Home sweet home

I'm away for almost a week.
So, no post will be here until i'm back. Sorry.
My rules... if i'm at home. What i called truly home. No phone needed.
Because my life more interesting and awesome than all those internet!
Jeles dak. Hahahha...
Lots of things will happened. So why not I'm enjoy it. Kan.
Wait for my new update next week. Ok.
I will bring lots of pictures and stories.
I promise.
= )

Don't touch me

Assalamualaikum,

Mood, i hate everything.

I really can't understand why man likes to touch everything they see.

Officially, on certain women body part.

Not say something like sexual harassment, but more too... something likes...

I felt insecure.

and i  don't like it. Okeh.

Can you understood?

Can you get what i think?

This kind of man, 

I just want to punch them before i shout out both in his ears... 

Go away from my life, you freaking weird hobbits.

Please, respect us.

Like you respect your own partner, your wife, your sister, your mother.

Treat us well.

Joking around i'm ok, but beware of your own hands. 

No touching dudes.

And my focused not only them, but to other women also.
Some women like me, they don't like it and afraid with all this.

Some don't really care.

They like it, i think.

This kind of women,

If you think they don't mind, i mind about it behalf of them.

So go away gain you, hobbits.

Syuhh...

If you still makes a same habits.

Seriously, i will kill you.
I will kill you and cut your body into small pieces,
And throw it for sharks to eat it.

Try me...

For me, any intention... i'm the only one can touch you, but you never ever can touch me.
That's my rules and regulations.
Hehhehe...

Obey or not. You must follow that.
Take it or leave it.
Respect each others.
= )

This is for us

Assalamualaikum.
When i found the picture above in some FB wall. I terus remember my own emak.
And i missed her so much.
And i want to say i love her.
And i want to say, millions thank you.

Picture ini bukan hanya merujuk untuk emakku.
Tapi for emak-emak yang lain juga.
Untuk bakal bergelar tittle ini.
Dan mereka yang pastinya suatu hari nanti bergelar, emak.
This is for you.
This is for us.

I'm not yet pregnant even married.

But i know how tired and stress being a mum.

So, when i looks at this.

I faham this will this may touch your feeling and reach your heart without a word.

For me to write what i feel about this, I can said, one fine day,

I will write again about mother part when i'm in your shoes.

Insyaallah.

With Allah plan.

I know is not sesuatu yang mudah to hold a mother title.

It's take a huge responsibilities and lots of promises.

Because you raise a human not an object.

You're truly a hero to me, to your husband especially.

Remember this.

I know those will makes your hormone changes. Bear with all morning sickness.

And also very berat month by months. 

How your wight gaining uncontrollable.

But after nine months, your mini cute faces.

Will fades it away.

Trust me.

Not gonna write a long story because i want to layan my perasaan how i missed my emak.

Can't wait to see her in two days!

= )

Bubur dan sup ayam

Assalamualaikum.

A week on a soft diet not killing me duh.
Lagi rasa excited adalah sebab bubur and sup are my fav foods ever.
I can ate sup likes every year.
Sebab i like it so much.

If korang perasan, when makan luar.
I choose bihun sup mostly.
If really hungry, baru i choose rice.
But mostly sup.

Sup is the most easiest foods yang you can cooked.
Potong-potong. Campak-campak,
Boil kan dia sekejap.
And you're done.
Sedia untuk dihidang. Dan boleh dimakan.
Same goes to your bubur.

Even i on soft diet, kadang-kadang adalah mengelat sikit, makan jugak makanan lain.
Tapi in small quantities.
Tapi kena bear dengan side effect la.
Walaupun on meds.
Hahhahhha...
Padan muka.

Pray when i'm going back in few days, dah tak perlu on soft diet sebab dah cukup-cukup a week.
Please la kan.
Agar semuanya ok.
Aamin.

Nanti bleh melantak my emak punya foods.
Even i know, i sendirik yang akan kena be in the kitchen.
But, one dish from my emak. Special for me.
Tak salahkan.... Hehhehhe...

Love you ma!
= )

Jumaat dan Jubah

Assalamualaikum.

Happy friday semua.

Memang setiap hari jumaat selalunya, I promised to myself untuk wore something yang alim.
Means untuk baju yang lebih dan lebih menutup auratnya.
Tujuannya adalah bagi menghormati hari tersebut. I practiced this since last year.
Disebabkan ini, kadang kala boleh jadik hari lain pon pakai gak.
Sebab rasa more comfortable.
Good.
= )

Biasanya i pick jubah. Tapi di sebabkan my jubah pon tak la banyak mana.
Ada yang dah bagi orang. Sebab lawa sangat...
Ada tu koyak sikit sebab streka steam panas beno. Huhuhuu...
Then sometimes, maybe baju kurung types boleh gak.
Ikut suka lah.

