Hug

Assalamualaikum.

When i'm not in mood, or sad or totally out of the room.
I just need a hug.
Where i feel safe.
Protected.
And that make me feel better to going on...
Oh, the feeling.
Can you imagine.

And I want a hug.
Pretty need it right now.

After that emotional hug,
They can give me this not normal hug.
That,
I want of those pick-me-up-of-my-feet-squeeze-me-tight-spin-me-around-hurts-my-tummy-
But-still-makes-me smile-leaves-me-breathless-give-me-butterflies-make-me-giggle-
Or i called as stupid kind of hug.

Warghh.
Did i just wrote it?
Really me?
Huh.
I am so romantica de amour sometimes.
I think i should marry myself, duh.

Hahhah... whatever it is.
I still need a hug.
Hardly needed.
And i start to miss my family member.
Especially my emak.
She knew me better.

Or i should ask my old lady neighbor to hug me?
Should i?
Nope.
I don't think so.
I will bring this hug things for next year.
Two to three months to go.

... Better my emak and any of my family member get ready for hard hug from me.
Included my niece and nephew.
All of them.
LOL.

 : )

Second chance

I knew it's really hard and hurt to give someone their second chance.

Because of those mess up they did at first time. 

...

That make you think,

Is this a stupid decision ever... because,

Am I really strong enough to face unpredictable future that may ended with same unforgivable mistake? 

But, for Allah.

Everyday is a second chance.

And it's called tomorrow.

Just don't give up as you not give up to Allah forgiveness for every sin you did.

And everybody who lucky, 

Deserves a second chance. May not for a happy ending... but sometimes it's a chance to end things right.

Spread the peace.

Take a risk for your best.

And let Allah show the way.

Insyaallah.

Teguran

Assalamualaikum.

Teguran.

Bagi aku, setiap teguran ada baiknya.

Just how they bagi teguran...

Itu yang penting.

Yup.

Some people take teguran as offended untuk diorang.

Ingat kita dengki and nak jatuhkan diorang.

Too bad.

Always negative thinking.

But, it actually vise versa.

So saper yang rugi?

Bagi pihak yang menegur tuh....

You all also take part dalam sitausi ini.

I hate people who tegur publically.

Like untuk show off.

I think tegur privately or personally is better.

It's me, 

I donno others.

Or teguran dalam diam. Bias-bias, tengok-tengok post kat FB or any media entertainment.
Some things may be boleh share dengan orang lain.
Good idea!
But sometimes it's too sensitive to share...

Hello December

Assalamualaikum.

Few weeks to go.

And 2016 on the way.

Duh, 

How fast time flies...

December,

To me is always a happy part.

Where it's school holiday.

Where YES, year end sale happened.

Teeettttt...

Really.

Not much in spending for YES.

Because my commitment with car and my plan of buying a house.

So, see that later.

How i'm impressed myself.

Hahaaaa....

I love this picture!

Akhirah Investment: Hold my hand and lift me up

When i did calculating throughout my financial file.
I always in dilemma afterwards.
To think carefully about the better way of "akhirah investment".
Because it's not like my others investment, which I can  planned it very well... 'cause it took me long period.
But in this case,
I have to plan everyday!

Everyday investment, everyone...
Called me pro investor then.
Wow, and just wow.
Did you realized it?

My first thought when included this in my top list of investment is i planning in volunteers thing, gift to orphans...
Umrah, Hajj.
As simple as cupcake.
But after  I heard wonderful speech from Mr Nouman Ali Khan... my investment about it is getting bigger.
Complicated.
Too much to do, to much to take care of.

Daily routines investment...
???
Surely risks,
And ignoring it is just a bad move.
Because i have to kept it valuables day by day.
And please bless me, Allah.

How about yours?
Did you already starting or just starting?
Whatever it is let's face it.
And kept ourselves valuables.
: )

I can't explain

Assalamualaikum.

Last few days, my friends introduced my number to one of her boy friend.

After my 50:50 permission.

And he started to WhatsApp.

I'm not replied.

Any of his message.

Next day, 

He rang up.

