Pulangkan atau tidak

Assalamualaikum,

In my previous post... ada talked about telekung siti khadijah. Korang carik la sendiri link dia.
That one of my generous friend bagi.
And I'm already used it.
Best and comfortable, duh.
Thanks again.

But, i think I should return back to the owner.
Should i or shouldn't?
Tak kisahlah orang nak cakap the word buruk suku or what if dia accept balik.
Or you think i'm crazy enough to let go telekung mahai nih.
Not gonna care about it...
Why la kan i can't think properly and still accept it after our little drama kat parking masa tu.
Huh.

Bukan sebab apa, after my first time used this. I have the feeling that I should use it frequently.
Bagilah dia continues pahala at least.
I still cool.
Few times i used, in few months. Makin lama makin pelik.
Like every after my prayer... a word dua for him is like a 'must'.
Just because i used this telekung.
I used others property, what i mean.
The weirdest feeling i have.
Pretty scary right.

When he is nothing to you...
But you pray for him to your Creator.
The man you pray that not link to your bloodline.
You bring him to talk to, the one you trust.
To the one where your final destination is.
That he is in the same level with your fav people, your family.
But he still nothing to you.
Not far from only a friend.

Not like i said i tak pernah doakan orang lain.
Always i pray the best for all muslimah in this world yang still alive and yang tujuh kaki bawah.
But,
If you want to know, the time when i make a dua.
I make a special one for each yang i remember...
I truly pray for that person life, together with their family and kesejahteraan luar dan dalam.
And for my relationship with them too.
Then, that person includes in this part of special secara tak langsung.
Don't you think... the thought of all of this is too personal?
Just because of this telekung.
...

Memula... i just. Ok never mind. Biasalah, just dua jela. No big deal.
Normal what to dua untuk someone.

Lama kelamaan tak kisah biasalah. Normal routine. Dapat pahala gak doakan untuk orang lain.
Tapi actually, it's...
Rasa awkward.

Or, i thought...  why not after i wash nicely... When i return back, he can give it to someone else.
Or derma to any masjid.
Where his pahala will berterusan.
Pada setiap penggunaannya.
Or i will just keep it?
... urgh! No comment. I have talk to him lah.
Bye.

Cerita air kopi

Assalamualaikum,

Jikalau korang nak tahu, antara air putih yang clear tak de rasa tu compare dengan air-air lain yang macam-macam kaler.
I better choose air putih.
Bukanlah categories maintain sihat. Bajet cool or what are kan,
Tapi, I'm the one yang tak pandai buat semua jenis air tu.
Serious!
Not a coffee, bit for tea maybe.
Skill zero for all of this.
That's why, buat per penat-penat kan... minum jela air sedia ada. Tak payah bancuh segala.
= )

Gila tak gila lah.

I will make sure my partner tak a fan pada benda-benda camni semua.
Pada mertuaku in future, jgn nyesal tak reject awal-awal dulu.
Ups!

So, baru-baru ni... sempat la terjah gi umah atok kat Segamat.
Tapi dia sebenarnya nenek.
Kitaorang panggil dia atok.
Dan dia perempuan.
Whatever.

Nasib malam tu sampai, atoknya tak terkezut dengan kemunculan cucu dia yang entah dia ingat ke tak.
Hahahaaa...

Anyway, disebabkan dah dok kawasan kampong.
So, malam tu gak wasap memainkan peranan untuk cilok resepi cara buat air kopi obviously.
I need all that ASAP.
Before that, Google gak sekali. Sempat menyempat lah kan.

Mekasih pada yang sudi share tips and step by step...
Korang memang ohsem.
Campur aduk resepi korang bagi. Peneng lah.
Paling best ada di sohnya ikut bajet sendirik.
Kalo dah i'm not the one yang minum itu semua.
And bab rasa pon tak tahu.
Nak bajet apanya?
Kang jadik air laici, my fav tu.
Boleh gitu....

I still can smell it.
But not gonna drink it.
Not even a sip duh.
Termasuklah nescafe and the gang.
Tea, still boleh consider sikit-sikit.

P/s: Nasib tanya diorang sebab masa time google tu, dia ada state pasal ada rasa masin-masin. Then consider nak letak garam secubit. Diorang replied, merapu. Wtf!

