ME: Let's talk about myself

Assalamualaikum.

I'm not a person who like to express myself.
To shout out my feeling... is not so me.
But, when i have to talk about myself.
I likes to warn, that i hate people put attentions to me.
I want it other way round.
That the main things you should know.

If you seen my Facebook page, I only have a 200+- friends.
That are the people i comfortable with.
Sorry for those unapproved friends requests.
But, still I don't know how i can followed by 60 person.
Geez.
Even my profile picture is just abstract looking art.
I'm also not the one post my face picture if have any event.
Sorry for 120 pending post that my friends tag me that i'm not proceed to my wall.
Bit annoying, duh.
Sorry.

And did you know that i already delete my first Instagram IG because too many stranger followers.
And some comments which i think, can you better not post that.
By the way... months ago,i tried make a new one...
Privately.
Hope they not realize it's me.

For chatting part, i only have whats app.
Which have some people i already blocked.
Because of certain part their message that i cannot accept.
In my way.
And sorry for some message that i'm not reply.
Either i busy or your message just like a hammer to my head.

I hate when people know more about me than myself,
I hate when people want to know where i live,
I hate when people try to talk the way i dress up,
I hate when people comments the foods i ate.
I hate when people worry about me,
I hate when people protective over me.
Mostly i hate when they think they can make me out of myself.
I hate everything.
Really hate it.
And i'm not joking around.

Sound like i'm having a hard time, or self esteem issues?
But i didn't.
I'm happy with myself.
And my family love me.
I just hate people in the society.
Included my neighborhood.
And their attentions too...
It's so scaring me.
I felt uncomfortable.
I felt insecure.

Why i hate society?
Because main things, they like to judge you.
Scanning you from their eyes, toes to head, and the results surely more negatively i think.
Before you can utter a first single word.
And a lie too... later on.
Either them tell me a lie.
Or i should be a liar to save myself.
Whatever it goes...
Big or small,
Lies are lies.

And how can i built a relationship if i'm not believe a pieces of truth among us.
So, I think why pretend you care if you're not.
Don't force yourself to makes others happy,
Or treats others person like a competitor.
Can you be like me which like i always do...
Be an angel side.
... Be a good person, be a nice human.
If they hurt you... smile.
One quote i heard, be happy in front of your haters... it kills them.
Also, try minimize in involving things you think yourself cannot handle it by your own.
More safely this way.
And be invisible if needed.
Makes each other free.
Win-win situation.

But it's not ending here when i find out that i have some secret admirer, i just like... freaking awkward!
How can they like me?
What make a sense to them to like me?
I think i'm not mingle around too much.
Or drawing any attention in what i'm doing, i think...
And,
I don't think i deserving this.

And with this,
They make me want to go back home and stay alone in my room.
With a sign at doorknob,
"Don't disturb me if you want a peace."
Or to stay in one corner corridor and wore very long hijab and purdah that cover all myself.

Why me, why?
I think i should ask one of them.
Why can i be an attention to them?
What makes them realize my existing?
I should ask this questions...
In one day.

Is it weird that i don't like any attentions?
I think not.
So why should not you respect my space and let be care my own problem.
Let me be alone.
Let me be what i want to be.
Let me rules my own life,
That's better.
: )

Ramadhan 1436H

Assalamualaikum,

Today i thought is the beginning of Ramadhan, but actually i'm too earlier...
Because the real is tomorrow.
Hhahahah...
The truth are i already prepare for wake up Shaur next morning and,
the best part,  i'm done my first Terawih!
Please forgive me Allah.

Maybe 'cause i'm too excited with whole fasting part and in earning more pahala.
Let's just said, I did that all as practice.
Practice makes perfect, right.
So, well done buddy.
: )

So, my target this Ramadhan 1436H, i really want to finish a Quran.
Really want that.
First priority!
In Ramadhan months...
And others like move on with my plans.

