Assalamualaikum. Is. It. So. Freaking. Hard. To. Just. Be. Normal? Duh, Because sometimes I've always been stuck by the thought that... My attitude doesn't match my attire. And the opposite. Pretty confuse at first. To think how can i reach both together synchronize... Even routinely in life,  I laugh,  I make people laugh,  I talk,  I smile,  I jump  I enjoy life like others... But... still something's wrong somewhere, spiritually. So,  I keep a goal that, Neither would I or you....give up,  because I know He's with us. :) Salam 14 Syawal all.

Assalamualaikum. About two days ago, I wore a black jubah. As i storied where i bought, here... "Nightmare Malam Raya ". With combination of peach pinkish color scarf. I love it. Looks so pastel and very comfortable. And end of the day... Since i wait for my friend finishing her make up. I lepak at the pantry. They said it's too big. M size actually. They said why not pick XS. Bit fit. I just smile... To me, It's my choice. And i like it longgar. And not showing any curved. The more it's not interesting to others. The more i like. Life's goal. And when i walked with my friends. She said it's too long. But the jubah only until my ankle. Below a bit. Close fully my feet. Talked how i looks so difficult when took a escalator. Boleh sapu lantai katanya lagi. I just smile... To me, I don't mind that. More difficult if you have to cover your sin back. I guess... Sapu lantai? Because i sapu your sin together. : ) ...

Hello. This post, I'm not condemn anyone. Yes. Even about to mention the specific name. Sorry if feel you don't like it. Or think i hate you. No. Clearly no. I not hate anybody. This is because... I love you. Preciously care about you. And majorly hoping you can change. Obviously, I'm not a goddess Just... May be because i'm too positive... To me, everything is so unpredictable. Too shocked. It's too much for me to accept it. And, nope. I can't take it. You looks fine, You are good in one person. But, it's not what i want to talk... but everything about those attitude you try to hide. More evil than devil. And be bipolar, hypocrite. Thought that no one will know. Even someone above. Shame on you. Are you happy do this to me. Lying all happy ending? Smile on all the sin? Until when you can pretend? Until you win? And drag me along? To hell. Tell me. I want to know. Because it's hurt. Most hurt. When that firs...

Assalamualaikum. Hai. Lately, my Facebook page banyak notify tentang events kahwin. Lots of my ex school and college friends yang ke arah itu. Basically,  I'm happy for them. : ) Alhamdulillah. Hopefully one day, me is one of them. Amin. Feel so proud behalf of them. Finally, both partner found the right person in their life. They confident with their future. They stride for it. And continued it with cara yang halal. Cayalah! Anyway, Married is a simple word but has a deepest meaning. As what you can see from below pic... When you choose a husband. You choose... a father, a friend, idol, a teacher for you and your children. So please, please and please choose wisely. And handsome is not everything. If you get the handsome one. I called it as a bonus mark. Copy? Some said, Kahwin biarlah sekali dan berkekalan. Everyone dream that. Orang gila jek tak nak bahagia. Fight? Ganer if gaduh-gaduh... Even sometime...

Assalamualaikum, Raya-raya-raya... Selamat beraya semua. Sorry lambat post about my Raya. Just because, this Raya a bit kureng. Mungkin sebab dah tua kot. Hahahhah.... Truely is cuti tak dapat. So, fight with time until Sunday i going back KL. Our routine masak lodeh and ayam sambal early morning, keep moving on. After that, bertukar juadah dengan jiran. Siap-siap cepat-cepat. The man gi sembahyang.  We women, buat last touch up. : ) Not just make up but don't forget to serve the table. Isi kuih dalm balang juga. After all gather...  We all mintak maaf reramai, snap picture and makan juadah Raya. The juadah i like most this year is lemang. Lemang buluh. Combined with serunding or rendang. Perfet. Yummy! Celebration our se-family biasa sahaja. Nothing interesting other than activity potong cake for Sist Tira birthday. 17 july, girl. Anak-anak sedara...inter frame as always. Bebudak biasa la. Evening, vi...

Assalamualaikum. Aku rasa caption pic atas sangat best and terbaik. Menggambarkan apa yang aku rasa. 'Sebab aku comel'. Ko hade? Hahhaha... Mekasih pada yang sudi bagi tuh. Aku memang sudah cakap aku dah kerja. Tapi tetap nak bagi. aku macam okayyyy.... Trimas bro! Alahamdulillah. Moga murah rezeki korang. Dan Allah always bless you all. Aamin. ; )

Assalamualaikum. Even benda ini sudah six days berlalu. Tapi still unforgettable, Ever and ever... This is i called, malam raya paling nightmare! Huhhuhu.. That evening, petang raya. After change my plan sebab dapat balik awal. Hati terus bersorak gembira. And sampai Johor around 6.45pm. They pick me up. Mereka adalah Sist Yam and husbend, anak dia dua orang... Ziq and apiz. My sister Tila and Jima. We all buka puasa dekat Angsana mall. Only we know what we ate. Hohooo... Lawak-lawak tapi sedih. Sebab ingat dapatlah last celebrate buka pose ngan mak ayah. Sob...sob...sob. After buka, solat Magrib. And since Puan Yam and husbend nak gi beli barang. I and cik Ziqa gi la beli donut, Sister Tila and Jima and Apiz, three of them entah mana pergi. Nak kata dounut tu sedop, Tak delah. Tapi...after makan, I and cik Ziqa, We lost from all of them. Memula, aku rasa ni semua feeling jek,  So sedapkan hati mencarilah kami aka...

