Assalamualaikum. In my 21st post, I wrote down how super tired i'm. After that, I had night fever. And days dizziness. Plus on off nausea. But i still work, because i think i strong enough. But, It's continued by diarrhea for three days. Fuh. Thank you January. Such an awesome memories. "And when I'm ill, it is (God) who cures me. Surah Ash-shu'aara ayat 26:80"  On next day of CNY, I'm oncall. My diarrhea still on. So that morning... I go to A&E. Seen a doctor and took some blood test. In waiting for blood results, I go back to my department and did a lap. case. I tried to push myself, even have to sat doing cases.  Sorry guys. After finished, quickly walked down to A&E and discuss about my results. The doc said have some viral, but he will treat me as AGE case. He want to give me MC... i said I'm oncall. No one will cover me. Only can huhahuha together So, he said, anything bad, direct com...

Assalamualaikum. Masih teringat lagi, masa tu my doctor tumpangkan naik kereta sama on the way after kerja. Follow by another doctor. And i'm sat at the back just be a good passenger. Lots of topic we discuss. About no makes sense of hospital charges, related to decrease of cases, and new technology in medical too. Rasa matured ya amat bila cakap pasal itu semua. Layan je la. And one moment, they asked me about my personal part. Jodoh things. Time tu actually rasa macam nak bukak tingkap. And terjun ke luar. I don't care if we are still on the busy road. "Why not you find your own abang, adibah?" After few deep breaths, i replied. It's hard to trust a man, doc. Pretty hard. And they both nods and silence for few minutes. Not said i traumatized dengan semua lelaki. I grew with three weird brothers and a good father. My relationship with them are good. Because i trust mereka in my life. Siblings goal. But now, if you dare me to put...

Assalamualaikum, Don't worry guys. My choice is not this guy. The tattoo things. Mau kena kejar dengan parang kang by my ayah if pilihannya dia. How come my daughter in law is so brutal! Hahaha, can't imagine. Pengsan. Dia adalah chef. Our first met masa kami buat charity project. Time tu, memang tak perasan ada makanan free by some group yang join situ. Sebab syiok sangat ajar budak-budak nih membaca. Plus, semangat diorang nak belajar and terus belajar. Khusyuk gila ar. Lagi triple excitement nak ajar mereka. So, when a lunch time tiba... budak-budak nih ajak makan sama. I actually sangat lapar but still can boleh tahan. Even my breakfast only biscuit. Sebab nanti balik rumah ingat akan singgah kedai ke apa. Rezeki diorang, malas nak cuit sama. Then, my partner ajak makan sama. And she took it behalf on me. So makan jela.  Nasi lemak full package with a fried chicken. Sedap. And time tengah makan sambil layan budak-budak ni. Rasa ...

Assalamualaikum. Yesterday, before balik... my department planned untuk celebrates birthday tiga orang sekaligus. Paket kecil tepung semua dah ready in hand masing-masing. I not take it and brave enough to do it to another person. Because I don't want them to do it to me.  Beranilah. I will kill each of you. And campak kat tengah laut. So, after few attempts gagal nak kenakan mereka. My senior terpaksa guna ayat, urgent meeting before Chinese new year? Oh-kay. Bolehlah. After few words, the birthday boys being surprised with a small slice of cake. And we sang a song together. Nampak baik kan. But the real "baik" is when the tepung party started. I ran first! My shirt and my tudung are so precious guys. Sorry. The best part is when the boys are so cool. Sempat ambil picture sama with all those tepung di muka. Those a.k.a foundations make you all bertambah handsome bro. Hahhaha... And tak ada yang ambil hati with it. But what i said ...