Insyaallah,
I will arrange majlis buka puasa bersama anak yatim event.
The date is on 18 june 2016, Saturday at T'mor Place.
Join venture with Rumah Amal Asnaf Al Bakarh.
This is more privately to my department, OT PCMC.

Rm 150/person i put there.
And per family, RM 300.
May too expensive, but it's more to the charity and sedekah project.
Bila lagi nak cekau duit biar mereka nih menderma in lots of money right,
Hhehheh...
I will cut down on the foods things but more to their preparation to Eid days.
Insyaaalah.
Wish me luck and bless with my first time cahrity project, guys.

I also will donate some of my old, not so old actually, clothes.
With i hope that will help them.
Beyond the pahala.
Duh.
In the same time, make my life easier in lesser drawer items.
Fuh.

Meanwhile a good news, behalf of my family name... I will donate 1K for this project.
Beyond the pahala, again.
: )

Orait, see you all in next post.

Ayyub's wedding: Wrap up

Assalamualaikum,

End of May last weekend are actually is my brother, Ayyub, wedding.
He's the one actually prepare everything.
As what i knew.
'Cause we all only arrive Johor on that Friday night.
What can you aspect with that short of time.
Sorry, bro.

Their engagement also i can't attend... then, why not show your face for his big day right.
: )
At least, i support for parents new cloths and others.
And my car too, for your transportation.
0-0....

The event held at Masai, Johor... This is a good things if you get a partner in same negeri.
Save money and energy.
He stay there at the home-stay nearby and we contact time by time.
After Zohor we will go there because more practicable with the event who only will started at 3:00 pm.
From morning to that time, don't blame me if I can make some cookies!
Oat cookies with some almond and raisin.
Like they said, Tuan Anas cookies.
Whatever,
Not a slight i seen that drama, duh.

And spent time with your family is i like most!
Cik Ziqa also started doing some homework with the books i gave her.
Six books!
Hadam lah kau Ziqa.
Stay clever and cute girls.

Others precious moments i get are when Anas first baby steps!
He walking oh lala....
Cayok, Anas!

After we arrive there, sharp at 3:00 pm, some kind of you have to wait because the Imam is not coming yet is so not me.
Then, what I actually did... The foods are calling me.
Even the tuan rumah tak pelawa.
Whatever, i'm not took my lunch yet.
So others.

Then, when i seen my parents not attended, I discuss with tuan rumah.
Why not you get ready some snack while waiting, right.
I know they bit busier but i just give my opinion.
: )

So, when the Imam/ Tok kadi came, i sat there quietly.
But, he said all women to go inside or get out.
What the fish!
While that, i think let us took some picture more...
Like i cares?
May be because the space is too small i think.
Not me to blame anyone.

Then, Alhamdulillah with one lafaz everything going smooth.
And makan beradap.
Again bon appetite, everyone!
Hhehehhe....

Here some pictures for the moments, enjoy!
And for my brother wifey, congratulations and welcome home dear.

Heading there.

Alhamdulillah, with one lafaz... they make it.

Oh cameraman, you thought i care? Sorry, i did it on purpose.

Cik Peah with me. Such a cute princess you are!

My honor for give us chance to snap a picture, my princess.
Hehhehhe....

TRAVEL: Zoo Taiping, Perak

Assalamualaikum.

Two days ago, i went to Zoo Taiping.
After paid RM 17.00 per head adult and passes the guard, there are free photo booth.
They said free, i donno.
I jalan terus aja.
And after little walk. You can decide whether to straight walk or used their tram.
... for us,
We decided to walk,
More adventure because sound crazy to wait for three full long line... wasted time!

Even it's so hot.
We just redah and terjah.
But around the corner, the jungle sound make our adrenaline rush.
Beware to look around behind the tree.
Someone may watching you.
My sister said, looks like we're in a scary house but open roof.

That's sound makes by two speaker monkey type.
Very funny and their sound will reply by others animal.
So natural.
Like, duh.

