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Assalamualaikum and hello, o awesome readers!

I guess I'm pretty cool person. I likes be positive, helping others, writing and exploring.  Also a fan of happy ending. Even life is too serious as it is. This blog i called as my second heart. Everything with Allah blessing, i'll share those awesome moments in my life. Overall i think is a lot about my family. 'Cause i love them....LOL.

Thanks for all your support! It means a lot. Anyway, welcome to my life.

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Sisi lain surah Al-Fatihah

Assalamualaikum,

Aku sedia maklum Surah Al-Fatihah adalah surah terpenting dalam hidup ini.
Kerana itu dalam setiap solat wajib lima waktu kita sebut ia.
Lepas solat pun aku baca,
Dimana-mana bila ingat Allah... aku baca.
Waktu tengah kerja, bila berdepan dengan surgeon yang not so kind, aku baca jugak.
Masa stress lagi laju aku baca.
Ingat arwah, of course aku carik ayat ini.

Tapi... setelah bertahun-tahun hidup, start daripada dua tahun lepas aku tanam niat.
Aku nak kaji Surah ini.
Apa yang so special tentang ayat ini.
Memang curious gila.
Mungkin apa yang aku buat ini mengambil masa bertahun... kerana until now, aku masih mengkaji ia lagi.

So, dulu aku ada jugak post pasal surah Al Fatihah.
Boleh link dan tekan sini.
Surah Al-Fatihah first page.

Mula-mula kita kena tahu tentang all history tentang ia.
Bila, bagaiman, kat mana dan sebab ia diturunkan.
All this things, aku tak pandai nak collaborate.
Tapi kita kena tahu gak.
Boleh try usha googling... contoh aku promote blog nih.
Sejarah Al Fatihah.
Slow-slow baca.
Try google tempat lain or in english also untuk siapa yang curious macam aku.
Lagi banyak kita tahu, lagi more point.

Now, moh kita go pada main part...
Al -Fatihah.
Ini adalah bagaimana aku kaji Quran.
Aku tak tahu apa hukum conteng Quran itu salah atau tidak.
Tapi aku tahu Allah faham, apa aku buat.
Mengkaji setitik daripada kebesaran-Nya.

This is pieces of my Quran.
Nak taip every ayat, nampak macam post biasa yang boleh didapati daripada page lain.
Dan aku tak akan buat itu.
Not me, sorry.

Apa yang aku harap.
Korang ambil Quran, tenung every ayat.
Dan tutup mata.
Dan baca perlahan-lahan, dan fahami every perkataan yang korang sebut.
Dari situ baru kita dapat tahu sejauh mana dekatnya kau dengan Allah.

Kerana bagi aku Al-Fatihah merangkumi semua kehidupan.
Daripada kita yakin Allah, kita agungkan Dia daripada kita lahir sampai kita tahu sebut Alhamdulillah.
Dan itu fitrah kita di dunia.
Daripada dunia kita minta daripada Allah, kurniakan kesejahteraan live after.
Akhirat.
Dan takdir menjalani Siratul Mustakim.
Semua kerana Allah.
Kita hamba yang lemah.

Menangis kadang kadang sebab bila aku baca... aku faham.
Sebab aku dah kaji.
Menarik sebenarnya bila kita kaji ia,
Kerana setiap perkataan ada maksudnya tersendiri, tersurat dan tersirat.
Hanya mereka yang faham apa yang aku rasa,
Akan faham kenapa aku buat ini.

Fatihah bukan hanya ayat pembuka Quran, tapi ianya ayat pengenalan kita dengan Allah.
Marilah kita kaji selagi boleh.,
Bukan untuk orang lain tapi untuk diri sendiri.
Rasai pengalaman itu!

Selagi kita muda, dekatkan diri dengan Allah.
Kerana hidup ini singkat,
Mati pun anytime.

P/S:
Ilmu Allah itu luas!
Kita hanya mencedok sedikit demi sedikit, jangan malu untuk belajar.
Itu saja aku nak cakap.
= )

Sunday, July 31, 2016

Terlibat dalam masalah.

Assalamualaikum.

Minggu lepas, selepas balik daripada Johor.
I'm involved in troublesome.
Yang aku sendiri tidak faham kenapa ianya menjadi suatu disebut masalah.
Di antara rakan sekerja.
Pelik.
Sangat pelik.
Memang pelik.

That's why i don't like any attention.
Sorry to say this.
But... memang betul.
Sebab manusia itu pelik.
Mereka mengganggap semua benda itu adalah masalah.
Yang bagi aku, if you don't want a problem.
Jangan carik masalah.
Let it be that way.

Especially, don't involve me,
Don't drag me along.
Please.
If you see this as a big problem in future, don't sesekali ciptakan ia.
Simple.

