yang Allah ajar pada kita sebenarnya.
Macam manalah aku boleh missed this part...
Hurm.
How aku minta maaf pada Allah everytime after solat.
Pray Allah maafkan aku balik.
Macam itulah banyaknya aku, perlu terapkan untuk memaafkan sesama insan.
Even maaf sekecil kuman.
Besar pahalanya disisi Allah.
InsyaAllah.
Aku percaya bahawa sedikit kemaafan mengikis sedikit demi sedikit rasa keegoan.
Ego itu masalah paling besar.
Bab nih, nanti aku citer kat lain post.
Anyhow, please...
Jangan simpan rasa dendam, rasa amarah dan kecewa sendirian.
Lepaskan dan maafkanlah.
Simpan nak buat apa, lagi bertambah parah adalah.
Kepuasan untuk para syaitan semata-mata.
MasyaAllah.
Dijauhkanlah...
Memang susah nak maafkan.
Tapi ingatlah, sekali kemaafan diucap.
Selamaya Allah redhai.
Atau if aku atau korang tak boleh buat anytime... anywhere...bab memaafkan nih
Sebelum tidur, try maafkan semua orang.
Atas apa yang terjadi pada hari itu.
Mungkin bit tak perasan pada ayat ditutur, dan perbuatan yang dilakukan.
Some ada yang terhiris perasaan.
Or ambil hati...
Ker, kan.
So, on our side, maafkan.
Untuk mereka.
Itu antara mereka dengan Allah.
Lagi molek if minta maaf depan-depan andai tahu that one salah sendiri, ke.
Yang ini untuk mereka yang berani kerana benar.
Maafkan lah.
Forgiveness is beautiful.
Dan dikesempatan ini...
Aku juga nak minta maaf, tulus daripada bottom of my heart.
Pada anyone yang aku kenal.
Family member... even my relatives.
Neighbourhood.
Sekejap atau lama.
Kawan lama atau baru tiga saat kenal.
Colleague sekarang and any ex colleague.
Andai ada any silap salah.
Terkurang.
Terlebih.
Terkasar.
Terlembut.
Terlajak.
In anything i do sepanjang perkenalan di dunia ini.
I pray you all always forgive me.
In anytime.
To you all,
I do the same also.
No heart touching.
My forgiveness is always be there.
In every seconds.
= )
Friday, October 07, 2016
Bising dalam surau
Yesterday, i went to TBS (Terminal Bersepadu Selatan)
Nak balik kampung Johor pulak.
So, ada fifteen minute left before bus sampai.
Sempatlah gih surau dia.
Yang memang comfortable gak la...
Start ambil wuduk...
And because lupa bring along telekung sendirik.
So used diorang punyalah kan.
Telekung public apa boleh aspect?
And diorang punya sejadah.
Tengah siap sedia nak angkat takbir...
Tetiba ada one group kat my back yang talk macam kat pasar.
Kuat.
And kecoh.
Huish!
Hate it.
Memang direct cakap tak khusyuk gila solat time tuh.
Pastu nak tegur...
Sebab ada bagi signal, berdehem sikit.
Tapi diorang makin kuat.
Memang out.
If diorang talk about all islamic things...
Or tengah mengaji ker,
I'm not really care,
But it's dhunya things. Every words memang jelas,
Please lah.
Looks semua tudung labuh... young.
Student la tuh.
Ini mencerminkan who you are.
If you are the one who not talk or start the conversation,
Please cakap kat your friends...
Together kept our mouth shut.
Senang.
For them, i forgive you all.
But starting today,
I pray you all and anyone will....
Respect those yang ada intention untuk dekatkan diri pada Allah.
And,
Respect where you are.
Kept the beauty of Islam.
Practice wisely...
Thursday, October 06, 2016
Kanak-kanak dan Islam
When i was a kid,
Aku still ingat... yang ustaz aku pernah tanya.
Siapa rasa solat itu susah?
Angkat tangan...
Tak ada siapa yang angkat tangan.
Sebab aku rasa solat tu simple gila kot.
Apa yang susahnya?
Dan ustaz tu sendiri yang angkat tangan.
Jawapan dia opposite from us.
Kami macam, WTF man...
Dia yang more ilmiah than us, cakap susah.
Kami yang lower than him lagilah no answer.
Kami semua pelik.
He not explain more, dia cakap time will tell.
Misteri gila.
Dan sekarang... after beberapa tahun barlalu, barulah aku tahu.
I understand the reason of susah behind it.
Why solat looks so easy,
But indeed in reach the perfect khusyuk solat itu memang susah.
What you're told us is true ustaz...
Tambahan dengan all kesibukan kerja.
Kadang nak on time pon tak sempat.
Tambahan pula, nak capai khusyuk in every meaning kita sebut and those movement we do.
Hayatinya memang sangat susah.
Hanya Allah sahaja yang faham.
Everyday we solat, every time tu jugaklah kita cuba perbaiki diri.