And long trip to go...
As i seen, this zoo is different from my Johor zoo.
Zoo Johor is bit private and lots of gate.
But here, the gate is short even you can pick up the animal and put in a bag.
If you dare do that.
Plus, none guard around...
LOL.

Luckily there is bus stop and toilet in the middle of zoo,
Also after few hours i felt like i'm in the Madagascar movie.
As i seen a zebra, hypothalamus and sleeping lion and giraffe.
Hahhaha...
But no four penguin detected.
Too bad.

Zebra!

Here, what i like are,
I can feed some deer and kangaroo!
Interact with some of them face to face...
And make some sound, like they will understood?
Hahahha...
The fish there really big and diversity.
All animal well treated and no skinny type i saw.

My advice before you enter is, bring along a small bag.
And put a mineral water bottle.
And some small snacks, prevent when hypo came.
If you have a umbrella or cap, bring it on.
You need that.

And please, don't be so kind by giving these animal your food.
Because our kindness may effect the animal digestion.
Like you want to give kuih bahulu to kangaroo!
No, no, no...
Prevent this thought from happened.
Please.

Little Arissa/Peah in the house.

Overall, this is awesome place to go.
Awe-somatic if your children can join.
They will learn and expose more.
And you need to answer their question too!
Good luck for that.
: )
So, bye.
See your in next trip.

Perak: MAPS, movie animation park studio

Assalamualaikum.

Hai.
Yesterday,
My younger sister and me,
And my sister and her 'lil family excitedly plan to go MAPS.
Movie Animation Park Studio!
At Ipoh, Perak.
Sound big and fun.

As a passenger, my job is to do googling  and checking the price ticket.
So i did.
And understood of sold out ticket at the website.
Wow.
That's so fast...

But still heading there,
And only saw the started gate of how big it is.
And small parking lot i can said.
...
And after the welcome gate, we only did hip-hip-horey inside the car.
Because it's not open yet.
Huhuhuhuuu...
Even March ago are their pre launching.
But as facts, according to their website.
Fully launch are this July.

Ups!
But as i seen, more works and construction to do.
May not be done on time.
I only said.
But so far, it's big theme park.
With combination of  the local and international animation, what can you aspect?
More fun i think.

So, maybe next year we will go here again.

Outdoor: Bukit Tabur

Assalamualaikum,

Another outdoor activities I did is hiking!
Literally, in this case i suggest that you must have a strong and tough buddy that accompanies you.
Because it's physically so hard if not so.
: )

Not i mean that hot gym guy.
Which have bulging muscle every where...
But some person who are strong and tough in mentally.
That's the one.
That i want.
Included their spirit and survival feeling.
Then, you can let's the game begin.

Why i like if my group member have this kind of aura.
Because what ever sharp stone or high narrow way or you fall later, you know that's are normal.
Not some 'gediks' manners, please.
I can't face it.
And make me gonna not enjoy the whole trip day.
And make it's more drama and nil fun.

Avengers OT staff PCMC fighters!

This Bukit Tabur time, my group around eight person , i can said as details above.
Have this positive aura.
Even included the six years lovely old boy!
(sorry not in picture, because he fighting with his game phone right now)

... very lucky boy.

After 7.00 am we started hike and have three point overall.
All points, have own very nice view.
Masyaallah!
Like it so much.
And others hikers very helpful.
And friendly too.
That's the most important.

That we really donno who the guy at the back. But, it's ok because he has a look.
: )

This point we really like it. Others side, have this one sister did a cup of tea. Hahhha...
I think that's a brilliant idea.

Next destination, please.

And we came down around 10 am.
Go breakfast, I choose Chicken soup.
: )
And we decided to do 'Terjun Tiruk'...
At Kemensah,
I can said, not really happening because the place is so small and I already go there to celebrate my birthday last year.
So I not hope much.
And okay with it.