So cerita pasal jubah. Ada part yang geram nak share.
One day, hari jumaat. I'm in my black jubah.
That jubah is from my friend at Arab.
She bought it for me. Dah ada post pasal jubah tu kat blog ni dulu.
Kalau rajin, boleh revised.
Hahaha...

After go to news shop dapatkan bread untuk breakfast.
I go thumb id, terserempak pulak with my colleague.
So, i just said hai and naik tangga la ke our department.
Then dia follow me. 

Before my first step kat tangga. Boleh dia cakap one word yang rasa nak tumbuk jer.

"Ingatkan nenek mana tegur tadi."

Faster i step back, and toleh belakang. And i get him.
And sambil pinch dia, i said, "can you say it again?"
Even I may looks alim, but doesn't mean I can't kick you dude.

He just keep quite sambil sebelah kaki dah kat luar pintu kecemasan.

Sigh.

Then, i tried to calm myself and quickly naik tangga.
Sambil tu membebel.

Macam mana tak membebel, sebab he always be my mood spoiler.
Geram betul.
Apa agaknya praise a bit kena bayar cukai ke apa?
Non sense.

Even caption nih setuju with me. 

Berbalik pada jumaat dan jubah. I think i need collect more for this collection duh.
Yeah.
Nak beli online tu senang. But nak carik yang comfortable susah.
Sebab tu my jubah all limited.
Yang tak potong bawah dia, yang meleret, banyak.
Hahhahaa...tu satu hal lagi.

Bab baju meleret nih bukan jubah je, kebanyakan my dress and long skirt sort of.

Semua gaya nih.

Semua bnayak nak kena potong.

Tapi as long boleh cover part lipat melipat tuh.

I can bear it lagi.

Tapi bila jubah and dress tak potong, susah gila nak cover.

Anyway, happy jumaat again guys.

Best ke jadi perempuan?

Assalamualaikum.

If you ask me a question, best ke jadi perempuan?
Secara kasarnya, i prefer jadik lelaki.
Or setidaknya at least i have a son in future. Aamin.

Kerana jadi lelaki itu sifatnya kuat. Kepimpinan.
Nabi Muhammad itu lelaki.
Para Nabian juga daripada golongan lelaki.
Mereka penuh tanggungjawab in the same time looks freely. And calm.

Lelaki itu boleh menunaikan haji dan umrah tanpa mahram.
Mereka juga dirai ke masjid tanpa banyak dalil menghalang.
Hak mereka juga lebih dipelihara walau banyak disalah guna kuasa.

Lelaki punyai sembilan akal dan satu nafsu.
Jika ianya digunakan sebaiknya, dia terlihat sangat sempurna.

Aurat juga pusat hingga lutut. Lagi best.
Pastu bab nak style mix and match... seluar dengan shirt jer.
Keterampilan pulak, to me, cut rambut bagi smart. Pakaian kemas. Tambah satu cap. Tip top. 

Nak travel lagi senang, tak payah pack telekung bagai.
Make up pon tak payah. Yer ke?

Then, bab memasak. Pandai masak, bonus sepuluh point nak ngurat mak mertua.

Tapi pelik, kenapa ada lagi segelintir yang mahu jadik perempuan?

Lagi-lagi bab gay semua.

MasyaAllah.

But, berdasarkan apa yang tertulis kat atas. Secara indeed, I prefer me as a perempuan.
What me is me.
Cool in her way.

Even tak mampu menjadi pemimpin, boleh menjadi pembantu pemimpin.
Pun tak pe.
Lagi best, part jadik role model for anak sendiri one day.
The real president is born.
Hahhahah...

I still have my parents untuk ajak gi umrah or haji.
While i know my prince charming is still stuck at level 50 of his own mind.
Dengan ini, boleh berbakti lebih pada orang tua sendirik, are the awesome feeling.
Hak anak pada keluarganya.
We're cool this way.

Even jugak perempuan hanya ada satu akal dan sembilan nafsu.
I think my nafsu all are still under controlled.
Trust me.

Mengenai aurat pulak, the more expose, lagi more rasa tak confident dengan diri sendrik.
Yelah, sedar. Bukan perfect mana pon.
Nampak tulang belulang adalah lagi.
Hahahahha...
Kang orang ingat mumia mana tengah jalan tuh. Better cover, and pakai baju longgar-longgar.
Selesa!