Atok yang kerjanya suka dok tepi pintu dan tengok moto kereta lalu lalang.
I feel you, atok.
When where growing up, we often forget that they are also growing old... Dah,dah. Gih la korang balik jenguk mak ayah. Tepon ke jika tak dapat balik. Yer...

Peah: Art class 2

Peah make a lamb! So cool.
Keep it up.
Have fun dear...

Mereka dan pantai

Assalamualaikum.

As my hometown dekat dengan Desaru.
All that pantai things.
Something yang dekatkan kami untuk spent our time together adalah dengan pergi ke sana.
Even though not clear and beautiful enough as pantai-pantai yang lain.
But this is it.
Our happiness.

And si Ziqa, Apiz and Anas... since mereka kecik.
Dah expose dengan alla this.
So, mereka dan pantai memenag tak dapat dipisahkan.
If antara pergi shopping and pantai.
Mereka first priority adalah pantai.
Sebab that remind them to their beloved father.
Al-fatihah.

I pray one day.
I will bring them to pantai alone.
With those three kiddos and we have fun.
Mampu ke masalahnya?
Hhahhahahha....

Anyway, this picture below are the latest update about them and pantai.
So happy.
So cool.

My younger sister terpaksa make this small pool for si Anas.
So that he will play together with their sister and brother.
Because, it's more safe.
= )

Janda baik: D river resort

Assalamualaikum,

When my friend said to come join her and family to Janda Baik.

It's like a flash back to my Form 5, English literature novel. It's about Janda Baik duh.

Normal stories about how harmonize their communities are.

Boring.

Never mind.

Disebabkan ianya FOC and i have no planning yet, I just follow....

= )

Packing my bag and i meet her at Rawang.

Along journey, i can seen lots of home-stay and resort available here.

So, if korang tersesat or what.

Don't worry about nak tidur mana nanti.

Prepare your some money, and choose wisely.

If ada berani lebih, gi la tumpang kat perkampungan orang asli nun.

They seem friendly.

Internet connection are very bad at here.

Sorry to say that.

Sempat sesat because lost of GPS configured.

Just bertumpu pada any signboard yang ada.

Nasib sampai.

There, can you see a small river. I think i should bring a pelampung next time.
So that i can do a river tubing!

This is under some persatuan actually.

And i berkesempatan join la mana-mana acara sukaneka yang ada.

Even tak menang anything, because they cheated. 

LOL. Geram gila.

Anhway, just play and and have fun.

Tak amik hati pon.

And also, menyibuk in their preparation meals.

Tak berani nak tunjuk bakat. Just setakat tukang masak Sardin jer.

Hahahhah...

Mingle around.

And layan si Nana... that cutest baby.

If you're lucky enough, some local will introduce you with their original madu.

I bought two bottle.

Discount until RM 20.00 per bottle.

Not sure what kind of madu it is.

And don't forget to taste the sarang also.

Sour a bit.

Most importantly, main air kat that river!

Awesome but very cold...

Cannot tahan.

And Sunday morning after breakfast, we gerak balik KL.

Art stone by me.

Buy a brain

Assalamualaikum,

These three four days memang sedikit memenatkan.
Bukan sedikit, banyak actually.
Sebab tu tak sempat nak update my blog.
Sorry guys.

I'm on-call last weekend. Rezeki Allah bagi, busy dengan rib injuries case.
And that really dried out my energy.
Habis my half sandwich carbo lunch.
Until sampai satu tahap, when everyone busy watching Extravaganza final episode that Sunday night,
I sedap-sedap take a nap.
I really need it.

Nasib on Monday, boleh balik on time.
So, i can rest my mind.
Take more sleep too.

But not my luck i think when on esoknya at the end of that night case.
Your team member not take a right responsibilities.
A team yang not really understood your limit.
Together with your others colleague.
Memang rasa nak tumbuk muka orang.

I'm not sure if because i'm junior and their senior.
I don't freaking care!
If you're my super senior...
Why when i'm in your job position, i can settle down everything completely.
And when it's your turn.
You can't.
Why do you do this to me.
To us?
Why?

Didn't you know that i'm tired. Really tired.
I need catch up my Asar before Magrib.
My bit lunch before dinner.
I'm not robot.
Please, buy a brain.
Buy also some manners.
You need that.

