ME: I'am a thinker

Hello.

Not sure if it's a good move to post this kind of story here.

...

Duh, why should i be worried because not that some person o will I mention later would read this. Hahaa...

So let's carry on.

I did realized all these since two, three months ago.

How they're giving me clue , clues actually, that i should closely mingle with this one "man".

I thought they just hu-ha-hu-ha with me.

Then,

As i seen it as nothing major or serious for me to take part.

I called them as a small group of "kekomplotan". It's funny duh, how they're making clues in front of your face. And how I tried pretend, nah I'm okay, and giving my blurry mimic.

 And how they, push you, 

And how i pull back like matrix.

...

Fuh.

Now let's see how "kekomplotan" do their job.

When the "man" want a favour. 

Others who related with this "kekomplotan" will said, why not you asked Adibah is she free... or...without my knowledge, I think Adibah can do that for you.

Choi!

I'm not complaining to help, but if in that man case, why choose me.

Like I'm the hero.

Please, it's awkward you know.

Most i like is when I heard my friends said i had a secret admire. And gonna told me later.

So, I tried asked "kekomplotan", is they knew about this.

And they look excited that i know the real story.

But as my friends told who the secret admirer is...who's actually another man.

They advice me quite hard.

Uh-huh.

Recently, one picture that have spread makes lot of assumptions!

Those who already inside group of "kekomplotan", smirking with joy to me.

And many people who don't know, affected by it, and it's affecting me too...

All because, this "kekomplotan" is getting bigger.

And three days ago, when i seen one of my colleagues wore "inai".

And i said, what if I'm the one who wore that too? Is that okay?

And one men said, it's okay. Why not. Is not another person... a man... in this department wore it too. 

Oh, okay.

For this situation. I will stay quiet and hardly say nothing.

I'm a thinker not talker.

Time will tell.

Either that man and "kekomplotan" admit for everything... or nothing happened until the day i put on my resignation letter.

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Who's gonna surrender first?

Kindness towards yourself.

As many of my previous post i like to talk about those of, be good to society.
May some people not agree to every of my action.
Included my emak.
She worried about me.
That, why i need to think about others after all they not even care a percent towards me.
Is this worth it?

First, sorry to say to my emak.
I love you too.
No need to worried about what i do.
I just follow my heart.
I will stop after I'm finish the job.
Not because i'm tired doing it.
'Cause my kindness is no limit.

Society always weird ever and forever.
I'm not sad or disappointed if they not care me back.
I don't need anyone so called, care.
But i know society need my care.
... They don't want sympathy roughly, but they need a shoulder.
That what i learnt so far.

So,
I hope my kindness will lift bit their mood.
What i can help, i will do. Even my small smile.
Insyaallah...
Spread your kindness, spread the peace.

Kid wonder and solah

Assalamualikum.

When i was a kid.

I still remember that one of my ustaz said.

Was that a solah is a difficult thing ever to do?

And we all said, no!

So far... no.

And he said the opposite answer from us.

We all like,

WTF.

He not explain more, just said, the time will tell you.

And now after seven years, I understand all the reason behind it.

Why a solah actually look easy. 

But actually the real pure-beautiful-perfecto-of it... so it's complicated enough.

Solah on time/early time.

Or we missed it.

Solah focused/kehusyukan.

Feel and understood every meaning.

The movement.

The rukun solah.

The do's and don't.

Now you got me?

I'm not saying i fell i don't use it.

Or don't like do solah.

But if i want i can do solah as normal as not perfect.

But it wasted.

I want that top, best, and be appreciated by Allah.

As i praised Him.

So i did it as pure-sincere-and-ended-it-well.

Alhamdulillah.

Angry and be silent

Since i'm a kids, when i'm angry. I don't show.
I just remain silent.
Silent.
And stay away from others.
As a sign that,
... Just leave me a space for some times for me to balance back my hormone...
This is how i manage my mood.

'Cause i know, when i'm talking in angry situation... i will talk nonsense.
And later,
Not even realize, many heart are hurt.
That a worse.
So be silent is the best option.