Assalamualaikum. (previous post- Durian  ) Sorry dude, Kita talk pasal durian lagi. ; ) Yup, After a week and celebrate raya pun da lepas... naik raya jek.  Terus ada orang buat open table tok makan durian. Tak nyempat-nyempat. Cheit, Sajer bagi hancur my diet. Biler gini... Orang ajak makan. Mestilah join kan. Hohohooo. Durian nih kalau tolak, ibarat tolak rezeki paling dalam. Subahanallah. Tak lupa juga, Billion thanks kepada pemilik dusun. Murah rezekinya. And pihak yang menggangkutnya. Berbaloi penat kakak sekalian. Pape pon, Meh, meh. Makan-makan-makan. First reaction... Muka malu-malu tapi realitinya excited sebab dapat makan. Pastu macam...really! Senyum sorang-sorang. Pastu jadik part time model durian, Selamat makan, der! Hidu bau pon jadik la. : )

Hello. Hai. After my three 'cerpen' crazy stories... Cerpen: Kisah dongeng yang hampeh Cerpen: Lelaki bermata biru Cerpen: Kecoh Raya I again want challenging myself doing another story. Bit long. And i called this as a short novel. Perhaps. Hahhah... The story line more about Islam and family things. Sound cliche. But in my terms, this not only cliche but top of cliche types. : ) Synopsis: Ammar Dubies, twenty eight guy got everything he wanted in life. He had the looks, wealth, and power. Until a day his life trap him with a wife things. But there are only a few things you need to know about him: He don’t believe in love and don’t ever want to get married. Not I said he is a gay. At least, that what he always told himself. Allah has said that, He created us in pairs.  But the question is whose gonna tame him? Best quotes: If you can't change your fate, change your attitude. "Kisah yang sempurna", or a perfe...

Assalamualaikum. Selamat hari raya semua! : ) Yup. Before i meratah all dishes di pagi raya. Yang look pretty good and awesome. My family and i would like menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf /apologize kepada those muslim and muslimah.  Well known or unknown.  For every words and action yang tidak disenangi. Mana terkurang even terlebih. Sorry. Sincere from bottom of our heart and soul. By the way... Make it right by, cheers ourselves and keep our phone away for this precious moments. Bila lagi nak together ramai-ramai macam ni kan. So, Appreciate it. Bentang tikar and start a conversation. May Allah have His mercy upon us and our family. Happy eid mubarak!

Assalamualaikum. My point of view: This Ramadhan is a bit like rushing, fighting with the time. And when you realized about that, you're already at the end of this good month. If time can be reversed. I will fix it all. Yeah, maybe only... In my dream. From starting i already apply a week annual leave. So everything look smooth. In sequence. Sahur with excitement. Spending whole time helping cleaning my parents house. Help in taking care of my niece and nephew. Kept sibling, parents ukhwah relationship in best fix position. Hehheh... Then, Buka puasa with family. Go Terawih. But after my annual leave, and mula bekerja. All up and down. My own big regret. Is for not keeping myself to achieve my precious goals. ... To complete reading Quran in this good month. Subhanallah. May Allah permudahkan segalanya. Others is like my normal month. Keep humble, smiling and bersyukur! That's a good manner yang sememangnya ada. Hhehheh... Keep it up, dear. A...

Assalamualaikum, Hai. Let's talk about something serious.... the contact number. 'Cause i felt so bad about it right now. About what just happened few minutes ago. To me to be exactly. Yup... That's me. As people really knew me, i don't really good in remembering someone phone number. Biggest weak. Admit it. Yeah... like, i have something more important to remember. Rather than that long digit number, included the most i hate... someone who like to change their phone number every month. And my brain so limited in space. : ) Because of this night, All of sudden when my super senior massage me. I not see the contact number... and simply reply is like a gangster tone. Gosh! Conservation going smooth. But, When she want make a phone call, i said bring it on. I'm not "bisu" yet. Then, When i heard the first word... i just like.... Okayyyy... I'm dealing with wrong person. Please get me outer here. Huhuuu... Luckily, she ...

Assalamualaikum. Excuse me. Aura Raya yang coming soon, membutkan aku ingin update about it. Hehheheh... Tara! Just my simple baju kurung. This abstract colourful cloth i bought at kedai tepi jalan jek. Jangan tak percaya. Baru you know how humble i'm. No boutique or special designer needed. Okayyyy... As long as i'm feel comfortable, just go with it. : ) The price so affordable. RM50.00 only. And nah... i take it. Usually, baju raya aku suka if my emak yang jahitkan.  She know my size and what i want. But, This year... my emak bit busy with my sister in pantang. Cucu ke-7. With other dua cucu lagi untuk di jaga-Cik Ziqa and Apiz Ultraman. So, i don't wanna kacau. Beli je lah kan. I like the fabric.  And the mustard colour scarf is special gift from my younger sister. Magically, quiet match with this baju kurung. Gunakan lah. Save! Thanks sis. My next baju raya...i choose black. This one has no p...