I think i'm in angry zone.
I need to calm myself first.
Bye.

KSRP 2016:Dinner time

Assalamualaikum,

On December 2nd, KSRP ada buat dinner kat Convention Centre for the first time.
Celebrating their 40th years of anniversaries.
Likes half of me duh.
LOL.

At first, tak applied pon. And suddenly, my colleague asked untuk join sama this event.
Ticket still available she said.
Then, terus sent email and positive feedback.

So, as i still off on that Monday.
Pergilah ke KLCC, Tower 1. Nak collected ticket on behalf mereka sekali.
And after lepas screening part, boleh sesat sampai tingkat 42.
Alang-alang dah sesat, jejalan lah sekali kan.
Very nice view i can said.
Nampak la bridge semua. Hohohooo...Like i cares?
After boring, start la buat muka innocent plus cute sebab nak mintak tolong.
Nasib jumpa akak baik hati tolong dan cilok masuk staff area sampai la gi tempat collect ticket.
Mekasih bebanyak la hakak oi.

Theme untuk that dinner adalah black, red and gold.
So, i pick gold.
And mix and match with anything yang ada dalam simpanan harta karunku.
Tak dernya la den nak sewa baju kelip-kelip bagai.
Tak payah membazir.
Baju kahwin pon belum tentu sewa, i will make sure suh my partner yang jahit. Homemade, hengkau.
Bior dia rasa. Hahhaha, Sanggup ker?

BTW. Untuk memastikan malam tu berjalan lancar.
I volunteer myself lah untuk stay back a night before until 10pm untuk buat case.
Fuh.
And at the end, petang that day... dapatlah balik sharp 06.00 pm.
Yahoo!

Siap-siap and terus gerak. Nak predict apa kan jem kat KL nih...
Gerak awai la.
Pastu, rupanya door tak bukak lagi. Hampeh.
Nasib diorang ada sediakan air.
Alhamdulillah.
Dapat gak doorgift time waiting, flask hitam. Ni i like.

Lastly, diorang bukak jugak akhirnya main entrance,
Pastu ada part red carpet and catwalk. Haila. Rasanyalah kan, i'm the one categories yang let make a way, i don't care with your camera on roll.
I need to walk fast and furious guys,
Because i need to book the table first, so please.
... Obviously me.

As the result, dapatlah ku rembat meja betul-betul depan stage!
If me alone, i will reserve meja paling hujung. Dekat dengan all the foods.
Senang.
But as promises, diorang nak enjoy performance...nak telek jerawat ke tak si penyanyi nanti.
Hamek korang hadaplah.

MC nya ialah si Nabil and si bambam. Sorry dude, I donno your name.
But frankly speaking, both of you make my day.
Thank you.

Kemuncaknya adalah after all speeches and videos, mereka jemput untuk menjamah makanan.
Oh, my... rasa nak nangis.
How lapar i'm.
Okay, sambil-sambil makan... Ella and Man Bai started their singing.
And some of lucky draw.
Enjoying this, but i still ulang alik ambil makanan.
Don't blame me, i prefer real foods.

Plain nasik to western steak to japanese meals, i tried all.
All dessert i pick. My favorite.
Also their fruits.
Together some tea tarik bagi penambah.
Only one i avoid that night. Salad.
You're in wrong event lah.

And at the end, six plates make my tummy full duh.
Awesome.
Maybe that the first round, so... when i think to go for the second round.
Man bai tetiba nyanyi dekat area our meja.
Dah kena layan karenah bebudak nih.
Apa ke susah la diorang nih, if nak bergambo, gi jelah.
So, lastly i make my own decision. I stand up and be a penyibuk orang nak tangkap gamba dengan dia.
Hhahha... Gilo. Sorry guys.

So, here we are yang dapat hadir on behalf of our department. Semua senyum kembang-kembang. Stay gojes guys.
Anyway, please ignore my selendang yang dah sengat sana sini. situ tuh.
So, it's a wrap!
Bye.

ISLAMIC: My wife, I'm sorry

Assalamualaikum.

Here, we’re talking about someone who you’re ideally going to spend the rest of your life with. Don’t make this decision based on momentary emotions and desires…have foresight. Think about the little things, The big things, and everything in between before giving your word. 