This troublesome actually i don't seen that as a problem.
But became a problem to others.
Duh.
Why so complicated!


After this so say problem,
I think it's not my fault.
But, after a while...

Baru aku faham..
Setiap manusia ada cara kehidupannya,
Dan tahap pemikiran yang berbeza.
Itu adalah batasan yang kita semua hadapi.
Maybe this limit things is a sending sign from Allah for us to remembering each others.
Masyaallah,
I realize sekejap that aku may melepasi sedikit batasan itu... dan Allah actually created this problem for me.
Please forgive me Allah.

Terlepas pandang.
Thank you Allah.

What limit that i recall back are...
Allah reminds me of the limit between a men and a women.
The way back of bad and good in mingle around.
Beware of who you trust more when you need time alone.
Friends between married and single men.
Feeling may consider involved.
Take note opinion of others, if that benefit more.

I already minta maaf to all of them.
I hope they forgive me in and out.
Because again this dhunya, society and some friends telah melalaikan aku.
Masyaallah.
I want my old life back.
I have to against any attention.
I hope they understand why i manjauhkan diri.

Only because I want back to my Creator.
They may said, that are they bad enough?
Aku tak kata begitu... just keep the distance. And mencegah lagi baik daripada may this repeat again.
Because i'm too naive too say no.
Please...

I love my friends, So much.
But I love Allah more.
Sorry.
 = )

Even i looks sangat ganas, and not so called ayu to all my friends or colleague department.
Aku masih not memilih kawan...
But believe me, any person who reminds me to fear to Allah is my true companion.
Still haunting one!

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

We missed him

Assalamualaikum,

Previously blogging, i wrote that how illness my brother in law are.
On 20th July, after Maghrib time.
We lost him forever.
Inalilla-hi wainailaihi rojiun...
And Al-fatihah to arwah.

First person who called me about the news are my younger sister, Cik Jima.
She cried non stop at that time.
Unpredictable,
I'm not crying, duh.
I already redha actually that evening, when my sister said that her husband oxygen level are at 66%.

But when she told me how worried she are towards the kids.
Cik Ziqa, Hafiz and bambam Anas.
My little tears start to fall.
I quickly pujuk dia how we as a family, always to stay stronger and give more than ever the best support we can.
That's only thing we can do.
And after that, i need my space.

I cannot direct back to Johor that night, because tomorrow i'm oncall.
And i have training programmed in the morning.
Job duty calling....
I can ditch the morning part but it's not fair to involved someone else to cover my oncall.
So, better i do what i can and ASAP cabut from work the next day.

Works... luckily not so busy that night.
And even cleaning trolley pun crying.
Nak makan buka puasa pun tak lalu even ada orang sponsor makan.
But have to stay strong in front of others.
I don;t want them questioning me.

And ,Alhamdulillah my leader understood my condition.
She arranged me to back awal.
I want to go back early because that night, my family arranged Tahlil and Yasin for arwah and included Marhaban.
I took a bus on the spot and arrived around 05:00 pm,
Because of delay one hour actually, Urgh!

Along the driveway home, my heart pumping likes crazy because i have to face the kids in different motive.
And my sister too.

The first person who hug me is Cik Ziqa.
How she told me, that she missed me,
And when i'm alone with her... She said that her father are passed away.
With emotionless.
I reply, is she Ok?
She said, she Ok, but she missed him too sometimes.
And i said, if you missed him, sedekahkan Al fatihah. And remember that I always will be there for her. Not only me, but her atok, nenek and all of us.

I donno, how careless my sister are,
Because imagine how six-years old kids can show you her skills membaca by sijil kematian her own father.
Too sad.

That night, after Isyak, the event started.
Cik Ziqa came to me and said, are this event for her father?
And i said, yes.
I invited her to baca Yasin with me.
She said, she don't know how to read a Yasin.
And i pangku dia di ribaan, and told her to follow me.
She agree with no complaints.
She with me until she felt slept.

I not helping much on that night because i'm also so tired.
Only helping a bit.
The next day, Cik Tira and me bring Cik Ziqa and Hafiz jalan-jalan to the beach!
Because that the only place where arwah (her father) and ours spending most if we want to escape from time.
And they really enjoy this.
Alhamdulillah.

I still remembered one time that he said, he likes to read my blog because a lots of Cik Ziqa stories in here.
And now, i missed one good stalker.
Al-Fatihah.

We always missed you.
= )

I may said to others that i'm OK. Because  a lie is better  than get their attention.
Kita tak tahu how our life tomorrow nor future,
Insyaallah, when i lost him. It's actually ada good hikmah between this.
To bring me back closer to the Creator.