Assalamualaikum. In my 21st post, I wrote down how super tired i'm. After that, I had night fever. And days dizziness. Plus on off nausea. But i still work, because i think i strong enough. But, It's continued by diarrhea for three days. Fuh. Thank you January. Such an awesome memories. "And when I'm ill, it is (God) who cures me. Surah Ash-shu'aara ayat 26:80"  On next day of CNY, I'm oncall. My diarrhea still on. So that morning... I go to A&E. Seen a doctor and took some blood test. In waiting for blood results, I go back to my department and did a lap. case. I tried to push myself, even have to sat doing cases.  Sorry guys. After finished, quickly walked down to A&E and discuss about my results. The doc said have some viral, but he will treat me as AGE case. He want to give me MC... i said I'm oncall. No one will cover me. Only can huhahuha together So, he said, anything bad, direct com...

Assalamualaikum. Masih teringat lagi, masa tu my doctor tumpangkan naik kereta sama on the way after kerja. Follow by another doctor. And i'm sat at the back just be a good passenger. Lots of topic we discuss. About no makes sense of hospital charges, related to decrease of cases, and new technology in medical too. Rasa matured ya amat bila cakap pasal itu semua. Layan je la. And one moment, they asked me about my personal part. Jodoh things. Time tu actually rasa macam nak bukak tingkap. And terjun ke luar. I don't care if we are still on the busy road. "Why not you find your own abang, adibah?" After few deep breaths, i replied. It's hard to trust a man, doc. Pretty hard. And they both nods and silence for few minutes. Not said i traumatized dengan semua lelaki. I grew with three weird brothers and a good father. My relationship with them are good. Because i trust mereka in my life. Siblings goal. But now, if you dare me to put...

Assalamualaikum, Don't worry guys. My choice is not this guy. The tattoo things. Mau kena kejar dengan parang kang by my ayah if pilihannya dia. How come my daughter in law is so brutal! Hahaha, can't imagine. Pengsan. Dia adalah chef. Our first met masa kami buat charity project. Time tu, memang tak perasan ada makanan free by some group yang join situ. Sebab syiok sangat ajar budak-budak nih membaca. Plus, semangat diorang nak belajar and terus belajar. Khusyuk gila ar. Lagi triple excitement nak ajar mereka. So, when a lunch time tiba... budak-budak nih ajak makan sama. I actually sangat lapar but still can boleh tahan. Even my breakfast only biscuit. Sebab nanti balik rumah ingat akan singgah kedai ke apa. Rezeki diorang, malas nak cuit sama. Then, my partner ajak makan sama. And she took it behalf on me. So makan jela.  Nasi lemak full package with a fried chicken. Sedap. And time tengah makan sambil layan budak-budak ni. Rasa ...

Assalamualaikum. Yesterday, before balik... my department planned untuk celebrates birthday tiga orang sekaligus. Paket kecil tepung semua dah ready in hand masing-masing. I not take it and brave enough to do it to another person. Because I don't want them to do it to me.  Beranilah. I will kill each of you. And campak kat tengah laut. So, after few attempts gagal nak kenakan mereka. My senior terpaksa guna ayat, urgent meeting before Chinese new year? Oh-kay. Bolehlah. After few words, the birthday boys being surprised with a small slice of cake. And we sang a song together. Nampak baik kan. But the real "baik" is when the tepung party started. I ran first! My shirt and my tudung are so precious guys. Sorry. The best part is when the boys are so cool. Sempat ambil picture sama with all those tepung di muka. Those a.k.a foundations make you all bertambah handsome bro. Hahhaha... And tak ada yang ambil hati with it. But what i said ...

Assalamualaikum, Masa tu, I'm oncall. So, masa tengahri after visited my friend kat ward... and lunch. And terus get ready to prepare all those set for the next day cases. My colleague yang post call datang lepak sama. And dia bagitau how busy they are malam tu. Until 2:00 am baru tidur. Then, we make a deal. Tengok siapa paling busy.... Confident gila ah. Cakap yang kami tak akan ada kes langsung. Keep cool kata orang tuh. That day, we only have small eyes case. Itu pon petang. So 'till night memang free. After dinner, mandi and pukul 10:00 malam...semua dah tarik selimut. Tengah sedap tidur, we got a call at 12:00 am, a neurosurgeon nak buat case. Emergency! Craniotomy. Hematoma. Like what.... Saka siapakah ini? And the case finished at 4:00 am. Siap-siap semua pukul 5:00 baru tidur balik. Part paling best... 06:00 am, you have to wake up because 07:30 we all have a cesarean case. Huhuhuu. My body cannot take it. I need my blanket again....

Assalamualaikum. This post typing under full of consciousness. 'Lil psychos. Or too much of assuming. Maybe twenty percent facts, duh. For real of what happened to my body right now... So scared. Am I sick? Am I really sick? Or I just over reacting. Hope so. Few days ago, I posted about how super tired I am. That i just wanna be in my bed all day long and do nothing. Not even to take a break and go to kitchen and get something to eat. Not so hungry duh. Not complaining. What my goals are I just wanna lie down and rest my mind. In between case also, I'm not in boost. Sometimes one case makes me acted like i'm doing 24 hour services. I don't excited like before. I think i need a vacation. Maybe. Another post, I also wrote about how easily i bruised. And it's continue 'till today. Sometimes when i woke up in the next morning and do my routine then I realize i have those blackish blue spot. Bit pain but it considerable....

Assalamualaikum. Beberapa hari lepas, I'm berperang with one of my colleagues. And 'till now, we're still tak bertegur. And i want to see how long it will lasted. Really want to see. And i will not up any white flag. Not until he said, a word sorry! If i bring up our case, I sure you all akan kata i'm at the right part. Because he denial his duty and responsibility. Which i heard itu bukanlah kali pertama dia pernah buat. Such a nice role model yang dia nak tunjuk. Even tough he's not admit apa yang dia buat, I'm still ok. Manusia. And when he tried blame others atas apa yang terjadi. Tarik kesalahan orang lain dalam kesalahan sendirik. I surrender.  I said, tak payah panjangkan cerita. I will found out everything in the system on behalf of him. Full stop. And as i'm the one in-charge. I want pass over about it in perfect figure. So i will settle down everything that night. Bersengkang mata tak apalah. Janji bal...