'Mak cik bawang'

Assalamualaikum.

I used to be a friendly and happy go lucky person.
Everyday always bright and sunshiny. I played and did lots of prank with my childhood friends.
Argh, the memories!
Missed it.
And when i entered kindergarten, im so excited because i can meet new friends and exploring more.
Then one day its change everything.
... That the sky not always blue and the sun doesn't always shine.

There is one boy in my class, he is always at number last in my class and he's not handsome too.
As what my judgements are at that time ok.
And then day by day, i accepting his existence and sometimes look at him from a far. Why he be like that?
He's slow learner, and 'blur-blur' person and not mingle much. I also realised that his life is so bad and not even a rainbow accompany. 
Hardly seen him smile. I pity him. I can't.
And one day, i bravely approached and smile brightly at him. And he just look at me for a seconds. I stares back, there he is... Blurred. I'm shocked.

After we go to standard one school, i then noted that he is included in a special class. So then, the reality hit me hard.
There's a person like this in this world.
That need a big attention.
The autism, the Adhd and so on.
I felt bad not only about them but for my self truly.
From here, its change the way I'm thinking...

When i became 'pengawas' at high schools, the more i mingle around the more i seen people like this.
Especially friends at class 'belakang-belakang'. More horrified.
I don't like how people think that me at the front class are better than them and there is hard barriers between us. Like a racism!
And they kept saying don't mingle around with them or even worse stay in our circles.
'pandai-pandai' and 'tak pandai-tak pandai'.
Why? Why can't we help each other, learning more specifically maybe and then success together. Is it against the law?

As i grown older. Shoot.
Ok reality. As i entered the international university for higher education, I'm facing real racism may not only between us Malaysia but also any people from this world.
I can see how the body languages and the intonation when they spoke. There's something fishy everywhere.
I don't like how they criticise and not even used words 'membina'. You can felt the hurts inside.
I don't like this culture and mingles thing anymore.
So i starts to avoiding people.
I built my own space to against them.
I kept my wall solid.
I don't want people judging me from head to the toe.

Later as i kept my life private, i got my own term to my situation...something that i don't want people to know me better than myself.
Yeah, it's me and I'm happy with it.
Not that I'm arrogance, shy, ego much or what.
I'm just comfortable only with who am i.
I don't like people touch me too.
Obviously in my own space.
This lead to...
The more comfortable I'm with myself the more i avoided people around me. Especially my housemate or even my best friends.
Not my families duh, 'mau kena lempang?'.

About eight or nine years ago, i started work fully and the words 'kawan sekerja' worried me.
How can i deal with people? So i applied to work at the normal clinics at the Johor Bahru. So far, i only have a six people included my boss to communicate with.
But i will facing same patient or new face everyday. So i terribly in the bad condition. Or should i just go back home and stay in my room?
Days passed, and I'm survived. So i change my mind. I want to work at big hospital and see how i can develop myself.

I moved to Kuala Lumpur, then i slowly accepted people openly in my life back. Why?
It partly because of my planning to go Umrah. As its fully sponsored under me, i need to settle it from the started to the end. I just realised, somehow i may depends in theirs.
I need them in my life.
'Tragic enough ayatttt'...
So after that, the more I'm surrounded by many people, meet them everyday. I slowly put holes in my walls.
Not bad.
But still, not too close enough as my walls are standing still.

My communication skills might be changes to be better, but i still preferred listening than talking.
As eyes is main point in this part, rather than i accepting how they gonna turn me as a victim... I twisted the plot by reading to their mind.
Bravo!
Not I'm judging them, i just analysed those information and body languages part. It's fun actually.
So that i can replied everything with facts or 'selitkan' any advices. Something like that.
As it, i ended everything well. Don't want any enemies huh.

Right now, these people we called them as 'mak cik' or 'pak cik bawang'.. So be careful guys.
Even they can't see you face to face, commenting in social media hurts a lot too. Every words are counting!
This snake trapped are poisoning to our minds.
Don't argue with the idiots, they will drag you down to their level. This is your life, this is your rules.
So don't be a victim but may or not just ignore them.
Just play the game well.
You can do it.

Recycling your things

Assalamualaikum.

Hello, hello, hello. Long time no see...
At last, i got my own time to write something here as no classes and just two final papers on next week.
So. What's interesting? A lot actually.
I'm so happy round around with life as a student.
And lots of activities.
Times wasted can't be refunded right.
So i used it wisely enough.

First, I packed all my things which are not important anymore and sent to H&M, and left up wherever things i required much only.
Need a space to breath.
Also scrubbing here and there, dust please go away!
This part took me about one month to go throughout everything. Even so tired but then it satisfying as i like the result.
My room and the bathroom are so refreshing and bling.bling.bling.

One good slot is I did my time management online course. Alhamdulillah. Everything going smoothly and I like it very much.
Now practices in my daily life.
Tried to make as a routine to transform becoming a habit.
Tougher day by day.
But i know i can do it.
Fighting...