Can you honestly see yourself with this person in all details of your life? 

Are they going to help you and your future children prepare for your akhirah?

Or are they going to undermine your ibadah? 

Below is one story about how beautiful couple gonna found a love for each other. May Allah bless us with such strong support and serenade. Choose happy ending, and treasure for it. To my friend, Mozir, happy wedding day! Tomorrow he's gonna be a husband. Congratulation...

"MY WIFE, I AM SORRY"

He woke up in the morning and found her praying. He heard her praying for him.He stared at her. It has been a long time since he has seen her praying. For the past few months, they have been arguing. Last night, they had a nasty fight.He went to the kitchen in a hurry to prepare himself breakfast.

These past days, she hasn't been cooking for him. Shock on him. He found breakfast already set at the table. He ate. He went back to the bedroom, to prepare for a shower. She left the shower. "Good morning. Have a blessed day" she said as she entered the bedroom and he left for the bathroom. After his shower, all dressed up for work; he found his wife at the kitchen, eating breakfast in peace. She was looking at some funny videos on her phone and giggling. He looked at her then walked out the door. The last look he had of her before he left was of her at peace.

That last look disturbed him. This is not how she should be. This is not how she has been. He has been hurting her, she has recently found out that he has been flirting with other women, he has cheated once and used money meant for their family on other women. She should be angry.Her peaceful demeanor disturbed him.

Evening came. He went home and met his peaceful wife again. She was cooking and laughing with their children. She had come from work two hours ago.The dinner was enjoyable. Good food, she having warm conversations with the children. He as the father felt left out. His wife and children seemed to be having fun despite him hurting them.

After dinner, as she washed the dishes and the children had gone to bed. He approached her.

"Are you OK?" he asked her.

"I am more than OK. I am blessed "She answered.

"Are you not mad at me? After all that I am doing and have done wrong?" he asked.

She placed the washed plate in the rack then looked at him and said, "I asked myself, what is the most important relationship in my life? The one I have with you or the one with God? And I realized it is the one with God. I live for God, not for you. Marrying you was a blessing but it is not all there is in life. God has blessed me with life and I will not waste it crying because of the hurt you cause me to feel"

She picked up a dirty glass and began washing it. "I realized I had given you too much power... Yes, you are my husband, the closest human being in my life and the human being I love the most; but you are not God. You have failed me but God never fails me. I will not let you ruin my joy, my peace and my progress. You break our marriage if you want to, but I will hold on to God. And as I hold on to God, I will be full of joy despite what you do" She said rinsing the glass.

She looked at him and continued, "When you hurt me and disrespected me, I realized I was acting out like a woman who has no God. I got mad and hurled insults, I wanted to revenge and I allowed you to mess me day after day. My performance at work went down, I talked less to our children, I became bitter to the children, I felt sorry for myself, I developed ulcers. And then I realized, I have God, I shouldn't act like someone with no relationship with God. Why should I be hopeless yet God is with me? I had focused so much on you that I forgot about God. When you found me, I had God. We dated and got married and I let everything be about you because I wanted to make our marriage work. Our marriage became the idol I worship instead of the blessing I have in God. Our marriage is failing apart because of you but my relationship with God is still intact"

She scrubbed the pot. "You have chosen to abandon our marriage but that doesn't mean my whole world has collapsed. I will still continue being a good mother to our children. They will never say the problems between mom and dad, made mom a monster. You do as you please with other women, I will raise our children." She looked at him and told him, "Do I hate you? No, it will be a lie to say I hate you. You are the man I married, the one I vowed to, the one I love"

Tears fell down her cheeks. She wiped them. "I can't just cancel all the years we have been together. The Quran as well as the Bible asks us to love our enemies. If I am able to love my enemies, surely I can still love you despite all you have done. I am angry and disappointed, but I have taken my power back. I live for God who has exceedingly blessed me, not for you and the pain you cause"

She wiped her wet hands, took the apron from her body and told him, "In my peace, I am planning on where the children and I will move to. Since you have chosen to have an affair, you have shown clearly that you don't need us. So we will not make your life uncomfortable by forcing you to live with us. You need to be able to bring the woman you are cheating with to your own house. I am working on something. I came into this house in peace and I will leave in peace. You will not kill my smile and shine"

She walked to the bedroom. Minutes later. He followed her to the bedroom. He found her peacefully asleep.He nudged her. He woke her up and said, "Please don't go, don't move out. I will hurt you no more, I will cheat no more. I am not OK. I want the peace you have. I want to be the kind of husband you are as a wife."