I love how i see this picture, and i love to share it will all of you.
Seems to show that i practically manage my mood in the correct way!
Alhamdulillah. 

Hug

Assalamualaikum.

When i'm not in mood, or sad or totally out of the room.
I just need a hug.
Where i feel safe.
Protected.
And that make me feel better to going on...
Oh, the feeling.
Can you imagine.

And I want a hug.
Pretty need it right now.

After that emotional hug,
They can give me this not normal hug.
That,
I want of those pick-me-up-of-my-feet-squeeze-me-tight-spin-me-around-hurts-my-tummy-
But-still-makes-me smile-leaves-me-breathless-give-me-butterflies-make-me-giggle-
Or i called as stupid kind of hug.

Warghh.
Did i just wrote it?
Really me?
Huh.
I am so romantica de amour sometimes.
I think i should marry myself, duh.

Hahhah... whatever it is.
I still need a hug.
Hardly needed.
And i start to miss my family member.
Especially my emak.
She knew me better.

Or i should ask my old lady neighbor to hug me?
Should i?
Nope.
I don't think so.
I will bring this hug things for next year.
Two to three months to go.

... Better my emak and any of my family member get ready for hard hug from me.
Included my niece and nephew.
All of them.
LOL.

 : )

Second chance

I knew it's really hard and hurt to give someone their second chance.

Because of those mess up they did at first time. 

...

That make you think,

Is this a stupid decision ever... because,

Am I really strong enough to face unpredictable future that may ended with same unforgivable mistake? 

But, for Allah.

Everyday is a second chance.

And it's called tomorrow.

Just don't give up as you not give up to Allah forgiveness for every sin you did.

And everybody who lucky, 

Deserves a second chance. May not for a happy ending... but sometimes it's a chance to end things right.

Spread the peace.

Take a risk for your best.

And let Allah show the way.

Insyaallah.

Teguran

Assalamualaikum.

Teguran.

Bagi aku, setiap teguran ada baiknya.

Just how they bagi teguran...

Itu yang penting.

Yup.

Some people take teguran as offended untuk diorang.

Ingat kita dengki and nak jatuhkan diorang.

Too bad.

Always negative thinking.

But, it actually vise versa.

So saper yang rugi?

Bagi pihak yang menegur tuh....

You all also take part dalam sitausi ini.

I hate people who tegur publically.

Like untuk show off.

I think tegur privately or personally is better.

It's me, 

I donno others.

Or teguran dalam diam. Bias-bias, tengok-tengok post kat FB or any media entertainment.
Some things may be boleh share dengan orang lain.
Good idea!
But sometimes it's too sensitive to share...

Hello December

Assalamualaikum.

Few weeks to go.

And 2016 on the way.

Duh, 

How fast time flies...

December,

To me is always a happy part.

Where it's school holiday.

Where YES, year end sale happened.

Teeettttt...

Really.

Not much in spending for YES.

Because my commitment with car and my plan of buying a house.

So, see that later.

How i'm impressed myself.

Hahaaaa....

I love this picture!

Akhirah Investment: Hold my hand and lift me up

When i did calculating throughout my financial file.
I always in dilemma afterwards.
To think carefully about the better way of "akhirah investment".
Because it's not like my others investment, which I can  planned it very well... 'cause it took me long period.
But in this case,
I have to plan everyday!

Everyday investment, everyone...
Called me pro investor then.
Wow, and just wow.
Did you realized it?

My first thought when included this in my top list of investment is i planning in volunteers thing, gift to orphans...
Umrah, Hajj.
As simple as cupcake.
But after  I heard wonderful speech from Mr Nouman Ali Khan... my investment about it is getting bigger.
Complicated.
Too much to do, to much to take care of.

Daily routines investment...
???
Surely risks,
And ignoring it is just a bad move.
Because i have to kept it valuables day by day.
And please bless me, Allah.

How about yours?
Did you already starting or just starting?
Whatever it is let's face it.
And kept ourselves valuables.
: )