Am i sick?

Assalamualaikum.

This post typing under full of consciousness.
'Lil psychos.
Or too much of assuming.
Maybe twenty percent facts, duh.

For real of what happened to my body right now...

So scared.
Am I sick?
Am I really sick?
Or I just over reacting. Hope so.

Few days ago, I posted about how super tired I am.
That i just wanna be in my bed all day long and do nothing.
Not even to take a break and go to kitchen and get something to eat.
Not so hungry duh.
Not complaining.
What my goals are I just wanna lie down and rest my mind.

In between case also, I'm not in boost.

Sometimes one case makes me acted like i'm doing 24 hour services.

I don't excited like before.

I think i need a vacation. Maybe.

Another post, I also wrote about how easily i bruised.

And it's continue 'till today.
Sometimes when i woke up in the next morning and do my routine then I realize i have those blackish blue spot.
Bit pain but it considerable.
I no idea where i get it. 

Usually at my hand and my legs.

Did i bump into something so frequently?

Redness part, it's normal thing to me.
I can get everywhere, anytime, any moments. I'm ok duh.
Just when it's reach a limit, I cannot take it. Where the time comes,
When i have redness, i felt warm and hot uncontrollably, and pain increasing.
Then, i need those ice pack, and forced myself to sleep.
Because i know, it will spreading and make it more worsen.
Which i didn't like it.

At first i thought it's some allergic. But how come i can allergies too so many thing, right.

And now, I realized my gum seems actively bleeds.
When i brush my teeth, it's ok.
I think they will out when they like duh. Hailo.
It's bleed even when I'm doing cases.
Not comfortable actually, but I tried to pretend I'm ok.

If i have to spit it out, then i know my gums still bleeds and i need those gauze to apply pressure.

When I'm talking to someone too, it's show.. And they said, hey your gums are bleed.
Then i know.

Faster gurgled and apply pressure, then they ok.
Weird.

I think my dental appointment is still on schedule.

About my intake. One time i have no appetite. 

I barely comfortable with some bread only in a full week.
Even when i get free foods, i just ate what i felt too and the rest, i give others.
Or i just give them all.

Or my lunch box also i give my colleague if i don't feel to eat.
If it's continue, i just make a decision to fasting.
Better.
I felt better this way.

Not missed, i have nauseous for no reason.
Is it because i ate nothing or i ate too much?
Donno.
If i felt this way, I quickly get my candy. That's why i have big jar of candy on standby.
And tried to drink lots of water.
And i felt better.

The others part of me, i also had a short memory lost.

This one is forever me.
Like two days ago, i missed my phone at shop retail when i want bought some groceries.

Luckily, one of the client returned back to the cashier. Alhamdulillah.

And i will always not take back my id card with me obviously. 

Until the cleaner have to kept it on behalf.

The most forgetting issues are when i nearly missed my big amount of money for charity project.

Alhamdulillah again. Found it.

And i also can't remember lots thing like some people name, and where i park my motorcycle somehow. Creepy right.

That's why the main reason this blog created.

I want my memories lasted more longer.

For all this, i think i have to do a blood test.

Which i really want!
I want to know what's going on to my body. But sadly, i don't have time to do it this kind of things.
I know, if i cannot do it at my own hospital. I'm ok if to do it at any place.
I will pay. Ok.

But, when will i do it? I donno.
May Allah bless me. And you. 

Us.

= )