Since that day, he has been a reformed man. No more affairs, no more hurting her, no flirting with other women, or endless fights. She didn't move out. She and the children stayed. He submitted to God and learned how to be a good husband, Love is powerful enough to humble the most proud ....... I don't know what you are experiencing this morning but my prayer is ,may you enjoy over whatever you are going through and behold, God is going to rain everlasting peace and freedom upon your life...Amen.

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Makanan sehinggit

Assalamualaikum.

Just baru-baru ni aku berkesempatan beli makanan kat stall mak cik bawah rumah aku nih.
Selalu time aku nak beli, time tu la baru dia bukak.
Time aku tak nak beli, sebab aku dah ada breakfast.
Time tu gak la dia bukak awai sikit.
So, la ni baru aku singgah sebab lapar.

Aku pon cam biasa, beli kuih.
Campur-campur.
And aku choose mee, sebab nasi lemak dia ramai sangat beratur.
Malas la.

And time nak bayar.
Sehinggit jer mee aku tu rupanya.
Tak ada telur sebab aku suka homemade punya.
Gediks tak.
Hehheh...
Tapi,
Gila murah lak ai dia jual.
Nasi lemak, and bihun yang lain-lain pon just sehenggit jer.
Patutlah berdoyan-doyan orang datang.

Moga murah rezeki ko mak cik anak beranak.
Cayokk!
Ada time aku beli lagi.

Peah: Art class

Assalamualaikum.

Since my sister stop kerja.
And preggy.
Dia jadik suri rumah sepenuh masa.
So Peah tak pergi any nursery.

Dia ajar Peah kat rumah.
So far i think that's a good idea.
Can i put my kids at your home sis in future?
Because nursery sekarang tak boleh di percayai.
Scary much.

But your house at Tapah!
I will miss them.
Ok, aku la plak yang jadik suri rumah kalau gitu.
My partner must agree with this.
Bruhhh...
Gila punya statement.

And memandangkan Peah pon dalam proses learning.
Dia akan everyday tengok cerita budak-budak
Akak aku more bagi dia pada art class.
Bagi dia enjoy.
O, how i miss when my homework just coloring!
Huhuhuuu...

And how i seen, that kakak aku boleh kawal pola makanan dia.
No fast food.
No jajan.
Not even a chocolate!

Then, my sister ajar jugak dia supaya independent.
Sidai baju sendiri in her own mini hanger.
And ate by herself.
Be clean and tidy.
And that's brilliant idea.
I support you sis.

Resepi puding jagung kastard.

Assalamualaikum.

Masuk nih, dah dua kali aku buat this dessert.
And tiap kali tu la licin.
Kan aku dah cakap dulu, mereka ni memang spesis piranhas kat Amazon sana.
Korang campak la apa kat atas meja tu, gerenti habes.
Hahhahaaa...

Tak dinafikan, bila penat buat case. Memang akan lapar gila.
Sebab tu aku suka standby bar chocolate just in case.

Tengok diorang happy makan.
Tak dinafikan... aku pon happy sama.
Even aku sempat kuis kuis sikit jer. Sebab aku, memang tak suka makan makanan yang aku masak.
Tak ada feeling gitu.

Sebab tu nanti aku nak carik partner yang pandai masak. Baru best.

Before korang masak, meh aku bagi tips ala ala pantang larang untuk masak dessert nih.
Paling penting... jangan terlebih air.
Guna sukatan air paling minimum. If terlebih, korang buat jelah bubur jagung. Ops.
Kena kacau selalu. Api kena maintains.
Bila lalai jap, ketoi ketoi la nanti. Dah tak smooth.
And lastly, after siap.
Better la kan... Letak kat dalam bekas yang kecik kecik. Yang cute-cute tuh.
Sebab senang nanti hidangannya. And mostly, lagi menarik time serving nanti. Barulah mak mertua puji korang melambung lambung.