Mix and match memang my fav. So, tak jadik masalah. Jimat sangat.
And i'm also not on any make up regularly.
We're the same guys.
No worries.

Telekung memang kena pack. If berat ke apa. Boleh share tolong bawak kan?
Tak sayang kita ke?
Sambil buat muka cute, big eyes blinking.

Hal masak-masak nih. Even tak pro mana. Boleh la hidup anak orang kalau nak bela.
Lagipon, apa guna food delivery zaman sekarang nih.
Guna lah alasan, sesekali cuba ubah selera.
Trick kena pandai cover lah.
And tak boleh guna selalu.
Oh-kay.

Paling great tentang perempuan adalah mereka ini golongan yang melahirkan anak.
Ini mungkin sebab kenapa golongan lelaki nak jadik perempuan.
Perhaps.
Nak rasa pregnant tu camna. Bawak baby nine months.
Melahirkan, yer ke?
Hahhahha...

I love be a perempuan. Best!
Appreciate yourself too, mates.

Makes us cool again

Assalamualakum.

Ini adalah my rancangan.
When i'm on my leave. Mid of Febuary.
Randomly a week.
Yang mana, I plans untuk do some charity project at my own place.
Includes sekali my own family members.

If here, at KL i only used behalf on my family.
But nanti. bila masanya tiba.
I want to use, here, me and my family.
Together kami pakat-pakat kutip pahala bersama.
Yeah!
Makes us cool again.

I have variety of plans... Sama ada untuk bagi community makan free or spending a day with them.
Or just freely mingle around with them.
I donno.
A week nampak lama. Tapi nak plan pon lama gak.
Hopefully everything going well.
I will update later after done.
Also all the pictures. Even though i don't like takes a pictures.
Tunggu ok.

And with all these, I want to do it with the kids.
Cik Ziqa, Apiz and Anas.
I want to see all their cute happy face again.
Wash all the sadness i heard.
Spent the great moments with them too.
Besides all the person i know at my place.

Spread the peace and love!
= )

Cause I'm no superman

Assalamualaikum.

In my 21st post, I wrote down how super tired i'm.

After that, I had night fever.

And days dizziness.
Plus on off nausea.

But i still work, because i think i strong enough.

But,
It's continued by diarrhea for three days.
Fuh.

Thank you January.
Such an awesome memories.

"And when I'm ill, it is (God) who cures me. Surah Ash-shu'aara ayat 26:80" 

On next day of CNY, I'm oncall.

My diarrhea still on.

So that morning... I go to A&E. Seen a doctor and took some blood test.

In waiting for blood results, I go back to my department and did a lap. case.

I tried to push myself, even have to sat doing cases. 

Sorry guys.

After finished, quickly walked down to A&E and discuss about my results.

The doc said have some viral, but he will treat me as AGE case.

He want to give me MC... i said I'm oncall. No one will cover me.

Only can huhahuha together
So, he said, anything bad, direct come to A&E.
I promise him.

Took my meds at pharmacy and when I come back to my department.

Assist for Caesar case.

After that barulah i can ate a plain bread, and telan my meds.

And also little nap.

Because bit dizziness.

Pray today I'm more better.
But still on meds.
Need to be careful with what i took. No oil, milk and any such bon appetite foods.
Sacrificing.
Drunk lots of water...
Not over work, luckily tomorrow off.
Can i get enough rest.

Thanks who cares and understand me.
Sepanjang most of my on off illness.

Put candy in time needed for keep the dizziness away.
Make me super bitter tea. Even i felt nausea when i took it.
And, those who pray for me.
Thanks again.
Touching.

And sorry if makes you all felt i something yang menyusahkan.

Because some my friends said, why I helping others when i can't help myself?
I cover someone else work, double my job.
Susahkan diri.
I just can smile.
I know, maybe it's a wrong move to them.
But, I know why Allah choose me this way in this situation.
I only want to help, plan the best but,
He's the great planner.

It's nothing to me. Not a big problem. In his big world.
Not because how good i'm. It's just how good i want to be.
How good i want my mind to train and think in a positive ways.
Ok.

Anyway.

A week will in precaution as i can.
Hope everything run smoothly.
= )

It's hard to trust a man, doc.

Assalamualaikum.

Masih teringat lagi, masa tu my doctor tumpangkan naik kereta sama on the way after kerja.
Follow by another doctor.
And i'm sat at the back just be a good passenger.
Lots of topic we discuss.
About no makes sense of hospital charges, related to decrease of cases, and new technology in medical too.
Rasa matured ya amat bila cakap pasal itu semua.
Layan je la.