May Allah bless me and you.
Untuk didikan Islam, bagi yang ada sekolah agama.
I'm not gonna worried to much about them.
Macam sekolah-sekolah yang ada di Johor.
Morning usually we attend school biasa-biasa.
And petang we all must attend this school...
Sekolah agama.
Because only from here, we learnt Islam purely.
Gladly my emak paksa kami even memang malas macam mana pon.
And i grad sampai Darjah Khas.
Yeah to me!
Terima kasih dekat ustaz and ustazah semua.
You all berjuang pada jalan Allah.
Banyak ilmu yang aku dapat.
Memang membentuk akidah adan akhlak siapa yang attend.
Terima kasih sekali lagi pada semua.
Dan my emak dan ayah juga sent we all untuk malamnya , kelas mengaji.
Kelas mengaji is everyday.
Oh keh.
Weekdays for malam.
And petangnya for weekend.
Mak ayah pon paksa, more sekali if time weekend.
No megaji. No play!
Memang kejam.
Tapi that's what make us human today.
Sometime a force bit is needed for someone like me. |
Baru-baru nih, my sister ada citer yang bebudak nih ada pergi kubur ayah mereka.
Si Ziqa, Apiz and Anas semua lah.
Then, sampai jer... semua take their own 'lil space.
Si Ziqa baca Al-Fatihah.
Si Apiz baca doa makan.
Si Anas dengan muka tak ada perasaannya.
Bila kakak aku cakap Si Apiz baca doa makan.
Aku cam,
Hurmmmm....
No comment.
He still learning.
Most i proud is Si Ziqa sebab dia dah start hafal some surah.
Surah Al-Mulk also kakak aku cakap.
Fuyooo...
You're the best lah Ziqa.
She also start to pray.
And do good stuff.
She is wonderful girl ever.
Ajar bebudak tentang Islam memang nampak difficult.
Aku belum ada anak.
But, instead. Aku rasa plan mereka dekatkan diri dengan Islam...
Start from when you're pregnant.
Baca dan dengarkan your 'lil peanut some Quran.
And when their born. Azan or Iqamahkan...
And as time fly do something related them to Islam.
With correct way,
You can do it.
Take time i know.
But, if it's worth it...why not.
Selamat beramal dan don't stop for what you're doing.
Always doa pada Allah.
= )
Wednesday, October 05, 2016
Cameroon Highlands
Last Saturday, memang berderet case,
Aku dah geleng kepala...
Tapi, aku try stay cool dan doa banyak-banyak that case in my list habis on time.
And Alhamdulillah...
With Allah blessing,
Nearly finished, someone replaced me.
O thank you so much my friend.
Rasa nak buat pom-pom dance.
Sebab happy tak terkira.
Tak fikir banyak, aku terus solat jamak Zohor and Asar.
Pack my bag and all things,
Aku ambil shuttle van, drop kat LRT Ampang Park.
From there, aku stop kat KL Central.
Ada half an hour before boarding, aku sempat grab KFC Snacker box.
Gila lapar.
Then, sharp 04:00 pm ques masuk ETS...
Make myself comfortable.
And ready to take a nap.
Hhahhhahaa...
Perut dah kenyang kan.
Terabai jap three books yang aku beli tepi ETS waiting space.
Like i care.
Aku terbangun pon sebab nak update my location kat my sister.
Adik perempuan aku pon boarding same time but her from Perlis.
So, we decided to meet at ETS Tapah Road.
Aku arrived around 06:35 pm.
And her at 08:30pm.
Then we together took our dinner.
Awal tidur malam tuh sebab penat.
Tomorrow morning after Subuh, we started our journey.
And mid perjalanan, perut memasing dah kruk-kruk-kruk.
Tambah dengan jalannya yang berlingkar liuk.
Bagi yang was-was korang mabuk tak, just standby your own plastic bag.
Nasib we all stay cool dan takde yang muntah.
Fuh.
So, my sister took out her bread sausage roll with eggs.
Alas perut kejap and continue our plan.
First stop, i'm not sure where this place called.
But it's someone tea plantation.
Tepi-tepi lereng bukit tuh jer.
Dia punya scenery memang ohsem.
And we decided to eat our proper breakfast here.
Cer imagine... makan bihun goreng.
Depan tea plantation yang menghijau, tepi-tepi tu pokok bunga yang ada macam-macam colour and tambah sikit sinar-sinar matahari dan angin yang suam-suma kuku.
Heaven!
Pastu naik atas lagi, kami jumpa tea factory process.
My younger sister dah siap ques excitedly.
Tapi cancelled nak masuk sebab my older sister nak pergi tempat lain.
Whatever.
Next pit stop adalah another tea plantation.
Called Cameroon Valley.
Compare to previous place, i like sana lagi.
Sebab memang tak ada orang pon.
And it's free.
If sini, lots of local and foreigner.
And you have to paid RM 2.00 per head for their wristband entry.