Anyway, nilah resepinya:

1 cawan tepung castard
1 tin susu sejat yang cair tuh
Gula ikut suka nak manis tahap mana. 1/2 cawan pon boleh.
Butter satu sudu besar. Ni bagi korang punya jagung berlemak gitu.
Air...1 1/2 cawan.
1 tin jagung
If ada jagung tongkol lebih-lebih boleh join sekali.
Garam ikut suka. Aku dah letak butter, so aku tak letak garam.
Nak letak pewarna pon boleh setitik dua.

Caranya plak adalah... mula-mula korang dilute tepung castard dulu dengan air.
Pastu, sediakan periuk belanga untuk aktiviti memasak. Api kecik hokey.
Masukkan gula. Susu sejat and tepung custard yang dah dilute tu.
Gaul-gaulkan ia.
Pastu after 5, 10 minute. Letak isi tin jagung. And isi jagung yang lebih-lebih.
Then, gaul lagi sampai betul-betul melekitnya. And cantik warnanya. Bila puas hati. Bolehlah letak pewarna and butter.
Gaul lagi.
And siap.
Masukkan dalam bekas.

Biar sejuk jap, and letak la dalam peti ais if korang suka sejuk-sejuk.

Aku masuk dalam loyang sebab aku tak ada bekas kecik-kecik tuh.
So, redha jela ohkey.

Selamat mencuba!

Agak-agak sedap, buatlah lagi.
Kasik jiran sebelah, depan, belakang, ke kan.
Hehhehe...
= )

Adik beradik problem

Assalamualaikum.

Kami adik beradik sangat rapat, mostly among yang perempuan.
Plus our mak ayah ajar kami jadi strong.
And independent enough.
Mungkin sebab tu kami perempuan boleh beat adik beradik lelaki dalam family.
Just because they are useless.
Sorry bro!
Some more, because we are the majority.
So give us your respect.

And we have our own group Whats app.
That's make our bond makin awesome.

Then, baru-baru ni... aku telah menjadi main topic in our group.
They talk about my dhunya thing.
Which i don't really care actually.
But they think i have to masuk campur because i'm the owner... so terpaksalah.
And they are waiting my next step.
What i'm gonna do about that.

I actually da tried to deal with the one who used it.
Because dulu dia pernah da pinjam.
And same problem.
Buat macam harta sendirik.
Untuk that item i dapat semula not in good condition. My ayah pon tak puas hati.
Dia care bagi terbaik balik.

So kali ini dia pinjam balik. I said ok. Because like i said. I tak kisah pon.
Dhunya semua ini.
So after my sibling discuss that i have to take an action... So, i did.
Mula-mula i give him a message.
I said carefully, can you pulang balik.
And no reply.
Like i'm the one yang mengemis sendiri pulak.
And i tried to be cool.
I let him use, and until a month passes dah... and i think he dah buat harta sendirik again.
Hailo.

Ni kalau next time nak pinjam, aku nak bagi ke tak agak-agak?

So, last Tuesday i given message to his wife.
Why dia tak nak pulang. Can you check and update with me later.
Then message i give to his wife i paste in the group Whats app.
And her replied also.
See? I tried my best.
I don't like marah-marah orang.
Can you not push my button.

After few minute, the one yang pinjam message me.
He said sorry. But every replied not said he will pulang balik.
I think my message semua direct version.
And i screen shoot our conversation.
And cc again to that group.
What you all want me to do?
I have no idea.

That thing, i put at my parents house because i care for them.
I want they to use what i give them.
Time ni la masa i scarified what i have.
Not i paid for you to used.
Not in my niat. Ever.
Dah la aku ni dok jauh. Nak tolong hulur masa... i have limited edition.
So i give them what i think they should have.
In case any emergency. They can be independent. Like they thought me dulu.

So, to that person.
I not even marah sekelumit pon if you want to use mine.
But when my ayah call. He said you after get it. Not even once balik tengok apa patut di tolong.
Aku sangat rasa kecewa.
Why la you behavior like this.
That's why i want to take it back.
Because of your perangai.

Cubalah balik pada Allah.
Fikir tanggungjawab diri sendiri.
And you will know what you should do.
Why people treat you like that.
Semua orang pernah buat kesilapan. Aku pon.
Tapi tak salah if kita pandai fikir yang kita patut ubah diri sendiri sebelum terlambat.
Understood.

Bye!