ME: I'm secretive

Assalamualaikum.

I think i'm too secretive, mysterious by myself. I truly admit it with no pressure.
If you all realized, when someone asked the question that I'm not comfortable with it. I will quickly change the subject. Or if to hard, i not mind to answer it either.
Sorry.
Sometimes, I preferred silent than spoke about what i felt.

Because my mind is different from what your mind thought. Yeah.
I'm the one always seen good thing in everything. Zero negativity of course.
Someday, i knew, it will happen.
Where I'm afraid too, that i will hurts someone feeling because of my words later on. Who knows, right.
That may we are not in same boat anymore.

With this, I more preferred all my social media are in a private account. And less friends.
No friends is better, duh.
Not a attention seeker absolutely.
The more I received friend request, the more it's make me in miserable.
Sorry again guys.
But i tried hard to approved it even it's late or some i may not make it.
Just, is like they tried to intruder my life. Or I somehow don't want they read what my thought is.
I felt insecure.

Few years back, I'm not like this. I am a friendly and hyperactive girl. More hippie and crazy from what I'm today.
I didn't mind taking pictures together either.
But something happened in my early teenagers life. That change everything.
Everything.

Bad.

Changes my mindset to see what others think of me.
Then I became passive, don't like any attention and mostly not fans of picture things anymore.

Not even my parents, my siblings or my friends catch what really happened. No one knew. Why i change drastically.
Because i still kept giving them the smiley face.
Like it's not a big deal.
And obviously, i will not talked about this in here too. May time will tell.
When the right moment are. When I found my trustworthy, and my self-esteem are higher than the sky.
Even I treated this blog as my private diaries. But stalkers are everywhere. Do you?

My name is Adibah.

One day after open house on Eid session. Someone asked me, why so hard to invite me to took a picture together.
Or maybe a picture of me and him. At least duh.
And he sent random picture of me with full mouth of pineapple tart. Me walking with phones in my hand.
And some others not so cute pose.

Why and why?
He still want me to feedback.
I just said, why selfie too much? Didn't one picture doesn't good enough?
I'm ugly by the way.
But I'm not giving that reason. Not want to be fired back. But. As always, i change the subject.

Some people have their own reason. Their own secret.
How hard you tried for them to reveal it, that's a time you need to fed up and just giving them a space and respect.
Two things only.
They will appreciate it much.
Believe me.

If you the selected as the trustworthy one, keep on supporting.
They will appreciate it much too

ISLAMIC: Big project for Akhirah Investment

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah.

Allahuakhbar.

Allahuakhbar.

Allahuakhbar.

Last Friday, I updated my financial account, and turned up that my Umrah budget is doing great. And it's so great! So excited. Thank you Allah. For the time being I have only four seat on list-as I want to do sponsorship things. Alhamdulillah, Allah helps me the most in everything and I want to considered until five seats. Then, I prayed to Allah to guide me to the best. I only plans, Allah do the last results. 

In my mind, my parents is the first choice and I will drag along my younger brother, perhaps. He will be supportive for my father sake. My father not strong enough, so I need a man arm to do so. Meantime they always be together, I wish they can fix the son-father relationship. InsyaAllah. And me and my mother will holding hand no matter what. 

For this big project, I already explained to them tremendously. I don't want they worry much about me. I want they take a laid back and just ready their mind and body for this life changer. Take out a big amount of money from my account is more valuable is I spend it towards this Akhirah investment. I still somehow do have my emergency fund for dhunya-that covered me up for another 3-4 months. Happy?

If they still not uncomfortable about it, they can pay me back. It's up to them. As I always said, in my  wealthiness from Allah, there always Allah keep for others person. InsyaAllah He want to give but may be through me. Who knows! The money I took here is from my 'nazar', which I wish I want to do this once in my lifetime. Really want to do it. 

Since I'm a small kid, Alhamdullilah Allah give me more than I needed. And it make me a strict financial girl minded. When I know how valuable the money can do to people life, I don't play with it anymore. I maybe not from a rich family, but my parents taught me well about money management. That's why, what I want I will do and get it by myself. Alhamdullilah, Allah bless is always be with me. Again, thank you Allah. 

When I shared about my #bigproject2018 and ##adibahandmecca , some are shocked with it. They still dont believe me until now. And said I'm too weird because how can I do better in managing money. I'm look like a free spending person. And not like a stinky money with cheaper tag addiction. I can said, feed your mind with intelligence foods. And then you can see the result.

Also, they said why I want to go to Mecca at a very young age. It's 28 years old, and I don't think it's very young...Just suitable age. Am I enough enjoying life? Am I ready to do a big life changer? Yes. I super proactive person towards a good things and I don't want to regret later in my life. What is the meaning of sincerity if I go late with wheelchair and burden someone later. Nope. 