And one moment, they asked me about my personal part.
Jodoh things.
Time tu actually rasa macam nak bukak tingkap.
And terjun ke luar.
I don't care if we are still on the busy road.

"Why not you find your own abang, adibah?"

After few deep breaths, i replied.
It's hard to trust a man, doc.
Pretty hard.

And they both nods and silence for few minutes.

Not said i traumatized dengan semua lelaki.
I grew with three weird brothers and a good father.
My relationship with them are good.
Because i trust mereka in my life.
Siblings goal.

But now, if you dare me to put a trust, a perfect trust to a man yang akan pegang title my husband.
It's a pretty high risk.
Tak kiralah dia kelak included as my annoying friends list or new strangers.
Trust is impossibly be easy.
Am i right?

But my doc said, why not i open my heart and give myself an opportunities.
Kenal hati budi among them, and choose the best.
I not replied back.

Because my doc don't understand me.
Like i said before, It's hard to trust a man.
If you said about peluang.
I can give all the man a thousand even billions of peluang to makes my life better and happy.
But at the end, when we wants to take a next steps.
I will questioning myself, can i put a trust to him likes i trust my four favorite person in this world?
Which i donno i even can trust myself too in this things
It's not gonna be easy as 1, 2, 3 duh.

Then i know.
The real solution to my problem is to find a man i can trust on.
That's it.
Trust i give for routinely small matter or in my big decision.

That i want when he received it, he appreciate it.
Likes a pure innocent magically touch in everything.
Because i don't forever live in fairy tale land.
I want us to be real.
Ceeewah.
Gitu.

And about balasan balik, i don't really need his own trust for me.
Just my trust for him is a good enough.
It's just my psycho dynamic things.
Really!
If dia nak fair square with me in this situation. It's great!
Two is better than one.
Hehhehhe....

Alright, see you in the next trust?
= )

Lelaki bertatu

Assalamualaikum,

Don't worry guys.
My choice is not this guy. The tattoo things.
Mau kena kejar dengan parang kang by my ayah if pilihannya dia.
How come my daughter in law is so brutal!
Hahaha, can't imagine.
Pengsan.

Dia adalah chef. Our first met masa kami buat charity project.
Time tu, memang tak perasan ada makanan free by some group yang join situ.
Sebab syiok sangat ajar budak-budak nih membaca. Plus, semangat diorang nak belajar and terus belajar.
Khusyuk gila ar. Lagi triple excitement nak ajar mereka.

So, when a lunch time tiba... budak-budak nih ajak makan sama.
I actually sangat lapar but still can boleh tahan.
Even my breakfast only biscuit.
Sebab nanti balik rumah ingat akan singgah kedai ke apa.
Rezeki diorang, malas nak cuit sama.

Then, my partner ajak makan sama.
And she took it behalf on me. So makan jela. 

Nasi lemak full package with a fried chicken.
Sedap.

And time tengah makan sambil layan budak-budak ni.
Rasa macam lain jer, and when I follow my instinct.
Rupanya someone took my picture!
Got you bro.
Main kasar nampak.
And faster, dia turn around and take pictures budak lain. Like whatttt....

After few kegagalan yang seterusnya, sebab bila dia macam nak take picture, I give a death glare.
Dia pon fed up.
Hahhaha... good boy.

Then when i clean up some plate, dia pon tolong kemas apa yang patut juga.
And we bump to each other.

Ingat cute?

Tak menjadikan suasana lebih awkward, I kept my cool face.
Tanya soalan simple.
And then, time nilah I realize he got a big black tattoo at his neck area. Some dragon art I think.
Tak berani nak telek lama sangat.
Kang nanti show no respect.

Even sebenarnya respect tuh dah melayang-layang bawak angin.

Rasa mau bagi ceramah jer adalah.

Boleh tak agak-agaknya.

Next, i said thanks and continued my mengajar part. Sebab budak-budak nih lagi bertambah terujanya.
Hello.. did those nasi lemak have lots of sugar added?
Layan je la.

When tengah mendengar diorang membaca, my eyes captured him tengah berkemas.
Masa tu, i just replied with my straight smile.
Ikhlas.
Siapa kata tak ikhlas.

I hope i won't meet him again. Better.
Just missed his very delicious nasi lemak, but i'm ok.

Cer la jodoh tu, Allah bagi lelaki yang jenis lembut sikit. Tak ada tattoo semua of course.
Baru sedap mata memandang.

And bertambah senang nak buli.
Ups!
And if gini, dia nak snap picture dalam diam or ajak selfie sama ke. Count me in.
Semua cute mimic faces i can given FOC.
Hahahaha...

Birthday mereka yang gila

Assalamualaikum.