Assalamualaikum, Masa tu, I'm oncall. So, masa tengahri after visited my friend kat ward... and lunch. And terus get ready to prepare all those set for the next day cases. My colleague yang post call datang lepak sama. And dia bagitau how busy they are malam tu. Until 2:00 am baru tidur. Then, we make a deal. Tengok siapa paling busy.... Confident gila ah. Cakap yang kami tak akan ada kes langsung. Keep cool kata orang tuh. That day, we only have small eyes case. Itu pon petang. So 'till night memang free. After dinner, mandi and pukul 10:00 malam...semua dah tarik selimut. Tengah sedap tidur, we got a call at 12:00 am, a neurosurgeon nak buat case. Emergency! Craniotomy. Hematoma. Like what.... Saka siapakah ini? And the case finished at 4:00 am. Siap-siap semua pukul 5:00 baru tidur balik. Part paling best... 06:00 am, you have to wake up because 07:30 we all have a cesarean case. Huhuhuu. My body cannot take it. I need my blanket again....

Assalamualaikum. This post typing under full of consciousness. 'Lil psychos. Or too much of assuming. Maybe twenty percent facts, duh. For real of what happened to my body right now... So scared. Am I sick? Am I really sick? Or I just over reacting. Hope so. Few days ago, I posted about how super tired I am. That i just wanna be in my bed all day long and do nothing. Not even to take a break and go to kitchen and get something to eat. Not so hungry duh. Not complaining. What my goals are I just wanna lie down and rest my mind. In between case also, I'm not in boost. Sometimes one case makes me acted like i'm doing 24 hour services. I don't excited like before. I think i need a vacation. Maybe. Another post, I also wrote about how easily i bruised. And it's continue 'till today. Sometimes when i woke up in the next morning and do my routine then I realize i have those blackish blue spot. Bit pain but it considerable....

Assalamualaikum. Beberapa hari lepas, I'm berperang with one of my colleagues. And 'till now, we're still tak bertegur. And i want to see how long it will lasted. Really want to see. And i will not up any white flag. Not until he said, a word sorry! If i bring up our case, I sure you all akan kata i'm at the right part. Because he denial his duty and responsibility. Which i heard itu bukanlah kali pertama dia pernah buat. Such a nice role model yang dia nak tunjuk. Even tough he's not admit apa yang dia buat, I'm still ok. Manusia. And when he tried blame others atas apa yang terjadi. Tarik kesalahan orang lain dalam kesalahan sendirik. I surrender.  I said, tak payah panjangkan cerita. I will found out everything in the system on behalf of him. Full stop. And as i'm the one in-charge. I want pass over about it in perfect figure. So i will settle down everything that night. Bersengkang mata tak apalah. Janji bal...

Assalamualaikum, Sedang meluangkan masa melihat apa yang menarik di Facebook, Pada setiap yang terpapar di skrin telefon. Dan, tiba-tiba. Terpaku... Terjumpa suatu ayat yang sangat menarik perhatian. Juga untuk dikongsi bersama. Perkara ini sudah lama dipaparkan. Dan sudah lama disimpan di telefon. Ingin segera dikongsi, namun tiada kesempatan. Maafkanlah. Namun, hari ini berpeluang untuk berkongsi. Semoga bermanfaat. Semoga mendapat syafaat bersama. Benar. Surat khabar adalah daripada ayat manusia sendiri. Ynag mana masih belajar bertatih mencedok ilmu Allah. Manakala Quran itu adalah kalam Allah. Yang mengetahui apa yang berlaku pada segalanya. Sungguh kita terlepas pandang pada semua ini. MasyaAllah. Bacalh Quran. Teruskalah perjuangan! Kajilah dengan mendalam pada isi Quran. Dengan maksud tersirat disebaliknya. Supaya nanti kita tidak rugi. Tidak menyesal, Apatah lagi bila ajal datang menyemput. Bahawasanya kita telam khatam dengan jujurnya akan...