And if korang tak nak masuk pon tak rugi actually.
Jimat tenaga nak berjalan jauh.
Kat luar tu pon ada barang souvenir boleh beli and nak snap pict lawa-lawa pon ok jer.
Muka control macho. |
And like it's a wrong way.
Because kena tempuh traffic jam about freaking three hour to reach there.
Oh no.
Why, why?
Because of that, kami sempat makan another bekal bihun goreng.
And tak tahu nak buat apa, aku tidur balik.
Bukak mata jer... baru sejengkal geraknya.
Allahuakhbar!
Stress. Stress. Stress.
Pastu nampak payung pasar yang besar tak jauh daripada situ.
My younger and i pon ada idea best.
After clear, we together jump out from the car.
And beli sebanyak makanan yang boleh.
Hahhahah...
Puas beli kami patah balik, carik our car and sambung makan reramai.
Sampai strawberry farm.
Kami ada dua choice.
Nak diorang petikkan strawberry or petik sendrik.
Eh, of course kami nak rasai experience pick our own strawberry...
Tapi sebenarnya... if korang nak tahu.
Farm yang korang akan petik.
Dia punya strawberry kecik sikit compare dengan strawberry yang diorang petikkan.
Nampak tak permainannya di situ.
Tapi whatever la kan.
Si Peah nih semua strawberry yang dia jumpa, dia cabut. Kena control lah. Mau botak farm owner nih. Gunting kat tangan dia gi gunting daun strawberry tu. Haiya. Pening la layan ini budak. |
Kat sini, kami sempat makan lagi.
Memang makan jela kerjanya.
And makanan dia, officially aku boleh cakap not so sedap.
Sorry guys.
Pastu kami on the way ke hotel.
Dalam perjalanan, kami jumpa another like pasar looks.
Sini, strawberry yang diorang jual more cheaper.
And besar-besar.
Five big paket, RM 25.00...
Compare dekat strawberry farm. One big packet, RM 25.00...
And all corn and those keledek yang manis-manis pon sangat murah.
Vegetables pon ada yang boleh dapat one packet, RM 1.00...
Fuyooo...
Ada kerja kosong tak sini uncle... cam best jer.
Kami pon lengkapkan all pesanan jagung mutiara or strawberry part.
Setelah kami laksanakan.
Smabung lagi tempuh traffic jam and baru nampak sign board hotel.
Yeah!
Sampai hotel, kami solat jamak and all night long my younger sister and i malas keluar.
We just stay at our room and menikmati tea yang pihak hotel provided.
With some popcorn.
And their free wifi.
Hehheehhe...
This place memang sejuk sangat-sangat.
Floor dia pon sama sejuk.
Luckily i bring my sweater.
But no socks.
Poor me.
Bangun pagi tuh rasa keras kejung.
Air dia pon lambat panas.
Sebab too cold.
I don't want to stay here.
Cancel my request nak kerja dengan uncle sayur tuh.
I can't.
Selesai solat Subuh kami gerak balik.
Too cold to stay here.
No lah, actually we rush because my younger sister ETS ticket is at 11:00 am.
So, make sure it's on time.
And kami nak elak traffic jam there.
Tak sanggup!
I returned back to KL on the next day.
Tuesday morning and arrived around 10:15 am.
Memang lambat gila masuk kerja.
Tapi aku dah informed person in charge.
So kept safe.
Some tip yang aku nak kongsi yang bagi aku most important are, jangan pergi Cameroon time cuti!
Full-stop.
Cuti yang rakyat Malaysia akan ramai-ramai naik sini gak.
Mood korang nak jalan-jalan memang akan spoil.
That's all.
And if korang rajin masak macam my sister, kol 02:00 pagi goreng bihun.
Memang hidup dan perut korang akan sentiasa happy.
Cameroon adalah tempat pelancongan yang setiap tempat banyak jaraknya.
So every bekalan yang korang bawak even ubi kayu cecah sambal ikan bilis pon akan sedap.
Sebab korang akan always hungry.
Or itu hanya focus to me?
Duh.
Orait, bye!
Happy holiday.
Saturday, October 01, 2016
FRIENDS: Akak Nida
Akak nih, aku panggil Akak Nida.
Dia memang sempoi.
Gila.
Gila pon tak sempoi cam dia.
Aku rasa aku boleh kutuk lebih-lebih kot, sebab bukan akak tu baca blog aku pon.
Blog aku kan private.
Evil smile.
Hehhehehe...
If aku in her shoes pon aku akan buat benda yang sama.
Family first!
Nak halang or bagi komen lelebih, not good la kan.
Kesian pulak.
Biarlah dia kept her own decision.
Kita as a friend just give her best wishes.
Banyak ilmu saka ehh, bukan... ilmu, skills untuk aku tak boring ngadap muka surgeon hari-hari.
Aku memang 'zero' kot masa mula-mula masuk sini.
Yelah change job duty.
So, cilok-cilok, cekau-cekau la ilmu siapa yang sudi bagi.