Assalamualaikum, Last past month, since my motorcycle broken down. Oh, And still being repair. I starting used a LRT daily and surprisingly... also transform my way of dressing. Something good i learnt from here. Alhamdulillah. From those trousers, T-shirt to... Baju kurung or long skirt... What can i say. I felt quiet cute, duh. : ) My motto: Always dress well but keep it simple! And comfortable. In this Ramadhan month, i prefer to continue this good habits. Hhehhe... And below is one of my outfit. FYI, in keeping on budget for celebrating Eid day. I now in trying recycle all my own old cloth and refreshing it with new style. As long as it's kept of muslimah types. I'm okay with it. By the way, That maxi dress, you can catch up on my previous post. Three years ago, Maxi dress. Match that, match this... those. Are the silent surviving i facing everyday. Some bit challenging, some like, just pick what i can rea...

Assalamualaikum. Hai. Some mesti cam tak suka dengan my topic. But, what can i say. Sorry. May you just shut up or leave. Durian, raja buah. I'm not too die hard fan. But if you wanna me to join you. And volunteer to open up the buah for me. I'm on. Hehhehe.... Bagi yang tak makan sebabkan the odor. To me, Bau... is just a subjective words. But who cares if the taste is so lovely. : ) Rasa dia? It's some bitter but lemak-lemak gitu. I like this type. And. Some sweet and just nice. So, every buah durian you open...just a suprise taste. Kiranya if dapat berkenan rasanya. Heaven. So, actually... Aku dah melantak this durian masa awal puasa yang aku cuti a week. But, two days ago. My colleague, buat makan-makan durian after buka pose. Hhehhe... Please give that man award. Sebab bagi idea yang sangat bernas. Yummy!

Assalamualaikum. I donno others. But some of my friends think how comedian i can be. Co-me-di-an. What!? Just seriously. Hahhahah... How can their mind can thought like this. So fake. So crazy. The fact is i'm not like that okay. May be they just enjoy my real me. When i don't like something, i just tell the truth. 'Terus terang' Or if i cannot told, they can see from my mimic faces. Duh. I don't like be hypocrite. That's my automatic action. If that what they mean. Overall i think if they sit 24/7 with me. Surely bored. Bosan-bosan-bosan-bohjan- Ehhh... 'Cause i'm not really socialize person. Laughter until your tears come out and stomach ache. So far only to the person i close enough. Usually my family member. When we throw back our childhood moments. That's non stop if i got the point. Gulinglah anda di situ sampai esok. All of us... Hate to see people sad, or down. ...

Asslamualaikum all. I'm not being against the world. Even racist to any religion. But, i called this humanity. Needed only from your little sense of human. Perhaps still have it. 'Cause today i just see humans, not humanity. We stay free and peace in this country. With our lovely family and friends. We laugh, we play, and we sleep well. We're happy. But in other small place in this world is in war. They cry, they fight and they suffering. How can we pretend they do not exist? Are we losing our humanity? And we think everything gonna be okay. But sadly, Everything is not okay. They are under attacked. There are forcing them to die... To every unharmed children, women and old men. It's unfair. Please put down your gunfire. Stop killing them! To those who responsible of this incident, We was refusing money. For the sake of peace, Give them hope. Just give a freedom. Because, humanity now is crying in despair. Lastly, Raise our voi...

Assalamualaikum. Yesterday, after worked. Around 4.00 pm, I took a shuttle to LRT Ampang Park. Yeah, again... Me and public transport. Waiting for a shuttle? No offense. When i met this very humble old man. He's a professor plus doctor of orthopedic oncologist at my workplace. Even we know each other, i still like... bit shy. Just me and my routine greeting and talk about previous case. Then, I though he will walk away to doctor's parking. But... What a surprise, when he joining us in the shuttle. Simple with his office attire, no tie and a backpack. Very down to earth. After drop at our destination... we said goodbye. Because he want to buy a pizza for his daughter. And that's my story. By the way, I want give my million respect to him. Masyaallah.

Assalamualaikum. When i seen some of my friends going travel oversea. Korea, New Zealand, Hong Kong, United Kingdom, Bali, even Sabah or Sarawak. I feel nothing. Nothing excited. Nothing major. Just happy for them. But, If i heard that one of my friends go Umrah or Haji. I feel woooowwww.... Can you bring me together? Pretty please. ... Yup! Mekah, is the top or 1st in my bucket-list i want to go. By hook or by crook. I wanna be there. My master plan. My dream place. If i'm selfish. With my money i had now. Packing my bag. I can go alone. But, yeah... we must bring someone "mahram" or husband if i'm married. Then,  I'm single. So i decided to bring along my emak and ayah. So, i have to collect more money. May Allah bless me and my plans. : ) Then,  After my master plan pass. I just feel free to go anywhere. Hehheheh... Can't wait! Peace. : )