Assalamualaikum, Resepi nih dapat from my mak cik masa time raya beberapa tahun lepas dan lepasnya. Lama dah... Since that, try buat kat family sendirik. And diorang sangat suka kannya. Pastu memang rajin buat lah. Sebab sedap and mudah. And kenyang. So, bahan utama adalah kentang. Kentang ni buang kulit dia and potong ikut suka or wedges ke apa. And gorengkan dia. Goreng sampai dia separa masak. Kentang ni gak, if korang ada lebihan french fries yang rasa malas nak makan lagi. Boleh gunakan jugak.  Valid in my resepi. OK. Some bawang goreng. Bawang goreng buat sendirik or yang sedia ada. Boleh jer. Tak cerewet.  With some ayam or daging yang dicarik-carik isinya. Nak combined dua-dua pon boleh. Nak pick satu je pon ok. Ni kuantiti, ikut si pembuat and si pemakan. Dan some daun sup, daun bawang pon boleh. Sikit jer. Sebab tu kebanykan orang buat bergedil bila ada masak sup ke soto. So diorang punya daun sup biasa kan ada lebih-lebi...

Don't just teach your children to read, teach them to question what they read. Teach them to question everything. (George Carlin)... But my answer may isn't everything right duh. Rational zone. At least mencuba kan. Keep fighting kids! Even you all not my real kids. Whatever. Cannot wait tengok kamu semua boleh membaca dan teruskan membaca. Nanti boleh share minat yang sama and treasure more adventurous books. Yeahhh...   #sukatengokdiorangmembaca #sorryifgelakdalamdiam   #bahasabakuterlampau #ithinkicanbeateacherlah

Assalamualaikum. Bulan ini sememangnya membuatkan I'm super tired. Exhausted semua. This kind of things makes me so sleepy because all energy are being drain out. And all want is my bed only. Nothing else. Not even a food. Little nap is fine. With some laziness, lama la tak updating my blog. Sorry guys. Banyak stories actually nak share, but nak open laptop pon tak larat. Tak ada masa. Maka the best part, tertinggal gitu je. Sorry again. I'm terikat dengan full house of oncall. And today I'm oncall too! Cover for my colleague. Then, tomorrow after pass over, merempit terus ke tempat anak yatim untuk my first volunteered programs for 2017. So late kan. Huhuhuuuu.... Not forget, yang masa Chinese New Year, I'm oncall two days. Sunday and monday. Sunday tu jadik tukang cover for my colleague. Maka cannot lah make it untuk join mereka go to Kelantan attends our colleague wedding. So sad. I tried to change my oncall, but m...

My sister sent this picture this morning. This picture are looking good. Ans and Apiz tengah berebut bola... they're likes having fun in early morning. And at the other side actually ada some nenek tengah senam. And i said, suh Anas join mereka. Mesti diorang akan more bersemangat. Ans and the heartbreaker smiling. Hhahahha... Rindu lah kamu semua!

Assalamualaikum, After i finished seen a very nice Ted talk from Candy Chang about, before i die i want to... topics. I just stares at my phone, and, I looks out from my window. And started to think deeply. How about me? Before my time comes, before i die,  what i want to do, to be? That one thing i must do it without no regrets later on. It's actually a very easy question but difficult and complicated answer. If only one thing i can do before i die. I think it's obviously related about my Creator... Because i want to die in peacefully Islam ways. Even i have a chance to do that's good thing... i will still wonder, Do i ready inside out to face to face with Him? That are my pahala good enough to be in His heaven? And if i missed or less in something, will Allah help me? Or anyone will help me? Then, all of this issues,  Thinking about death clarifies my life. Because in this world you may be a billionaire, a celebrity or an icon. ...

Assalamualaikum. Let's talked about some guys thing here in my point of view. I can said, lelaki sekarang banyak dah perubahannya. Like 360 degree. Too different from my expectation, duh. In a good ways or sebaliknya... korang hadamkanlah sendiri. Bersiap? If you want to compare me with two three guys in one competition. I think, i won with no pressure. I donno why they are doing in there. Baru nak gosok baju or basuh baju ke. Tapi, tolonglah. Tak payahlah nak handsome-handsome sangat, kalau muka dah memang muka pecah rumah. Pasrah jelah. Time is clicking you know. I always said, lambat tinggal. I hate waiting. Diet? Yeah, when i still in my fav bread spread with peanut butter and chocolate... and a cup of milk. They more prefer for those cereal, all types yang entah pape macam. Konon sihatlah tu. Selang dua jam, masuk pantry balik haunt makanan. Berdekah jer. And no rice at lunch time. Where the hell they will get all those energy! From their cengku...