Last week, i got a week and half time to go back at my hometown Johor.
Happy dance for me.
I did all the chores inside the house, as my main planning is to clear up all the old-old things. Mostly focus on the clotting line.
Sorted the baju kurung, jeans, blouse not fitted anymore and some 'kain buruk' too.
So far as the results i get 16 medium recycle bags! A lot right...
This bags are go to the H&M as usual.

Why H&M?
Because when you sent it there for recycle, one bag they will give you a free coupon valued 15% for any of H&M clothes.
Happy them, happy me.
I sent an old clothes, i replaced it with new one.
Yeah, but not so happy duh.
Because the coupons all goes to my sister.
She took all of it.
Whatever.

Another old things i disposed in that house are the papers, newspapers and empty boxes.
Secure it nicely and tied it tightly with ropes.
Sent to the disposes area.
At kota tinggi, Johor there is one small shop just behind the Mayers hotel do this kind of recycle things.
You also can sent 'besi buruk' too.
So, get your house clean now.
Go.
The payment? Now much, for two medium boxes i only get Rm 3.40. What a joke...
Again, whatever.

At that time, Johor is so hot because not raining for almost a month.
On my way go back home from the morning walk at the beach, i can seen some areas are already burnt.
And very dried.
Just remembered to drink a lot of water and avoid outdoor activities actually.

... So, this is my full stop.
Sorry.
I will continue later.
Stay healthy guys.
= )

ISLAM: A special story about seven years old

Hello.

I really likes the picture above.... Their smile, hand in the air, dirt at trouser, green grass and bubbles everywhere-The environment is so perfect. I don't have any kid yet, but to me if one day God give me one.... I want to it looks like this. Maybe my partner has to be more though in do the washing later.

Not having any children doesn't mean I can't learn anything about them, some info never be a harm right. Like, it somehow so beneficial to me in future. Like any parents out there, I want the best for my kids. So, keep reading and try to get an idea from this post, and enjoy.

Last year i had seen a YouTube video from Dr Bruce Lipton, about how we're programmed at birth. It's so interesting to watch because it's a special story about seven years old and the development things that happen to them specifically. Called me nerd and weird, but yeah. It still amaze me.

From there, I synchronize it with my religion...Islam. I searched any special verse in Quran that somehow touch about this topic. And also make some room for any some hadith too. Later, I brilliantly makes all of this became more and more interesting. In the same time, it encourage me to dig more.

The division is based on the following hadith of the Prophet (s.a.w.): “The child is the master for seven years; and a slave for seven years and a vizier for seven years; so if he grows into a good character within 21 years, well and good; otherwise leave him alone because you have discharged your responsibility before Allah.”

The same hadith has been explained by Imam Ja`far as-Sadiq (a.s.): “Let your child play up to seven years; and keep him with you (for education and training) for another seven years; then if he succeeds (well and good); otherwise, there is no good in him.”

An example between this two part (above) I can said...our life be sort of by seven years old each time. Is it give you any heart attack? Don't worry, you should be appreciate everything you have right now. Maybe you can make undo by teach a right things to your own kid. Just search more, read more and interesting enough into how growth and development process in human, by physical and mind. 

 

First seven years old (Master)-The baby (0-12 months) we treat as a fragile human that every parents will give them everything they needed-breastfeed, expensive diapers and toys. At toddler (1-3 years old) and preschool (3-5 years old) time, the prince or princess will exposes into intellectual, social and emotional changes. In term, teach them play right (good words, creativity-they will surely follow your every action) until grade school er (5-7 years old). 

Next seven years old (Slave)-Continues from grade school er (8-12 years old). As busy you're, makes your kids busy too... These is the time when their own personal power evolves, parents need to be a better guidance in making them have successful life experience. The teenager (12-14 years old), as far as they want to be independent but you're still the chief or top manager in their every mastermind and action. I don't wanna a spoil growth children with useless manner around me. If you kids have a respect towards you, they will listen to you. This also the best zone to teach them salah, sunnah and dua' to memorize. 

Later seven years old (Vizier)-Continues from the teenager (15-18 years old), adolescence may hit hard to every parents. This is because the kids will deeply understand what frustration, stress and depression are, and then also bring a joy, pride and closeness to us. The young adult (19-21 years old), this time they will go to to college or university, or even drop everything and get a job. Slowly you will let them responsible by own decision and start analyze whether your hard work really working or not by realize that they're built into good manner or worsen. 

Woah, so much commitment! Yups. It's not easy when you want to form a better figure human in the community. You as a parents will makes a first impression in kid life follow by a good teachers and their friends. So teach them right, if not bad influence will affect or led them-maybe from their friends or environment. Dr Henker quote said , ''Stop trying to perfect your child, but keeping trying to perfect your relationship with them''. 

Share some of your too below, bye!