I really don't want to argue with low minded person, so I will smiled back and said...This is what I want. And thank you. You can search this topic about my trip under,

#bigproject2018

#adibahandmecca

#my2018plans

Thank you.

Sarawak:Sarawak Village Culture

Assalamualaikum.

Sambung balik pasal Sarawak things.
Kami pergi ke sini merempit, jangan tak caya.
Believe it or not.
Siap pilih jalan paling jauh lagi.
Berlagak.
Pastu, Naik skuter. Sejam gak la baru sampai.

Paling best, nampak pantai Damai. Nak singgah tapi nak cepat.
And nampak gak, Gunung Santubong. Real.
Kata orang nampak tak lekuk muka orang kat situ.
I saw it.
But Allah lebih tahu segalanya.
Kita ni kadang-kadang mitos terlebih.

One fine day, nak aim hiking sini. InsyaAllah.

And masa sampai sana, around 11:00 am.
Alhamdulillah.
Daftar masuk fees semua. Don't worry, they accept the card also.
Tak salah, RM 63.00
Dapat resit,
And you get Sarawak Village Culture passport too!

So, at first, we just relax after penat atas motor.
The show pon only took few minutes before start, So tak jadi masalah.
Show diorang ada two time. 11:30 am and 04:00 pm.
Rugi jika terlepas.
Kena gih second time. So, make sure you make it. OK.

At here, they showed us a welcoming song and variety of dance and clothes.
My friends dah teruja gila.
Siap usha mamat penari-penari Sarawak
Haish.

And half an hour duduk tengok show.
Makan sikit and after that, barulah jalan-jalan house to house.
Macam Hari Raya plak time tu.
Yelah my friend pakai jubah and i simple red blouse.
Nasib tak bawak lemang, ketupat bagai.
Hhehehhe...
If diorang boleh introduced to us their culture, we also can lah kan.

Ni idea gila boleh tried masa next time visit yer.
InsyaAllah.
Ada rezeki lebih.

I can said, just enjoy yourself.
Take part in their traditional permainan. And support diorang punya makanan gak.
Try jela. Tak mahal mana pon.
Paling teruk, sakit perut jer.
Tapi Alhamdulillah.
We all fine.

And baju yang my friend pakai tu, Sekali pakai, Rm 10 hinggit charge.
Nak pakai berapa lama pon diorang tak kisah.
I can't wore that. Takut cantik sangat, kalah Miss Sarawak nanti.

Mingle around sebab orang sini semua friendly belaka.
And jalan-jalan gak, sambil tu... gilah cop passport jangan lupa.

My tips untuk Sarawak Village Culture.
Bring your own mineral water. Sebab nak keep hydrated.
And snack or raisin macam kami beli.
Or even chocki-chocki perisa coklat.
The best, jangan buang sampah merata ok.
Care the nature!

Kasut kalau boleh, gi beli yang selesa nak berjalan.
And baju too.
Kalu tak kesah nak berjbah like my friend. Lagi bagus.

Anyway, if you all like art.
Kesenian Sarawak is the best!
And amazing.

Muka orang tired!

And siap semua, bila nak balik. Nak on map. Battery da tinggal 7 %.
Hahahha. Gelak sambil rasa nak nangis time ni.
Tapi kami redah jer.
Bila batteries died. Tried usha any sign board.
And asked orang tepi-tepi jalan. The trusted one lah.

Sampai satu tahap, kami dah memang lost. Sign board pon tak ada. Tapi rasa dah betul sangat jalan. Siap kira bridge semua.

And kami pon berhenti satu tempat. Masuk kedai Pak amit, nama kedai tu Warung makan-makan.
Kami ordered makan. And asked permission untuk charge phone.
If diorang cakap sejam rm 50, i sanggup.
Sebab nak on maps.

Nasib budak lelaki tu baik. Bagi free. Moga Tuhan membalas jasamu.

And tengah tunggu phone hidup, ada dua orang couple dok belakang meja kami.
Buat muka manis, tanyalah.
Dia punya jawapan, macam kami ni dah masa lahir memang Sarawakian.
Siap bagi jalan pintas bagai.
Alah, adik lalu surau lama hujung jalan ni. Surau bla.bla.bla.
Kami buat muka pening. Mak cik nih boleh angkut dia sekali tak?

Just said thank you for both of them. On phone. Ada 20 %, bayar meals semua.
Hidupkan motor, jalan.

Alhamdulillah, selamat sampai hotel.
Rest, mandi. Malam keluar treasured untuk dinner pulak.
Hehheheh....