Antara yang pemurah ilmu, cam akak ni la.
Mekasih kak.
Kau memang ohsem.
Tu hobi pelik dia yang aku perasan.
Asal dapat pegang beskal jer,
Senyum macam dapat Lamborghini sebijik.
Asal dapat tengok orang men beskal jer,
Tengok macam Ferrari lalu.
Haish, suka ati kau la kak.
Asal kau bahagia.
Aku bukan big fan sangat lah kat si durian.
Tapi if ajak... aku makan.
Aku ohkey jer.
No probs.
Join sekaki gak.
After aku bersara jap daripada nek moto.
Ajak aku kuar makan lah.
Belanja makan kengkadang.
Aku segan gak la sekejap.
Bab nih aku terhutang budi banyak kat dia.
Akak ni la rajin gi tanya kabo...potong buah orange bagi aku makan.
Even aku bukanlah minat benda masam-masam nih.
Tapi aku telan gak la.
Sebab aku hargai usaha dia.
A day before, aku sempatlah patahkan kaki merayap carik some hadiah untuk dia.
Banyak suggestion actually aku mintak daripada mereka-mereka yang terpilih...
Tapi aku modified ikut tekak sendirik,
So, akhirnya aku beli Adidas bag sac untuk dia.
Kaler biru putih.
Tak la mahai mana...
Just nice.
Aku pikir if akak nih tak sudi accept my gift...
Dia boleh bagi kat anak dia yang dua orang lelaki tuh.
At least diorang akan guna as simpan sport things.
Gila pondan lah if seseorang lelaki tuh tak minat bag yang aku pilih, kan.
Lagi, boleh gunakan... isi apa-apa yang simple as travel bag.
Or boleh letak barang-barang antik and simpan dalam muzium kat dalam rumah ker kan.
Nak buat bag bekal ke tempat kerja baru nanti.
Alololo, so sweet!
Nanti time makan tuh ingat-ingatlah aku kat sini yer kak.
Jangan melantak lebih-lebih plak.
Bukan kata nak slim-slim ker.
Ops!
Macamlah akak tu pindah kat Afrika nun gayanya.
Ipoh jer kot.
Naik ETS, dua jam jer.
Drama jer lebih.
Always sempoi macam sekarang dan selamanya.
Kept spirit as a strong women.
Moga Allah berkati hidupnya include keluarga kecik dan keluarga besarnya juga.
Allah tetapkan jiwanya sentiasa dalam iman.
Allah sayangi dia setiap saat.
Dan,
Allah cepatkannya dapat jodoh, and cepat kahwin...ehhh.
Hehhehe..
Segala hutang if ada.
Minta maaf andai ada tercalit perasaaan or tersinggung.
Tergumpat mana-mana.
Terkasar ker.
And,
Always remeber...
I love you kak!
Thanks for everything.
= )
Friday, September 30, 2016
Little mystery!
Attention to all muslimah, My dear friends i know and far away... Here the best answer for our aurah project. If someone argue with you about why are you want to cover yourself. Kept yourself not in shape rather fit clothes. Give this words for out loud. They deserved that. Little mystery is so elegant in their own meaning oh key. Kept your dignity high for your Creator. And aurah for your husband only. = ) Best buddy! |
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Mulut orang
Since aku kerja at tempat yang aku kerja sekarang.
Lots thing aku belajar.
Banyak lah.
Tak terkira.
Malas nak share benda pelik-pelik.
Tapi de top paling interesting aku nak chit chat adalah pasal...
Mulut orang.
Nih first tempat kerja yang aku rasa kebanyakan mulut colleague yang tak ada insurance.
Diorang punya laser in bab sindir menyindir,
Termasuk lagi tambah perasa dalam hal talam dua muka,
And those negative side memang out gila!
Aku pon kadang-kadang if diorang dah start bukak mulut.
Aku cam... anyone can help me outta here?
Hello.
Hello.
Anyone.
Kejam cara diorang makan darah daging sendiri.
Laki ker perempuan.
Sama jo hah.
Try nak elak, tapi itulah...
Susah.
Syaitan campur saka masing-masing.
Bergabung.
Meletup aku punya benteng iman.
Defender aku pon bukan kuat.
Senipis kulit bawang sebab baru belajar cara nak dekatkan diri pada Allah.
Sometime, ada tuh lagi evil sindir depan-depan.
Rasa macam nak makan meja sebelah.
Or makan kat bawah meja.
Secure kot lagi.
Atau pon siap-siap makan, blah.
Paling biasa aku buat, layan phone.
Aku bukaklah youtube cara masak nasik ker.
Boleh tampal-tampal sikit skill.
Pernah tegur, kena batang hidung sendirik.
Cakaplah kita ni junior tak tahu apa-apa.
Nak kena buli selalu.
Tak pandai jaga dirilah.
Pot-pet-pot-pet.
Panjang berjela tembakan rambangnya tuh.
Sigh.