After that, we go shopping at Kenanga Mall.
Awesome wholesale you must go, babe.
And arrived at home around Magrib time.
...
Very tiring day.

But fun!.
Bye.

Peah buat-buat comel pulak

First picture, she pose like a model. Duh, when you see a model looks straight at the camera?
Right.
Matching dress with those shoes. And big pink ribbon headband detected.
Hurm.
Not sure who sponsor this outfit...
Not gonna say anything.
But, can i know meh where you bought it?
My future husband need to know this.
He must, i can said.

Second picture, luckily she's prefer to be a normal kid.
Hhehehhe... so comeh.
Big eyes!!!
Can we change?
= )

My video from Videoshow

Assalamualaikum,

As i like to see nice video at YouTube.
I wish to make and record my own video.
So i started recorded some short video.
Then how i can make it more interesting?

Then after searching and googling.
I found this apps and I thinks I much addicted to it.

It's called Video Show apps.
And it's android.
Can be downloaded at play store and type videoshow.
Donno about selfish Iphone apps, sorry!

And as that, i done three video already.
So... i think i like it very much.
I hope in future they make it more HD and more theme.
And no fees behind it.
Hehheheh....

So enjoy!
*Sorry, i can't show you my video because my line not strong enough to download it : )

The picture apps look like this.

Perak: Gopeng Part 1

Assalamualaikum.

Hai.
Last weekend my friend (Emy) and I we're heading to Perak with some mission.
But, before that on Friday morning we're go to Kedah first to collect her taekwando suit.
And show me her hometown, flashback childhood memories in one day.
And that late evening,
We start come down to Perak state.

We exit toll, 135. Gopeng.
And after toll..turn to right side and searching a hotel.
And we pick Hotel Gopeng Inn. RM 88/night.
Beside KFC store.
So, you know what dinner gonna be.
About the hotel, what can you aspect if you only just want to sleep per night, as long the hotel clean and safety no. 1... i think i'm good with it.
: )

That Saturday morning, after Subuh and showering. I start to make a plan.
Much visit before 2pm?
So, the first place is Kellies castle.
RM 5.00 for adult per head.
Even though history is not my favorite subject... but looking at this fantastic building is amaze me.
How can they built such a wonderful building or castle at that century, 1915
Unthinkable.
But they did.

My reaction!

At the top.

Yeah finally we're here.

After one hours, limited time guys.
We go to breakfast in front of  Taman Herba.
We're not going inside. Just enjoy their lovely healthier food.
Nasi goreng herba/ herbs fried rice,
Serve with the fried chicken and small bowl of soup.
You all should try this... for breakfast?
Hhehehe.

Next,
Heritage house/ Museum Gopeng. Around the roundabout... Nearby our hotel actually.
Free.
So, this red shop retail being renovated to make like a small museum.
And again we enter the historical world.
Welcome again!

I like how some unique thing they display have a story about this place.
Tin mining industry.
And most i like is when i can seen some moments from my childhood.
Even i know i'm not that old, duh.
But, yeah...

Registered first, ladies.

This is what i'm talking about. Okey, where the powder and let's the game begins.

I think my mom gonna proud if i show this picture. 

Oh yeah, after you done did a tour and some donation at Heritage house. Don't forget to looks at the right side.
Where have a small coconut stall.
Tried their fresh coconut water. RM 3.00 each.
Even though you can get at any place but this stall, is where i can said...You must go to complete the tour.
Very refreshing your throat at this sweaty noon.

Some said, you should also go to Gaharu Tea Valley. Just around the corner.
But after some searching.
I think we're fine with it.
Because they said, the tree we gonna want to see where they believe can heal/ transfer some disease already died.
Maybe because that tree cannot afford the disease loaded. Or i can said, modern disease.
Pity that tree. RIP.
Nah, if you wanna kill the time.
You can go.

Now, i think it's time for our mission!
Hohoho...
And let me said that i will continue in next post.
Bye.
: )