A Letter to My Thirty-Five-Year-Old Self

Dear me,

Assalamualaikum. I’ve always been found the idea of writing a letter to myself in future quite risky, because I'm afraid that you're not the one whom I aim to be. That's why I don't want to ask a question, is that I'm happy right now... In other reason, I still love you and believe that you have become more successful than expected. You shake the world and so proud of what have you gone through for this five years (2021-2025). See how far you've become, and look at those smile. You made it girl!

I'm sure you already retired from nursing and persuasively go for your freedom of time. I understand all the reactions, the fears of fall, the judgement from every angle but you made it to the end. Now, you're comfortable with what you do and doing much better. Peoples will always want everyone to be the an average, but girl you're diamond in fake society. You're precious, stay high. Then hey, now look who's on the top? It's me-it's you! Well done, dear.

How our families going on? How's mum and dad? Please give them my biggest hugs and kisses. They're getting older day by day and I'm sure you well cares about them too. InsyaAllah. Then, how about other sibling? I wish they living for good and keep in touch with all the rest. Arguments always be there, but just stay in good side will you. Please help them when needed because we're still bonded by blood and religion. ''Stay together, we're stronger''.

How about our friends? Are you still with old childhood friends, Shuhada and Liha? They must with own family too. I love them too. They're what friendship means to be, good supporter and advices. Oh, your circles must be quite big with several influences people. Did you remember that you hate human at 20's because they just so noisy? Hihi, now you just get going well. Good. Stay humble and be yourself with good intention because that are what they looking for. 

Lets see, you also looking great. What kind of dress material are you wearing right now? I know you changes your fashion style pretty often but you still beautiful, though. Just keeping up with those black and neutral color, its valid in any era. One question, did you wore any high heels? Because I will say you nailed it. Or you still maintains the varieties flat shoes slot in the closet, u-huh. Anyhow, just go which whatever you comfortable with. Okay.

So, are married? Did you have your three or four dream kids? How old are they? Look, I'm so excited for you. Oh my, I'm sure they are super cute. Then your partner also will cherish and support every moments between you two. Make him cooked for you a delicious meals once in a while, or you just weds a chef! Tell me, tell me, this one kind of guy and your love line part. And, let me take a look again at your wedding photos. Yeah, my pray always be by your side and little family next journey.

Actually right now I'm typing from Mecca land, it's my first time working aboard but I did it. I go for what I wants and tell me, where in the world are you stay right now? How about your house decoration, still go for minimalist techno style? Also, do you have the small garden that full of herbs? Oh lovely.  You always aim that. I wonder how far the technology and space explore are doing. Alright, I will ended it here and I want to say that I'm really-really happy for you. And again, I love you.

— From YOU! And happy birthday!

My Booklist: April 2021

Hello,

As you all knew me, April month is a leisure time for me because I didn't work. My schedule only full with taking cate of my sister kids, taking them to and from school. Also accompanied they at playground and tucked them to bed, that's all. From that, I really enjoy focusing on my reading time and keeping up with any inspirational YouTube video. So, here is my final booklist that I successfully summaries in my green book. Quite a shocking phenomenon because its a lot and I'm so happy about it.

1. 23 things they don't tell you about capitalism, Ha Joon

2. How rich people think, Steve Siebold

3. Why we want you to be rich, Donald Trump & Robert Kiyosaki

4. Start with why, Simon Sinek

5. The intelligence investor, Benjamin Grahm

6. The power of now, Eckhart Tulle

7. Letting go, David Hawkins

8. Power vs force, David Hawkins

9. The 4 h workweek, Tim Ferris

10. #maxout your life, Ed Mylett

11. Attitude is everything, Jeff Keller

12. Extreme productivity, Roberr Pozen

13. Other people money, John Kay

14. The snowball, Alice Schroeder

15. Life without limits, Nick Vujicic

16. Mind hacking, John Hargrave

17. The art of learning, Josh Waltzkin

18. The energy of money, Maria Nemeth

19. The psychology of money, Morgan Housel

20. Your next 5 moves, Patrick bet David 

21. The 10x rule, Grant Cordone

22.12 rules for life, Jordan Peterson

23. Beyond order, Jordan Peterson 

24. Long walk to freedom, Nelson Mandela. 

25. 15 secrets successful people about time, Kevin K

26. Yes to life, Victor Frankl

27. The wealth of nations, Adam Smith

28. Millionaires success habits, Dean Graziosi

29. Ego is the enemy, Ryan Holiday

30. The subtle art of not give a fuck, Mark Manson

31. The talent code, Daniel Coyle

32. Sleep smarter, Shawn Stevenson

33. Make your bed, William Mcraven

Alright, I'm ready for my May book summaries session guys. Maybe I will decrease it to minimum 15 books because it close to end of Ramadhan, adjusting to new work environment and Eid day coming soon. So, see you in the next post! 

My experience about braces, part 2

Hai,

(con't from previous post)

Okay, let me tell the story about the allergic things. I get the allergies twice, first story when the doctor decide that I need to put on screw to pull my teeth upward at one sided. So, I got the Denkan local anesthesia and then one screw applied. Go back home and nighttime is so painful, I took a painkiller and slept early.  The next morning, my gum start to swell and really red. I tried to took another painkiller, and the evening time my screw site start to show a pus. I know, it's infection or allergic dancing around. Then I called the clinic for appointment and when I got there, the doctor assess and straight away removed it. 

Second incident after six to seven months from that, the doctor want to try another screw to pull my teeth. He then put a local anesthesia and applied one screw. As usual after go back home, took painkiller and straight to bed. Next morning looks okay, no gum swelling or redness. I then think that I'm fine, but the coming next day... my screw site start to loose and really pain. I called for the clinic and when I got there, the doctor straight away took it out. Luckily I'm not sleep with loose screw in my mouth or I will choke or aspirated with that things! Nah, the doctor then just keep away those screw from me until I finish my braces. Wait, one screw cost me nearly Rm 350 each okay. I need it to frame in my living room, doc!

Me, when I applied the braces? I started braces around August 2018, at that time I just started a class a month before. So after I finished class,  I will go to the appointed around 4 or 5 pm every month. But when I started work, I apply for half day and go there around 3 or 4 pm per slot. Whatever busy I am, if you want to settle faster and on track, keep well the every month appointment. Also, why do you think many dentist want you to avoid hard foods? This is because they don't want your teeth to move so much in this process. This really contribute for delayed the progress.

When I off my braces? I took out my braces around mid of January 2021, two weeks before my resignation. So, my braces period took me 30 months, equal to two years and five months. After that I depend on my retainer, my free white retainer. How the doctor do my retainer? After the doctor took out my metal braces, he clear all the plaque and put a mold to shape my current teeth. Then after two days, you can collect it. If you retainer took longer than a week, ask for your right. This is because your teeth still will be move even slowly. So in the past six month, applied retainer every time except when you eat. Then, at least two years every night. 

Here, my current teeth for you to analyze. Can you see that? That one guy really change my whole facial expression. But now, I'm okay. Praise to the Creator. I become more confident, and much smile without a reason. Hahaha... keep up love with my retainer too. So for those who want to do the braces, please make up your mind. The reason for braces, the payment ready, the suffer in bland diet, the time to rush in appointment and etc. For me to you, good luck and well-done. Bye!