Small talk and I ended by saying I'm busy.

And really... i did something on that time.

After that, i forget to call him or message back.

This all after I regret about the permission.

I shouldn't do that.

Not because i "pilih kasih" dalam berkawan.

Not that.

But, i forget that...

Stranger always a stranger.

Some more, I realize that this guy is one of her lover friends. 

Not her truely friends.

Her lover, the man, that i hate so much...

He dumped her many times.

That's why i hate him.

When i hate him,i also hate his friends.

Why?

Because the meaning of friends is he or she bring the best of you.

But not in this case.

Or maybe it is just my imagination.

I dunno.

To that man...

Sorry dude.

I take my relationship as serious as my religion thoughts me.

And before it starts with no sincerity.

Better not bring the hope here.

: )

Jihad on it's own

Assalamualaikum,

For myself, when i talk about "Jihad".

It's such a big words.

And what i understood about jihad is these thing only related to holy-war or military action.

Like others always said... Jihad di jalan Allah. 

And those who in action towards jihad, being called as "Mujahid".

For that, i know i'm not one of them.

Forever.

After the #Parisattack story about two weeks ago, the words of jihad seems very interesting to me.

Others than ISIS thing.

So, i start googling and investigate about it.

You see i found that, jihad/ jahadu is a very manipulated influence words.

It's basically more towards those who struggling and striving towards God.

As per say,

Commit in the way of Allah. 

For ISIS things, when they spread they been jihad,

I can directly sound that jihad is a bad jihad.

Because the truly jihad is expecting something good will happened for both side.

If they start killing innocent society, it's not jihad.

It's revenges! 

And Islam prohibited this revenges things.

Keep on reading, when i alert that jihad have many division.

Then the most i like is Jihad al Nafs.

Battling against yourself, the ego and psyche...

Atau dikenali sebagai jihad ke atas diri sendiri.

Looks quiet easy, but watch your mouth!

It's more difficult than do a shopping complex.

Yup.

Mostly when i'm must struggling with my inner soul.

Even in simple things, some case that can be called jihad.

I remember when some vendors at my workplace invited us for a small dining event. 

And they just said come along, chill out.

Some other Muslim colleague is going, 

Makan free kat tempat high class, who don't want?

But, 

I politely declined and at the end i'm happy with my own decision because i heard they served some alcoholic drink.

Astagfirullah al azim.

Same situation when they also invited me along for Karaoke session.

I also decline, and which it's fine for me when they said don't want gathering me for next event.

Like i care?

Because i will gladly to say, 

There are plenty places where i can socialize that fits everyone.

But with whom i will socialize is more important.

Please respect my right.

 : )

Hijab.

Many of my post had talk about this.

Aurah especially.

It's also not only jihad through hijab, another major issue is that the opposite sex,

That boyfriends girlfriends things, 

Come on, you know what i mean. 

Or you can read my previous post about this.

My future husband.

I called this as jihad in relationship.

One more is jihad towards all trendsetter things.

Woohhh....

I can do this.

You also can survive this.

Thank you for reading.

Together we practice a good jihad.

Even in small things.

Alhamdulillah.

...

“Those who believe, and emigrate, and strive (jahadu) in the cause of God with their money and their lives, are far greater in rank in the sight of God. These are the winners.” 9:20

Belalang hijau

Hello!
Ini adalah belalang hijau yang aku sempat tangkap gambarnya so perfectly.
When you zoom it.
It's like this thing stare cutely at you.
Cute?
Yeah, it's cute.

Binatang ini kecil sahaja. Small like half of jari kelingking kita.
Kecik kan...
I'm not gonna to touch it.
Dia akan terbang dan melompat laju.
Because just only of,
Hard wind also make thing binatang pergi melarikan diri.
So sensetif.

Luckily my childhood i pernah tangkap this thing masa petang-petang with jaring kecil.
And put in balang.
And it will surely die in next morning.
Still not know the causes until i learnt that oxygen is exist!
Huahuahauuuaaa....

Bye!

Paris and Islam

Assalamualaikum.

