Assalamualaikum. My family. My privacy. The one yang in my top list for what I protected about. And i will always put a big barrier between them and my world. Only saat arwah of my brother in law melalui saat-saat sukar. That time i'm a bit exposed and cried over for a reason that i can't terjemahkan. Hari-hari. Lepas habis kes, dapat mesej. That you knew the answer but you want to give them a hope? No. I can't do that. Mulalah your tears keluar because you can't be there for them. Be a shoulder that they needed. Sedih kan? Anyway. Tak suka sebenarnya nak share terlalu mendalam tentangnya. Because he's still our family member. And for this, we understood and respect each other about sesama privacy.  Sebab tuh gak in term of privacy, my parents not too talkative la orang cakap bila bawak pergi mingle around. First expression kalau nak judge. Tak dinafikan. Habis la my future husband.  Aiyoook. Pandai-pandailah kamu nak goren...

Assalamualaikum. When i'm not in mood, or sad or totally out of the room. I just need a hug. Where i feel safe. Protected. And that make me feel better to going on... Oh, the feeling. Can you imagine. And I want a hug. Pretty need it right now. After that emotional hug, They can give me this not normal hug. That, I want of those pick-me-up-of-my-feet-squeeze-me-tight-spin-me-around-hurts-my-tummy- But-still-makes-me smile-leaves-me-breathless-give-me-butterflies-make-me-giggle- Or i called as stupid kind of hug. Warghh. Did i just wrote it? Really me? Huh. I am so romantica de amour sometimes. I think i should marry myself, duh. Hahhah... whatever it is. I still need a hug. Hardly needed. And i start to miss my family member. Especially my emak. She knew me better. Or i should ask my old lady neighbor to hug me? Should i? Nope. I don't think so. I will bring this hug things for next year. Two to three months to go. ... Better my ema...