Get up and fight back

Assalamualaikum.

Everyone make a mistake.
Big or small in their life.
I know how they felt. 
To us yang the other side, hard actually nak memaafkan. Susah gila.
Sebab sometimes giving someone a second chance is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun to hurt you because they missed you the first time.

Yeah.
Insyaallah, i still at bright side and will always doa terbaik untuk dia and his problems. 

And personally, any stupid dcision yang he already done... Benda dah lepas.
Bab meroyan, menyesal guling-guling ke whatever still tak boleh rewind everything back.
This moment hanya tinggal is only you, and yourself.
Nak jadi better or jadi lagi teruk.
Decisions at his hand. Doalah banyak-banyak.

I can said everyday is a second chance. May not be a happy ending but yeah why not try to end things right. Kan. 

Get up and fight for your journey, please.
Try slowly but don't take to much time.
But, please kept fighting.
Messege me if you need someone to talk to, jangan memalu, i can selit between assingment and all those books.
I want to know how was your day. How bad you messed up with your life duh.
This is how friends supposed to be.

Jaga diri and ksihatan.
And we'll try to confront with your family later.
Fix yourself first.
Btw hati seseorang bernama ibu and ayah itu tetap bersama susah senang anknya.
Trust me. 

And we always have Allah to put a hope on. Pray for yourself too.
Insyaallah everything will get better.

Lost weight

Assalamualaikum

Guess what.
Berat badan dah drop to 48 kg.
Tinggal tulang rasa dah.
Not good duh.
Because i try to maintain actually my weight.
Just nice around 52 or 53 kg.
Something area nih.
Nak mix and match dengan height. Normal BMI sort of.

But yeah as a student. Dengan assignment plus stress tak ada life.
Yang pakai braces some more. And not so enjoying your foods.
There, sebab tulah.
My friends ada gain weight.
Jell-O gila.

Now, bila pasal makanan. I more prefer porridges.
Nasi gak kan. And dalam tu put mushrooms, carrot, potatoes, garlic, halia, celery.
If sausage ada, masukkkk. Sumbat-sumbat. Meriahkan suasana.
And usually makan dalam three times a day.
Tu tak masuk lagi sweet potatoes rebus.
Pisang.
Roti cicah milo for breakfast.
Rasa ok.
Tak cukup eh.

Malas nak makan nasi ketul-ketul sebab lambat nak kunyah.
Kalau geram sangat, masuk mulut terus telan.
Rasa tercekik jela.
Hahhha...
Tapi ok jer, not bad.
Kesian my perut kena work harder.
Bertabahlah.

As usual untuk malam, memang not fan of any foods.
More minum air bebanyak.
Makan before pukul tujuh. The best time...
Dulu jer time oncall. Rasa keluar makan malam tuh activity wajib.
Lepak mamak.
Miss tho moments.

Anyway, banyak nak kena aim.
Nampaknya kena masukkan gain weight part in the list.
Haiyo.
Chayokkk!

Marah

Assalamualaikum.

Apa yang diceritakan di sini adalah atas kisah benar yang berlaku beberapa hari lepas.
Di negara yang bernama, Malaysia.
Masa tuh baru lepas siap kelas and buat semua hal bank.
Sempat gak baca buku kat MPH.
Ala, apa lagi... area kat KL Central. Dalam tu kan ada NU Sentral.

And, time tu nak balik lah.
So naik rapid LRT, area ke Putra Heights.
Time tengah nak tunggu, ada sorang chinese guy stand kat sebelah dengan tongkat dia.
Ok, buta rupanya.
So dalam tengah tengok video rakaman yang ada. Sempat gak jeling-jeling, takut lah dia terlebih line kuning.
Sebab opposite train baru sampai.
Risau duh.

Tak lama pastu, train pon sampai kat kitaorang.
Dan masa tengah nak turn untuk masuk.
I can said, umat yang lain-lain tak ada sorang pon yang help that guy.
Saja la walk slowly nak masuk train sebab nak tengok siapa yang akan tolong.
Nil.
Ok.

And dengan rasa marah, disappointed terus grab that guy bawak masuk train.
And ada pernah cakap, nak tolong depa more likely pegang kiri. But i not applied that at all.
Tak sempat.
Tak beralas pon jalan gak.
Nak buat camna, dia pakai short sleeve.

Pastu baru ada orang jerit-jerit cakap bagi laluan.
Like hello.
Patut tadi korang yang kena act first.
Whatever.

And dengan dalam train yang penuh,
I said sorry, train penuh dan pegang tangan dia untuk grab pemegang tiang seri tengah LRT tuh.
And biasalah, no one even cares untuk bagi seat.
Rasa macam nak jerit jer dalam train tuh.
No human sense ek orang zaman sekarang.
Duh.

But, i can't stay longer.
I said sorry again and i left.
I hope dia selamat sampai ke destinasi yang dibtuju. Hendaknya.
Tengah taip pon still rasa geram.
Marah. Even tahu sifat marah adalah musuh utama akal. (Saidina Ali).
Tapi kecewa sangat.
Macam mana kalau one day, thats happen kat diri sendiri.

Siapa yang akan tolong?
Ada ke yang sudi tolong?