#parisattack

Sad day for France,

and the tragedy in Paris yesterday should be seen as a wake up call to European nations.

And we can see how they unite with France. 

Good.

But this incident will aim the terror attack.

Who?

Islam, Muslim of course.

That the climax.

Even everyone don't know the real stories... their mind already been thinking like this.

Looks normal?

Freaking scary!

Terrorist no religion.

They are not Islam.

Even Christian 

Or Buddha.

Or Hindu.

Because i believe every religion teach their followers a good manners.

They are idiots and heartless.

Those war between two idiots, in the end,  innocent of community will get hurt.

Injured.

Death.

By the way,

Only coward attack innocent civilians.

Idiots. Heartless. Coward.

To all the leaders in the world sorry to say but you guys definitely failed to protect the innocent. All I can see is blood all over the world, today 100 innocent dead in Paris, yesterday 500 innocent dead in Palestine, last year 400,000 dead in Syria, 5 years ago 1.5 million dead in Iraq and the list goes on and on. Don't you dare blame my religion for your failure. No matter how much you toughen up the laws on the Muslims your problems will never be fixed. Fix your corruption and take a really good look at yourselves.---"The Australian Muslim FB"

#parisattack

Get well soon peah!

This morning my sister, Maya, whats app that her only daughter admitted because of Influenza B.
Like flu outbreaks.
More concern is because she still a baby.
And it's scary!
Oh my... 'lil Peah so sick.

Her fever is up and down even after that suppository medication things.
Only interesting in biscuit.
Dehydrate too...

Lorh, she will not 'bambam' anymore if like that.

Aunt here pray the best for you.
Stay strong girl,
Get well soon Peah!
: )

Small talks.

I'm the person who hate to start a conversation.

Especially to the stranger.

Really true.

Like... what if my question or story make he/she become more sad or unhappy.

I care about all these, okay.

But, with the people i know...

Sometimes awkwardness also happens.

Really true.

Like... what if my question or story so bored to he/she later.

I care we will not talk each other in future.

I still not yet found the perfect buddy.

Which i can share and talk about atoms, 

Death, 

Aliens, 

Magic, 

Intellect, 

The meaning of life, 

Faraway galaxies, 

The lies I'e told, 

My flaws, 

My favorite scents, 

My crazy childhood, 

What keep me up at night, 

My insecurity with height, 

Who speak with no emotion, 

A twisted mind.

I don't want to know... that nonsense story and words of ,"What's up"

Please.

I'm different.

And also weird.

So, enjoy my weirdness.

I hope you say, yes!

Tiga beradik

This is Ziqa, Apiz and baby Anas.
They are Yam's children, my older sister.

New thing about Ziqa are she said her age is 80 already and next year will be 90.
More older than my father, her grandfather.
Even the actual age is only 5!
She also already asked about nuclear... Oh, okay...

Apiz, i seen the video how he's bullying and penyekkan si adiknya, Anas.
Hahahhah....
This pix also can be interparate it,
See how he hold that baby hand?
He pinch or what...
But muka ada geram.

Baby Anas. Still don't have any teeth.
Cannot walk yet.
Bubbling more and like to smile.

There all are the happiness in our family.
Stay healthy, cute and make our life like bomb with their mind and playing time.
Keep on guys.
: )

Human behavior. It's complex

I like to do this things more seriously since i was at the end of High School.
May because that the moments where my soul started be matured. Hahhaha...
At these time not much i can related with the complex of life.

The introduction of life is when i in national service, PLKN. Where for the first time i'm staying away from my lovely family for three months.
And after that, away again for studied.
Three years.
Keep it down when i work at Johor.
Heat it up again after one year until now, where i staying at Kuala Lumpur.

College and working time, there the real human behavior i learnt.
And surely it's complex!
When i only analyzing...there started judging me.
Big difference here.
'But that's what keeps me going up.
Not going down.

This how i said, we life is the same world.
Be slave for the same God.
But through it with different way.
Bad or good... we choose because it's our chapter.
Our pahala.
Our books.
So please choose wisely the way you live.