Tula sebab aku lagi suka berdiam diri.
Silent is better solution sometimes.
Banyak cakap, lagi banyak dosa terkumpul.
If tak tahan.
Keluar gak la. Join sikit-sikit.
Tapi if boleh tahan.
Aku tahanlah.
Buat apa bukak aib orang.
Tak baik.
Macam ibarat orang tuh terselak kain sikit.
Kita tolong selak sampai peha.
Makin memburukkan keadaan.
Gitulah maksudnya.
If kita tak nak orang buat kat kita.
Janganlah buat kat orang.
What goes around come around.
Remember that.
Dan sebab mulut orang jugaklah aku left group What's app my department.
Sebab hal ini semualah.
Nasib aku cepat tersedar.
MasyaAllah.
Kadang-kadang kita tak sedar apa yang kita cakap, even like a joke tapi sebenarnya ada hati yang terguris.
Even secalit.
If lupa nak minta maaf.
Ajal sampai waktunya.
Dan rugi.
Camner tu?
If you can't stop the wave,
You can learn to surf on it!
If you kept falling...carik hobi lain lah.
= )
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Solat: Sujud.
Seperkara penting yang aku nak kongsi pada kali ini adalah tentang sujud dalam solat.
Sujud,
After Iktidal.
Yang kadang-kadang kita buat sambil lewa.
Nak cepat, lagilah kejap jer dahi tu cecah sejadah.
Dah Tahiyat akhir.
MasyaAllah
Anak saper la tuh.
Aku mengaku, aku pernah buat semua tuh.
Bukan perfect pon diri ini.
Aku share ni pon sebab cam korang, baru nak belajar gak.
Baru merangkak, perbetulkan diri.
Work hard nak capai kehusyukan sebenar dalam menghadap sang Pencipta.
Nak kejar Syurga Allah.
Bla fikir-fikir, rasa nak tampar diri sendiri.
Pastu menangis guling-guling.
Apa yang aku buat selama nih!
Hidup dalam kelalaian.
Nauzubillah min zalik.
Tapi Allah tak pernah putus asa kat aku.
Dia tetap jaga aku.
So, aku boleh cakap... tak ada istilah terlambat untuk berubah.
Hidup must go on, babeh.
Aku tak pandai hujah-hujah panjang jela nak bagi korang faham.
Level aku pon bukan ustazah.
Tapi share benda bermanfaat, aku suka.
Mula-mula... step pertama... kita kena faham apsal kita kena sujud?
First, sedia maklum tu memang rukun sah dalam solat.
Pass.
Second, ikut akulah... sebab bila kita sujud... kita rendahkan darjat kita.
Yang bahawasanya kita adalah hamba.
Hamba yang hina.
Yang lahir atas keizinanNya.
Hamba yang lemah.
Yang mana hanya mengharap belas ikhsanNya.
Dan, Allah itu satu sahaja Pencipta kita.
Semuanya kerana Allah.
Aku pegang prinsip ini.
Pastu, bila dah tanam sifat camtu.
Kita baca ayat pada Pencipta kita waktu sujud.
Apa bacaannya dan maksud disebaliknya.
Faham dan carik maksud tersirat setiap ayat yang disebut.
Biar ianya lahir daripada hati paling dalam...
Yang dok kita ulang dua kali setiap rakaat.
See below.
Allah Maha Tinggi.
Allah atas segala pujian bagiNya.
Sebab itu aku cakap kita ni hamba dan satu yang layak disembah adalah, Allah.
Bagaimana kita nak Allah rahmati, berkati jalan hidup kita...
Bgaimana itulah kita sujud seperti seorang hamba pada tuannya.
Daripada sini Allah ajar kita supaya buang ego, buang sifat riak sesama manuasia.
Kaya mana, jutawan mana, cantik mana dan idola or retis apa ker...
Kita tetap hamba... cuma pada level yang berbeza maybe.
Bergantung pada macam mana perilaku kita harian.
Adakah mengikut aturan yang ditetapkan.
Dosa.
Pahala.
Atau hati kita mati kerana terlalu banyak hal duniawi dikejar.
Malaikat Allah sentiasa mencatat...tiada salah perhitunganNya.
Bacaan sujud antara dua sujud juga perlu diambil kira.
Nih bacaan paling menyentuh hati.
Touching dia menusuk.
Kalau korang faham apa aku cakap lah.
Dan ini bacaan dan maknanya.
See below.
Betul tak aku cakap,
If kita nih bukanlah mother tongue speaking Arab... tapi if kita faham.
Orang Arab pon kalah dalam tahap kesungguhan cara kita kejar Syurga Allah.
InsyaAllah.
Mudah-mudahan.
Satu doa yer tu.
Nak kata aku selalu dapat solat on time, awal waktu tak jugak.
Sebab kadang-kadang azan dah berkumandang.
Bergelumang lagi dengan darah patient.
Case tak siap.
If cuti tuh, barulah dapat on time.
