Journal every day?

Thats right, you read it correctly. It's me and my time to write a journal every day! I will and must do this little step to show how my achievement so far in this life. Jika dulu-dulu orang panggil 'tulis diari setiap hari untuk curhat rasa hati' ... Broken heart and so whatever. But in my scope, the real differences between them is I simply not focused in this feeling meeling, however I purely want to write about my progress life journey. Let me aim something and do what supposedly done. Kata melayunya, biar buat apa yang patut, biar puas dan juga tak menyesal di kemudian hari. Insyaallah.

Why so suddenly? Few months ago after finish my studies, I directly think what I want actually in my life? The real for my dhunya and akhirah... As I will turn three series next year, the destination should in clear view. But then, my answer is I donno. I can't tell the progress and further step. Urgh! Then, I'm asking myself again.. Then, i should waste every second or i valuable it? Grab it or just let it go? Dia ala-ala pilihan jalan selepas SPM gituu. Hard!

My words for today... If I realize how beautiful life is then I should enjoy everything. Then, will fixed my own wings to be strong for new adventures. Bukan paksaan tapi secara rela dan ikhlas, nanti biar tidak terasa bebannya. Betul tak? Fighting!

Some thoughts

Assalamualaikum.
Hello, lama gak tak tulis apa-apa kat sini. So, apa khabar pada korang yang tengah baca sini. Wait, wait... Hari ini pun dah masuk pertengahan bulan October. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Like, lagi tinggal two months for 2019. Hiakkk. So fast, meh. Why? Why? Gonna cry hard because a lot I have to do, to grab and to handle. But still too lazy to move! Hahahahahhaha...

In the same time, I pretty much excite gak actually for 2020 because I already draw up many plans and Insyaallah I pray everything berjalan dengan lancar ya. Please put me in full of rainbow and smiles next year, Creator. Aamin. Benda itu, ia yang termasuklah personal matters and those part sana sini dhuniawi yang boleh buat pening-pening lalat tau. Paling penting, hati dab minda kena kental. Self confident, I can do it. Fighting!

Indeed, dengan kita hanya merancang dan Tuhan yang menentukan... Please, please pray for my own disciplinary manners agar tak mengelat ke apa. Be strong, be creative, be mature and be relevant. I can have fun like hu.ha.hu.ha or family gathering but still must limit entertainment time, especially media social. I already deleted my Facebook account for your information after i feel everything is nonsense. So yeah. No Facebook for me. I will tulis tentang kenapa ianya berlaku di lain hari hokey.

For your information, I really missed who am I in the past. I want that feeling which I don't care who you are and what you gonna aspect from me. I just do my things, help anything needed and here the result. You appreciate me, and I mostly will appreciate you. Win win situation and let it go... Ayat lagi sedap 'Ikhlas'. Less critics please, and be be idealistic. In simple or critical condition hopefully can firmly say 'no' or 'yes'. Tolak cara baiklah. Tengah mencuba nak adapt this manners.

Alright...banyak tulis dah ini. Kita cerita topik lain di lain page. Bubbye, take care and be happy. =)

Student Life: 2018/2019 University Malaya

Hello,

A good news to share, I just graduated from University Malaya around end of June this year. Big clap for me, please. It's truly hard I can said because I learnt far more deeper than my colleagues worker mention. When their time, they just concern about one discipline of surgery but for me, I need to focus in all discipline. Yups. Maybe because my standard platform studied-University level. Can't say anything, even when I do my medical check up, my doctor said...''University Malaya? Must be tough. Top student?'' I don't think so...Nope, just my luck because it's my dream University since kids. 

When my manager offered me this University, I willingly to accept it with big smile. It's like a dream came true, still can't believe it. With contract boned for three years with hospital I signed away my brain for more challenges. A year study at University Malaya...Take that huh! I also moved out from my previous house because I want to change an environment, need more space to study later. Drama much? Don't think so.

My first day at the University? I came second late and after few seconds, I realized all my classmate wore a normal clothes not an uniform... how wonderful it sound? Can I rewind everything...please. On the second day and so on, my places is at the end of the class. Because everyone not too excited changed a seat with me. Hahahhaha... Like a gangster lady we talk here. 

My complaints? As usual, lot of students have lot of critics for her lecturer. Can't hide it. Lots of thing happen, many memories to share but everything going well. Me, in the same time will  sneak out from practical session wherever I can. Lunch hour is the best time to hang around in the hospital. Syuhhhh... And, I still want to said...Why our syllabus also need more critical thinking, I felt it been teach about what junior doctor should experienced. Thanks God, I pass- Not that I can't do it with flying colors but in the same time I need to focus on another goal which both are also important. 

Our last dinner date at Grand BlueWave Shah Alam, as me a reception girl. My trick to avoid involved in dance performance. Overall, I still thankful for all my lecturer, even my classmate for all their sharing knowledge and support. Love you all and please take care of your yourself. Good luck also for further future!

Gambate!