Careful with your words

Assalamualaikum.

In hundred or tak sampai billions of friends aku ada.
Fact or not facts...
At least satu mesti sangkut.
Yang aku terpaksa deal dengan dia punya manners.
So annoying.
Like dia jer semua yang betul.
Huh.

Mula-mula i tried to think positive.
Sebab so far dia punya manners still in my range.
Belum tunjuk taring lagi kot.

But lately... we are memang tak boleh kamceng lagi dah.
Cannot.
I said, i cannot tahan.
How can boleh aku tahan lagi?
Bila aku tengok dia, rasa nak tumbuk or kick orang dah ni

When dia senang-senang nak tried bullies me.
Aku bagi muka emotionless.
Annoy aku dengan sengaja.
Ini kadang-kadang aku marah la jugak.
Tapi pastu aku senyum balik.
Sebab bagi aku hidup kena maintain cool.
And then when dia start hurting you physically.
That the full stop. To me!

Hello.
Like freaking damn aku nak biarkan jer.
Sakit gila.
Stupid.
My left arm red for two days and bruise for another seven days.
But i'm not telling dia.
Likes dia akan care aku balik?
A big no.

Now, aku malas nak layan dia.
I will remember how hurt my left arm are.
Bukan nak memutuskan silaturrahim la kan.
But if you continue dengan this kind of perangai...
Not gonna say banyak.
Get out from my eyes.
You are not invited.
Pergi main jauh-jauh.

You want to know why aku selalu hang out with my kawan lelaki.
Aku gurau kasar dengan diorang.
But diorang tak pernah balas balik?
Sebab diorang tahu,
Aku cepat bruise.
And that bruise bukan bruise biasa.
Ia sakit.
Mereka faham aku.
But not you.

Satu lagi, the most yang aku selalu caught you.
Your ego problem.
Your riak perfectly statement.
I think, you and i dah argue tentang benda ni dulu.
And i said, jangan riak... nampak useless.

Then, you beri your alasan.
Reason yang tak masuk akal actually.
You said you want to be a good person, but donno your words hurting all.
Tak akan everyday nak collect dosa atas mulut sendiri.
Tak penat ke?
Malaikat yang bahu sebelah kiri sentiasa mencatit laju with your every second statement.

I think i have beri dia pengajaran sikit.
Even i know dia kan balas balik.
But what would i care?
Dia can hurt me more, but he cannot mess with my emotion.
Because dia memang spesis bipolar.
Dia patut duduk kat kutub Utara sana.

Pray for me
#prayforme

Stupid shirt we talking about

Assalamualaikum.

Last Saturday, i said to my friend in serious tone.
I want the Shirt that he will get from his Sunday morning event. Occasion run with Bio essence I think.
I donno why i cared so much, before this any run marathon he joined. I tak ambil kisah pon. Lantaklah.
But this one... menarik like crazy my sense, that i want that shirt really bad.
Not sure by the way, if that shirt are good looking or not.
Like i said, my senses.

I said to him. I will waited at the finishing line.
To grab his shirt, and bawak lari.

Gila tak gila. Even tak buat pon sebenarnya sebab i'm oncall hokey.
Job calling.
Lots of case are waiting on that day!
Hailo.

After i cannot pujuk him.
I tried to this one guy. Dia pon join gak. Even we selalu fight like there is no tomorrow but for that shirt i sanggup.
So, i WhatsApp him.
I said i want that shirt... he replied every message in blur figured.
Bruhhh...

And the next day.
When i seen my friends posted about the marathon. And i seen how cool the color of that shirt.
I terus, ohkey.
I will get that shirt no matter how.
If i cannot get it in sesi pujuk memujuk... how about, can i paid you and you give me that shirt.
Win win situation, bro.
Don't you like my money?

Surprisingly... that evening, this guy message me if i still interested in that sweat shirt?
Of course i am.
But gi la basuh dulu baru bagi, kan.
I stated my reason that i want that shirt tok bawak gi menoreh.
And well, we fight in next replied.
Lol.

Yesterday, when i mintak that shirt... he buat-buat blur. Rasa nak hentak kepala kat dinding.
Why la i had to dealing with this guy.
And when the friends yang sama-sama gi marathon found out, i want that shirt.
They kutuk i like freaking awesome punya ayat.
Gurghhhh.... I give them pandangan membunuh.
And when I tried to catch them. They ran bertaburan like anak ayam.
Penakut!

Ikutkan i'm not really so addicted to have it anyway.
.. that stupid shirt.
But, just want it to cover my next coming event. Because my closet yang penuh dengan blouse and jubah tak sesuai for it.
Shirt yang ada some i dah used for other things. Huhuhuuu...

If korang sayang sangat, nanti i will pulangkanlah balik hokey.

By the way, i think... looks like not my rezeki.
Biarlah. No offended pon kat diorang.
That's their right.
Me? Nak wat camner. Kena la haunting every sport outlets this weekend.
After my volunteered class.
Sebab event nya next week. Hope sempat.
And maybe I should grab two or three shirt later.
Senang sikit.

Cayoook!

New royal blue scarf

Assalamualaikum,

Last week someone came to my department and jual tudung.
So, one friend show me that kind of tudung. And i'm really fall in love with the color.
But the one she tunjuk, she already bought it.
Poor me.

And one guy as usual be a model for me.
He style that tudung.
The one yang tinggal bit bright colour. Not so fine. I just, maybe next time...
And suddenly he ask me if i want it or not.
I like, maybe next session duh.
And he said, if you want just take it. Dia akan bayar.
I like... are you serious... sayang?
Like damn serious?!!!

And he angguk-angguk.
I thought he just joking around. Even sebenarnya, i wish it's true.
So, i tried it on me and put it back in place and leave it there.
And when i came back the seller told me.
Ini untuk awak, that guy akan bayar.
And when I asked that guy is he serious about this.
And dia cakap, ya.
I said... thank you sayang.

And that make me smile.

Then, on the way untuk simpan dalam my locker, i sempat showed back to my friend, i get it jugak ohkey.
And we giving each other evil smile.
But one guy makes my smile turn to fade when he said my tudung like alas meja.
I hate him.
Really, really hate him so much.

Why la he really like push my button.
Bursting dengan sengaja my angry mood.
Tanpa tunggu lama, i tried balas balik. My action louder than words dude..
And i will not gonna said i dapat that for free to him.
Lagilah dia akan kutuk non stop.
So when I caught him. And nak balas dendam. Others akan suka back up him... not me.
Huhuhuuu... i felt di lupakan.
His fault guys. Why can't you all see that!
Huh.

Anyway, malas nak citer pasal dia.
Better I appreciate what other guy giving me. Right.
I pray Allah will bless him everyday.
And thank you for the tudung.
You're so baik.
I will take care of it.
= )