Itulah yang free betul-betul.
Sebab tu if aku free, rasa malas nak kuar.
Sebab if keluar, dapat pulak kawan yang keluar tu tak paham apa tu solat.
Mahu balut diri sendiri dan mereka sekali dengan kain kapan.
Baru tahu mati tu anytime.
If keluar dengan kawan yang faham solat tu penting.
Baru rasa selamat.
Secure.
Best jer.
Hati pon ada senyum.
Hheheh...
Susah nak dapat kawan jenis camni.
Sebab tu la kena pandai pilih.
Macam pilih calon menantu untuk mak ayah,
Ehhh...
Ok lah.
Sikit tu je la aku boleh share.
If aku rajin, aku share lagi setiap part dalam solat.
Selamat beramal semua!
= )
Monday, September 26, 2016
Black is my happy color
In mood cleaning my room.
I have to use it wisely.
Because rarely i'm in this kind of situation.
And after take out every clothes, to fold it nicely...
And you know what?
I just find out...
Which my collection actually lots in black color.
Than other colors.
Not that i hate it.
But wondering... hitam, eh.
Oh keh.
So,
I have three set of black jubah.
Three types of black skirt.
The long one of course.
And blouse... two only.
Shirt, two also.
Scarf, i have three plain of it.
Included also my black color telekung...
And not to forget, my black Nike sweater!
Nah.
Complete.
Black to me is a safer color.
Always kept me secured.
That's why i think why they have a lot in my collection.
To me,
You can easily mix and match with anything, with this color.
In making it's simple... it's also make you look elegant.
And slim too!
=)
Bye.
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Women #QuranHour
Assalamualaikum.
Today, aku akan pergi this special program.
#QuranHour.
Yang previous event aku tak sempat nak join, because of job calling and perempuan issues.
So,
I'm ready to it.
Make my adrenaline rush oh dear organizer sekalian.
Benda ini di adakan dekat PWTC.
Main event dialah, if nak buat kat rumah or dekat kedai mamak or tepi jalan pon boleh actually.
Just spent our an hour precious moment.
Ramai-ramai we recite the Quran.
Sebab main objective untuk bagi kita peringatan untuk jangan lupa baca Quran.
Bukan buat perhiasan dan biarkan ianya berhabuk dalam almari.
Hah, kan dah kena sebijik.
Memandangkan aku super duper free today.
Maybe gak because dah lama tak pergi event agama macam nih sebab sibuk kerja.
To me,
I want to join them all.
Together we dekatkan diri pada Allah.
Alhamdulillah.
I'm not sure to invite others.
Because i donno their heart if they like something like this or not.
Ada tuh, yang mula-mula mention tentang program ni plak ialah a men.
Takkan aku nak ajak dia plak kan.
So, i decide, i will move alone.
No friends, no hal.
Better like this.
And,
I will use public transport maybe.
Because of yesterday incident...
Paling aku excited terkinja-kinja nak pergi, sebab ianya khas untuk women only!
Yeah...
Tak adalah awkward sangat.
If aku pergi sengsorang kan.
Tak adalah kena jaga aurat lebih-lebih jugak.
Feel free, yo.
I pray this event will berjalan lancar.
And i will be there menjadi sebahagian daripadanya
InsyaAllah.
Earn more hidayah and keberkatan because the beautiful of Quran, kalam Allah.
Make me want to recite Quran every-time.
Every second.
And study lots about it.
Aamin.
See you there, girls!
= )
Saturday, September 24, 2016
Hayat
Hari ini aku balik pukul 11 pagi.
After bayar parking tiket, aku pergi naik my motor and nak balik rumah.
Aku lalu jalan yang sama aku lalu hari-hari.
Jalan Tun Razak.
But today that road give me a different chills.
After all.
Kerana,
Aku menghampiri kemalangan.
Serious, aku bawak motor memang in slow speed tengahri tadi.
Mungkin sebab aku tak rush pergi mana-mana.
Then,
Aku follow belakang kereta.
Datang satu motor besar in my back.
Dia pon tunggang slow.
So, kami sebelah menyebelah.
Mungkin sebab tak boleh cilok kot.
Aku cool jela.
And after kereta depan buat turn, belok kanan.
That guy toleh kat aku. Mungkin pelik sebab aku cool jer.
And terus dia pecut.
And then, in slow motion i seen everything clearly.
...
How he langgar lampu merah,
Which aku fikir gila hebat.
But, in a second line... he met with a car.
MasyaAllah.
I'm speechless.
Aku nampak bagaimana motornya berkecai dua, tiga, empat, lima.
And dia tercampak to other side.
Lokasi. tengah-tengah simpang empat dekat LRT Ampang Park.
Aku yang bawak motor memang tak pandang jalan, pandang tempat kejadian jer.
Then, i realize aku terlebih line pejalan kaki yang belang-belang.
If aku tak sedar, aku pon ikut crush sama.
Sebab cross the traffic.
