Gained weight

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah. I get back my five kilograms yang hilang beberapa bulan lepas.
Sebab makan tak ingat dunia.
Kalau korang tengok mesti tak percaya.
... Bela saka ke apa.
Tapi itulah realitinya.
Target. Target.

Pelahap paling drastik.
Makan nasi ayam hainan hasil dua cawan beras yang di masak sendrik.
Boleh cover tiga kali makan sehari.
Tapi mulut nak kunyah.
Snack time, roti kaya butter boleh dalam lapan keping satu hari.
Ada kuih kalau rajin beli.
Camtu ar.

So ni dah balik ideal weight.
Maintain...
Insyaallah lah ya.

Exam oi exam

Assalamualaikum.

Revision two weeks, and exam two weeks.
Hokey.
Final exam untuk semester pertama.
Tak study apa-apa lagi.
Nak kena bukak buku.
Tapi bila bukak buku... Tutup balik few seconds after that.
Cannot tahan.
I can't brained anything.

Sebab bukan dalam jenis menghafal.
Then,
Belajar sampai paham, itu my style.
Nak ambil masa memaham tuh yang lama.
Restart pc otak.
Finalize documents mana tak guna, put aside.
New folder nak masuk.
Selit mana boleh masuk.

Next week fully self study.
So i got my time style... Boleh truly focus untuk cover all five subject.
Pastu paham lebih untuk sub sebject yang target masuk exam.
Maka jadilah buku itu jambatan ilmu.
Cheewah.

So far, i just buat mana terbaik untuk exam and those assignments.
Alhamdulillah for Consas paper semua lulus.
Then, dah dapat half untuk pass mark final.
Ni untuk final... Insyaallah harap lulus hendaknya. Half mark lagi untuk go through.
Fighting.

Younger

Assalamualaikum.

Between these few months banyak benda from my surrounding yang silently attack my soul.
Emotionally than physically.
I felt so tired.
Plus practical in cardiac team, needed long hours standing until finish.
And no break until 0300 pm.
I think, i lost more weight
Something that not make me happy at all.

Then, to slot their problem in my schedule.
I just help mana yang perlu, hulur mana yang boleh.
Give them my advices.
Fews, need me to plan their future, which are nak ikut ke tak sukahati.
Their hope in me sometimes too much to take.
... This dilemma drain all my energy.

Not that i complaint about.
There are person yang i cares much.
There are my family. My friends. Or even someone which i used to know.
And i don't like they being useless or stupid for no valid reason.
Like hey, korang muda lagi ok.
Boost your energy.
Aim something.
And do your best.

Personally, cannot blame takdir.
You're not born to be like this.
Allah didn't said it, this is your like would be.
Please. You're born to shine for yourself and even for others.
Jangan malukan diri sendiri and regret later. Too late, ok.
Now is your time.
You got your own superpowers.
Find that and grab it.

A mistake still a mistake.
But why do the same mistake everyday if you have tomorrow as a promise to make it better.
Think positive.
Changes the aura.
Do something, please.
I can help you all. But you also have to help yourself.

I also a human.
I also have a bad day.
We're the same. But i don't want to be like you.
I got my aim, goals.
Either it is a simple or complicated task, to take a short or long period. I still do it.
This is how i survive my world.
Be productive.

(to be continue, how i boost my day)
Fighting guys!

Get up and fight back

Assalamualaikum.

Everyone make a mistake.
Big or small in their life.
I know how they felt. 
To us yang the other side, hard actually nak memaafkan. Susah gila.
Sebab sometimes giving someone a second chance is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun to hurt you because they missed you the first time.

Yeah.
Insyaallah, i still at bright side and will always doa terbaik untuk dia and his problems. 

And personally, any stupid dcision yang he already done... Benda dah lepas.
Bab meroyan, menyesal guling-guling ke whatever still tak boleh rewind everything back.
This moment hanya tinggal is only you, and yourself.
Nak jadi better or jadi lagi teruk.
Decisions at his hand. Doalah banyak-banyak.

I can said everyday is a second chance. May not be a happy ending but yeah why not try to end things right. Kan. 

Get up and fight for your journey, please.
Try slowly but don't take to much time.
But, please kept fighting.
Messege me if you need someone to talk to, jangan memalu, i can selit between assingment and all those books.
I want to know how was your day. How bad you messed up with your life duh.
This is how friends supposed to be.

Jaga diri and ksihatan.
And we'll try to confront with your family later.
Fix yourself first.
Btw hati seseorang bernama ibu and ayah itu tetap bersama susah senang anknya.
Trust me. 

And we always have Allah to put a hope on. Pray for yourself too.
Insyaallah everything will get better.

Lost weight

Assalamualaikum

Guess what.
Berat badan dah drop to 48 kg.
Tinggal tulang rasa dah.
Not good duh.
Because i try to maintain actually my weight.
Just nice around 52 or 53 kg.
Something area nih.
Nak mix and match dengan height. Normal BMI sort of.

But yeah as a student. Dengan assignment plus stress tak ada life.
Yang pakai braces some more. And not so enjoying your foods.
There, sebab tulah.
My friends ada gain weight.
Jell-O gila.

Now, bila pasal makanan. I more prefer porridges.
Nasi gak kan. And dalam tu put mushrooms, carrot, potatoes, garlic, halia, celery.
If sausage ada, masukkkk. Sumbat-sumbat. Meriahkan suasana.
And usually makan dalam three times a day.
Tu tak masuk lagi sweet potatoes rebus.
Pisang.
Roti cicah milo for breakfast.
Rasa ok.
Tak cukup eh.

Malas nak makan nasi ketul-ketul sebab lambat nak kunyah.
Kalau geram sangat, masuk mulut terus telan.
Rasa tercekik jela.
Hahhha...
Tapi ok jer, not bad.
Kesian my perut kena work harder.
Bertabahlah.

As usual untuk malam, memang not fan of any foods.
More minum air bebanyak.
Makan before pukul tujuh. The best time...
Dulu jer time oncall. Rasa keluar makan malam tuh activity wajib.
Lepak mamak.
Miss tho moments.

Anyway, banyak nak kena aim.
Nampaknya kena masukkan gain weight part in the list.
Haiyo.
Chayokkk!