Assalamualaikum, Hujung dec masa tu, ada sorang kawan sekerja telah berhenti dengan jayanya. Ayat dengan jayanya tu memang tak boleh blah la kan. Tapi berjaya la dia berhenti, dapat better offer dengarya. Congrats, bro. Rezeki anak first. Alhamdulillah for him. Dia ni, nak puji lebih-lebih kang... mahu kena pelangkung dek bini dia. Bini dia sama tempat kerja. Tapi, dia memang baik. Serious. And, i like him. As my unbiological brother jer la. Gila nak lebih. He's the one yang i can trust. Maybe sebab kami sama-sama Johor. Orang batu dipahat katakan. So bonding tu kuat. Yeah, Bangsa Johor in advanced. Kibarkanlah benderamu, Johor! Tetiba semangat patriotic terlebih pulak. Most i respect gila adalah cara hardworking dia kerja. Systematic tapi bila bab ajk kebersihan dia tu, tak boleh nak tolong lah. Kadang-kadang if my gauze terjatuh masa tengah lap-lap, sanggup cepat-cepat kutip dan acts like normal. Tapi kantoi banyak kali. Hailo. And dia jen...

Assalamualaikum, Topik kali ini agak berat. Agak-agak rasa tak sanggup nak berubah. Tak rela nak merendahkan ego. Tak payahlah teruskan. Jangan buang masa, buang data internet. Saya tegur secara baik, sebagai kawan yang sayangkan kawannya. Bahawa jika kamu seorang perokok, silalah berhenti. Bukan untuk sesiapa, tetapi untuk diri sendiri. Letak tangan pada dada kiri, tanya iman. Jika masih ada rasa sayangnya lagi pada Allah. Pada agama. Berhentilah. Bukan dikurangkan. Tapi berhenti seberhentinya. Susah memang susah. Paksalah diri. Sebab kenapa kena sangat berhenti? Sebab merokok itu dilarang. Jatuh haram jika masih diteruskan. Kenapa haram? Sunnah, fatwa mana hendak dibuktikan? Bukan itu semua kawanku, tapi pada mata kasar pada celik ilmu agamanya, sudah boleh lihat jelas sebabnya. Sebab merokok itu termasuk dalam aspek membunuh diri. Suicidal attempt. Kan Allah dah cakap, Allah melaknat orang yang membunuh diri. Subhanallah. Kelak nanti kamu ingat A...

Assalamualaikum, I think it's time for me to use a words... saya dan awak. Even rasa geli sampai bulu ketiak masa nak sebut. Tapi kena guna jugak. Paksa diri. Paksa hati. Paksa segalanya. Demi menukar ayat ganti diri, aku dan hengkau. Yang sebenarnya lagi selesa guna ini. Lagi more umph kan! Rasa close gitu. Namun, sampai bila tak nak berubah kan? Dayung sikit-sikit, Allah tak pernah mengeluh tunggu. Yeah, i can do it. Belanja satu pict sikit. Sebab nak tunjuk mata saya membesar dengan sihat. Hahhahah....LOL. Maybe semua ini will take time. Cannot imagine camna la diorang punya reaction. Masa sebut nanti, diorang nak gelak guling-guling, nak terberak tercirit ke, i don't really care. This is my decision. This is what i want. Please respect it. Diorang nak balas balik dengan aku dan hengkau, still akan balas with saya dan awak... I still who I am. Our brotherhood will be the same bro. Jangan risau. Cuma kali ini, kena lembut sikit. Buka...