Aku ingat aku nak tolong dia.
Aku ingat aku nak pergi sana.
Block with my motor at least.
I'm scared anyone will tak perasan and langgar dia.
Hurt him.
After my emergency break.
Aku syukur,
Allah masih sayangkan aku.
Then, aku realize... ramai orang stop and tolong that guy.
After tempat tu havoc with all the horn and cars...
I make my move.
And sempat pandang that guy yang terbaring atas jalan.
And aku istigfar dalam hati.
I don't mind with my menggigil hand.
Those adrenaline rush.
Aku try calm down my mind.
The fastest i can.
After i reaching home.
Aku diselaputi rasa bersalah.
How can i'm do that!
Aku tak tolong anything.
I'm the last person he see.
Am i that bad?
Kenapalah aku no feeling of humanity.
May Allah forgive me.
Bukak pagar, aku terus take a seat and my imagination torture me.
About apa yang aku nampak,
Rewind every second, like a movie in my mind.
Aku terus message kawan aku.
Because sometime aku blame diri sendirik sebab tak gih tolong anything.
I need luahkan kat someone.
Aku tak nak telefon my emak or ayah, or adik beradik lain... mau diorang banned aku bawak motor.
Then,
I take an hour to settle down.
To that guy.
Kenapalah kau nih benggong sangat gih langgar lampu merah.
Even agak-gak nak looks macho dengan motor beso hang tuh it's not the way.
And if,
Agak-agak nak bunuh diri tu janganlah depan aku.
Haishhhh...
BTW, I pray you're okay.
Meskipun aku rasa confirm patah dua tiga tulang.
Sorry aku tak tolong.
Aku takut, terkedu.
Again, i pray kau fast recover!
Buat penunggang motorsikal lain, jaganlah tiru aksi gini.
Kesian mak ayah korang.
Nak risau pasal korang plak.
Hurm. Hurm.
Sayangi tulang-tulang anda.
Sakit kot kalau patah.
Bye.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
Cik Ziqa dan Apiz versi Kacamata
Aku tak tahu mana diorang belajar pandai welfie bagai nih. Nice gak diorang capture. Tapi, nih la budak-budak zaman sekarang, senang noh terikut. Siap bergaya dengan sunglasses semua. Si akak nih, if bergambo tak tunjuk gigi... tak sah. Hobi dia la kot. Muka si Apiz tu dah boleh train jadik part time job. Anas mana anas? Kesian Anas selalu kena tinggal. Oh my nenas. |
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
Aku marah tapi cepat cool
Dush-dush-dush.
Aku bukannya nak kurang ajar kat my senior, or orang lebih tua daripada aku.
Sebab aku tak suka bila aku ada terbit perasaan camtu.
Syaitan tengah try nak goda aku.
Laga-lagakan sesama manusia.
Tapi bila aku tak tahan, boleh meletus gak.
Nasib aku boleh cool down.
Sebab hari tuh, dah la aku kerja lebih masa daripada sepatutnya.
Aku tolong cover orang yang sepatutnya cover aku.
Tolong kawan, aku kerja jugak.
Sampai lewat malam...
Sanggup cancel my appointment petang tuh.
Tolonglah appreciate what i'm doing.
Please.
Kalau setakat nak datang,
And bila aku bagi kerja, tunjuk muka bad mood kau tu.
And marah-marah aku balik.
Apa kehe?
Nak carik gaduh.
Aku penat gak tahu.
Bukan kau sorang jek.
Tolong ok.
I have my limit.
Respect my feeling.
Benda simple.
Benda boleh bawak bincang.
Buat apa nak gaduh-gaduh?
Ingat kau senior, aku takut.
Aku takaut pada Allah jek la.
Nak balik on time, baliklah. Aku boleh buat semua sendirik kot.
Sengsorang, aku ok jer.
Daripada ngadap muka tak siap hang tuh.
Aman dunia aku sikit.
Lapang dada aku bernafas.
Haish.
Dengan aku senang je nak deal, kalau kau tak suka. Cakap.
Aku tak kesah pon.
Tak payah nak marah aku.
Mak ayah aku pon tak de marah aku.
Sebab aku tak suka orang tinggi suara kat aku.
I don't like that manner.
Cakap baik-baik tak boleh ke.
Haila.
Aku nih dah la masih blaja nak jadi budak baik.
Jauhilah aku daripada sifat hasad dengki dan amarah.
Supaya berkat hidup aku.
Allah pandang aku.
Rahmati aku.
Sebab hari-hari aku tanam niat nak kejar Syurga Allah.
= )
Monday, September 19, 2016
Lelaki nak jadi perempuan
Post kali ini mungkin menyental hati dan perasaan lah sikit yer.
Maaf kalau ada yang terasa.
Kalau terasa, tercalit luka sikit tuh aku saja buat.
Bagi korang fikir balik jalan yang korang pilih nih.
Maaf sekali lagi if korang tak suka.