Yesterday, before balik... my department planned untuk celebrates birthday tiga orang sekaligus.
Paket kecil tepung semua dah ready in hand masing-masing.
I not take it and brave enough to do it to another person.
Because I don't want them to do it to me. 

Beranilah.
I will kill each of you.
And campak kat tengah laut.

So, after few attempts gagal nak kenakan mereka.
My senior terpaksa guna ayat, urgent meeting before Chinese new year?
Oh-kay.

Bolehlah.

After few words, the birthday boys being surprised with a small slice of cake. And we sang a song together.
Nampak baik kan.
But the real "baik" is when the tepung party started.
I ran first!
My shirt and my tudung are so precious guys.

Sorry.

The best part is when the boys are so cool. Sempat ambil picture sama with all those tepung di muka.
Those a.k.a foundations make you all bertambah handsome bro.
Hahhaha...
And tak ada yang ambil hati with it.

But what i said next is not... what i like.
Rasa nak bunuh mereka semua.
There are attacking me!
I admit I'm the one yang panggil mereka for that faked meeting.
Tapi I'm not included in member team yang tabur tepung guys.
Setitik pon tak.
But why must me?

Why?

I tried to run fast and screaming likes kena kejar dengan tiga orang perogol bersiri.
Scary gila perasaan tu.
And until sampai kena roll on the floor lah untuk shield my face with my hand.
Not fair duh.
My blue black color tudung habis kena tepung. Bruhhhh...
Hate it.

If I knew they will attacked me, i joined the tabur tepung team.
Or kept those full of tepung pack in my pocket for acara balas membalas time you all attacks tuh.
Biar get the war begins.
Tengok siapa lagi teruk kena salut tepung.
Pastu siapa kalah, pecahkan telur sebijik atas kepala and someone please took a picture and posted in their own Facebook.
La.la.la.la...

Anyway, happy birthday to tiga orang tuh.
Most closed male staff adalah mereka tu, sorang baru beberapa hari jadik bapak budak, sorang baru beberapa hari angkat akad, lagi sorang tu baru beberapa hari ni rajin datang kerja awai.
Hahahaa... Birthday mereka yang gila.
Sebab tu sama-sama January duh.
Sesuai.

Quotes yang tak ada kena mengena. Tapi post jugak sebab tak tahu nak letak pictures apa.
Tak sanggup nak cemar duli my blog letak gambar mereka.
Bukan model pon gak, jauh sekali.

Obviously. They are like brothers to me.
We kutuk mengutuk, share makan-makan part, jokes around the corridor, and cover oncall pon sesama. Sebab sama level.
Even I'm the one yang selalu mengalah. 

Choi. Tak kisah pon. 

Understood situation orang berumah tangga nih. Sweet-sweet geli. 

Whatever.
Yang penting nanti, when i get married, korang jadik my bridesmaids!
=)

Bye.

Salah percaturan

Assalamualaikum,

Masa tu, I'm oncall.
So, masa tengahri after visited my friend kat ward... and lunch.
And terus get ready to prepare all those set for the next day cases.
My colleague yang post call datang lepak sama.
And dia bagitau how busy they are malam tu. Until 2:00 am baru tidur.

Then, we make a deal.
Tengok siapa paling busy....
Confident gila ah. Cakap yang kami tak akan ada kes langsung.
Keep cool kata orang tuh.

That day, we only have small eyes case. Itu pon petang.
So 'till night memang free.

After dinner, mandi and pukul 10:00 malam...semua dah tarik selimut.

Tengah sedap tidur, we got a call at 12:00 am, a neurosurgeon nak buat case.
Emergency! Craniotomy. Hematoma.
Like what....

Saka siapakah ini?

And the case finished at 4:00 am.
Siap-siap semua pukul 5:00 baru tidur balik.
Part paling best... 06:00 am, you have to wake up because 07:30 we all have a cesarean case.
Huhuhuu.

My body cannot take it. I need my blanket again.

Besoknya, my colleague yang buat deal meet me.
How geram kat dia, until i chase him like crazy. I want to pukul him until puas.

How came dia punya mulut masin.
Kena gelak je la dengan dia.
Huh. Stress.

Tak mau sambung stress, gelak sama-sama la.

Stupido. Such a wrong bet duh.
Salah percaturan.

Anyway, tak marah or what, itu kan namanya life saving.
Ikhlas buat semua tu, rezeki Allah bagi kita tolong orang.
After this, me and him akan together oncall.
I hope we never make any bet to each other!

Tak nak bangun malam lagi dah.

Rela buat kes continuous sampai pagi daripada kena bangun tengah malam.

LOL.