Dulu aku masa zaman sekolah, tak sangatlah expose pada benda macam nih.
Satu jer makhluk Tuhan yang aku kenal spesis macam nih,
Jenis laki nak jadik perempuan sangat.
Dia adalah jiran aku, selang dua buah rumah daripada rumah aku.
Sampai sekarang, dia camtu gaklah.
Mak dia penat membebel.
Telinga gajah. Kebal bebelan.
Tapi bila dah start kerja baru aku tau sikit-sikit.
Paling obvious masa aku start masuk kerja kat tempat aku kerja sekarang.
Aku rasa rimas gila.
Mereka ada di mana-mana.
Setiap kali aku nampak diorang aku punya tangan cam karate-do.
Tapi fikir anak orang, aku tahan.
Setiap kalilah tulah aku doa diorang berubah.
Bukan setakat mereka nak jadik macam perempuan.
Tapi perangai, cara berpakaian semua.
Totally berubah.
Tanpa rasa bersalah.
And one thing yang aku nak share...
Ada gak colleague aku, is a gay.
MasyaAllah.
Mengucap panjang bila aku dengar.
Kalau ikutkan hati nak jer aku sembelih hidup-hidup kawan aku tuh.
Siang-siang kulit dia, salai bawah terik matahari.
Baru dia tahu azab dunia kejap.
Sebelum kena azab akhirat.
Dengan partner gay dia sekali...
Apa tak ada benda berfaedah lain ke diorang nih nak buat.
Geleng kepala.
Dunia akhir zaman.
Aku pernahlah usha-usha kat kawan lelaki lain,
Dia nih solat ke... yela, korang nak aspect apa?
Tapi jawapan diorang bagi postif.
Dia still ada gi gak la solat Jumaat semua.
Alhamdulillah.
Ada sinar sikit-sikit kat situ.
Aku rasa dengan bimbingan teguh dan jitu boleh berubah budak nih.
Nasihat aku pada kawan aku dan lelaki luar sana yang jenis nak sangat jadi perempuan.
Aku nak nasihat sikit.
Apa best sangatlah korang nak jadi perempuan nih?
Cer bagitau aku hati ke hati.
Aku rasa jadik lelaki lagi the best kot.
Janganlah korang ubah ciptaan Allah.
Dah molek tersusun Allah cipta hang lelaki.
Apa bird-bird korang kecik sangat ke sampai tak nak jadik lelaki.
Hah. cakap-cakap.
Aku yang perempuan if diberi choice baik jadi lelaki.
Boleh jadi imam.
Jadik ketua keluarga.
Jadik pemimpin.
Banyak pahala boleh collect.
Kalau nak gi travel obersi, nak ke Mekah pon on the spot boleh gih.
Esok bayar, lusa fly.
Every year aku pergi kalau camtu.
Heaven.
Tak cam perempuan...kena tunggu mahram lah. Tak safety lah. Blah, Blah. Blah.
Lagi satu, mungkin korang fikir, jadik perempuan boleh melawa.
Nak pakai make up, mascara, blusher bagai?
Weh, aku yang perempuan nih pon tak drawing my face lah dengan tuh semua.
Rimas kot.
BTW, aku allergic pon.
Conteng-conteng. Pastu nak maintain...touch up lagi.
Pastu balik rumah nak kena clear face lagi.
Kalu tak jeragat!
Wasting time, duh.
Mungkin daripada buat semua tuh korang dah boleh buat order Pizza dan siap makan depan TV lagi.
Tak yah lah buat benda pelik-pelik oi.
Kalau korang rasa high heels tu seronok.
Aku rasa kalau kaki korang ter-pe-ot, terpelesok lagi fun kot.
Sakit tuh.
Pakai all day long.
Aku lagi suka sneaker or kasut flat.
My fav.
Boleh lari-lari.
Kan exercise tuh. Boleh slim-slim.
Dah-dah, korang jangan gedik nak tukar-tukar.
Percayalah, korang gih tengok cermin, even muka korang macam muka pecah rumah.
Korang tetap handsome.
Kalau roomate cakap korang berangan jek lebih.
Cakap, aku yang cakap korang memang handsome.
Lelaki pakai T-shirt renyuk-renyuk, jeans simple with cap or without cap pon molek.
Tak yah coat and tie.. segala.
Malaysia panas kot.
Okeh.
Harap apa yang aku membebel atas tu beri korang sedikit kesedaran.
Nak berubah memang susah.
Tapi if korang fikir korang berubah untuk diri sendiri.
Untuk family korang.
Untuk aku? Ehh...
Dan especially untuk Pencipta korang. Korang akan rasa apa korang buat tu betul.
Take your time to think dalam-dalam.
Take much step if you want.
Asal korang berubah.
Peace.
= )
Syaitan. Korang baca surah An-nas dan tafsirnya if korang nak tahu apa aku cakapkan nih. Semoga apa yang korang buat sentiasa dibawah rahmatNya. Salam. Bro! |
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